The Year in Reading: 2025

I always look forward to these little roundups — despite the work — because they give me the opportunity to get a meta-view on the stuff I’m putting in my brain. Reading and dreaming are similar for me, in a way: my conscious self is only rarely driving my choices. I can certainly try to assign myself reading, but the me that exists in the half hour between when I climb into bed and fall asleep is going to read what she’s going to read; ditto for the me on my commute. So last year was my rompy space opera year, the year before was the Year of Martha Wells, and the one before that the Year of Seanan McGuire.

This year was a little harder to categorize. I went back and read a lot of paranormal romance from the heyday: specifically, all of the Twilight Saga and the fifteen or so novels in the first “season” of Nalini Singh’s Psy-Changeling series. I also accidentally read five of Olivia Dade’s novels. I read a little more than a hundred books in 2025, so this is roughly a quarter of my reading. I also read a bunch of books with heists, almost all of them novellas or short stories, and continued reading rompy space opera at a much slower pace. Also, I read a lot of zombie books, per usual, because I don’t have a problem, I have a solution. Which is zombies, apparently.

So without further ado, my year in reading:

Zombies:

I’ll start with zombies because the year starts with zombies in Zombruary. This Zombruary was a little lackluster — frankly, I had a brutal depressive episode — but I’m always going to get to several more throughout the year. As usual, the books are a mix: some from the zombie heyday maybe 10-15 years ago which tend to be pretty classic outbreak-and-seige stories, and some more recent, are often more oblique, coming at zombies in odd ways. While generally I prefer the weird stuff to the more Romero-rules narratives, this year I dug the pleasures of the more classic zombie story. Which is to say, I didn’t think some of the more radical experiments worked, though I still enjoyed the attempt.

Revival by Tim Seeley, et al. I first started reading this comic series in 2013 when they were coming out in weekly (monthly?) installments, but, per usual, I wandered off maybe halfway through. I have a pretty serious problem finishing series, even the ones I like, so it was satisfying to go back and read the entire eight volume run from start to finish. The events in Revival are precipitated by a single event: on one day in Wausau, WI, all of the people who died that day get back up. These reanimated people aren’t cannibal shamblers, and the reanimation does not appear to be contagious. Although the setting, art style and dialogue is naturalistic, there’s an edge of the supernatural: rural noir, Midwestern Gothic. The twenty-odd revivers (that the authorities know about) are … mostly normal, but there’s an uncanniness that creeps. The town is quarantined and beset by various federal agencies, and there’s a fair amount of tension between the local podunk bullshit and the high-handed federal bullshit, in addition to the various bullshits of small time dealers, religious hucksters, and opportunistic attention whores.

I absolutely adore the Midwestern setting, and I feel like Seeley et al did a damn fine job of speaking the language of my people, one that relies on understatement and lacuna more often than is wise. While there were some episodes I didn’t enjoy — I thought the change of venue to NYC didn’t quite work in one of the middle volumes — the series has a more than satisfying ending, even if it got a little more operatic that I prefer at points. With a series of this nature, there isn’t ever a single protagonist, or the town is the protagonist. That said, the character of Em, a hidden reviver who basically has to solve her own murder, comes the closest. I really liked the way Em’s story wrapped up — really, the only way that could satisfy — and the decision not to punish the revealed villain with more than natural consequences was a good one.

American Rapture by C.J. Leede. My one-line review was “read the trigger warnings” because these zombies are seriously fucking upsetting. Zombies are generally understood as creatures of appetite, with the urge to consume decoupled from any moderating force. Now do that, but with sexual hunger in addition to the regular kind. Now do that, but have your religiously repressive parents get infected, so you have to run from the house or be attacked by your own father. Though these sexual assaults by the infected aren’t ever described gratuitously, it’s possible that’s worse, letting my imagination do the work of conjuring horror. The themes of the novel center on repressive fundy Christianity in the American Midwest — the title is an indicator — and Leede does an excellent job of sense of place. Like Revival, American Rapture takes place all through central Wisconsin: there’s a memorable sequence in House on the Rock, and I think the main character even passes through Wausau, where the events of Revival take place. Definitely thought about this one long after I finished reading.

Until the End of the World and So Long, Lollipops by Sarah Lyons Fleming. This series was published a dozen or so years ago in the zombie heyday, and it shows. Until the End of the World is pretty straightforward: a group of survivors escape from a zombifying NYC, and strike out to the main character’s parents house in the woods. A lot of people have tagged this as YA, which isn’t accurate but I can see why they do it. There’s a lot of petulant teen behavior that has no place in the zombie apocalypse, nevermind that everyone is in their late 20s. I did like the fact that our main character had been raised by preppers, so she legit knew what she was doing, and knew how hard it was to grow food and have safe water. The book drags because of it though, as there’s a lot of page time of garden tending and the like, so I’m apparently praising and dinging this book for the same thing. So Long, Lollipops is a sidequel novella, and while it was interesting to see what happened to that one guy, it’s def not standalone.

Dating After the End of the World by Jeneva Rose. Dating After the End of the World has more than a few character and plot beats in common with Until the End of the World, weirdly. The main character has to make it out with from a zombifying major metro to head to her parent’s prepper compound, whereupon she settles into some juvenile in-fighting with people who should be old enough to know better, until they’re attacked by a post-apocalyptic gang. I enjoyed Dating After the End more for a couple reasons. The fight scenes are better and they’re a lot gorier, which I thought was interesting for a book which is romance-adjacent. While the romantic pair had just the most cringe banter, the emotional background of the other main players was good, I thought. Dad became a prepper because of the very traumatic death of his wife, and the emotional fallout of that has worn pretty deep grooves in all of their lives. I also liked the ending, which might be a cliffhanger, or might just be really funny.

What Moves the Dead by T. Kingfisher. Maybe tagging this is as a zombie book is a bit of a spoiler, but I think you know pretty quickly that some serious fuckshit is happening with the uncanny rabbits. What Moves the Dead is a riff on The Fall of the House of Usher, and, like the Poe story, the novel follows the person come to visit the Ushers, in this case a soldier from an invented central European country. Per usual, Kingfisher’s narrator is funny and sly and entertaining, and the events more creeping dread and occult weirdness than bloodbath or cruelty. Tbh, I just didn’t connect to this one like I have with Kingfisher’s other horror. There were some nice bits — I am always down for some sporror, for example — but the overall tone bordered on flippant, which I don’t think works in Gothic horror so well. Not bad at all, just not quite for me.

Bloody Sunrise by Gwendolyn Harper. Honestly, if this hadn’t been an insomnia read, I might not have enjoyed it as much. Bloody Sunrise is a straightforward road trip through the zombie apocalypse, up to and including a pretty jaundiced view of human nature. The MMC was pitched to me as having Pedro Pascal vibes, which is kinda accurate, but also it’s tough to capture Pascal’s specific dorky delights on the page. I also didn’t love how this ends on a serious cliffhanger. I fully expected this to be published ten years before it was in that weird period when everyone was serializing everything, because it feels like an installment in a serialized novel. (Basically the only writers I’ll accept this from are Karen Marie Moning — grudgingly — or Mira Grant.) So was this amazing? No. Will I quit reading this series in a huff? Also no. 

The Z Word by Lindsay King-Miller. The pitch on this one made it seem right up my alley: a disaster bisexual has to ride out the beginnings of the zombie apocalypse perpetrated by the corporate sponsor of Pride weekend in a small town in Arizona. Oh, and her ex-girlfriend was working with the sponsor, so the ex is either a patsy or a collaborator. I’m into the criticism of corporate bullshit co-opting queerness as cynical “branding,” but it wasn’t very coherent here in the end. The tonal swerve between pulp and something like realism didn’t work for me either. Fwiw, I think Eat Your Heart Out (a zombie novel I read for last Zombruary) by Kelly deVos manages a similar sort of cultural criticism — with zombies! — in a much more adroit way. 

Zomromcom by Olivia Dade. Zomromcom is just what it says on the tin: a romantic comedy … with zombies! The romantic comedy part of the story worked for me, the zombie part less so. But I was in the mood for this kind of quippy goofiness, so I had a good time anyway. I also enjoyed the romantic pair. The vampire love interest is openly bisexual, but more than that, he’s also pretty femme. He has a fashion and makeup insta, and he’s more than a little vain about his dashing good looks. I don’t think you run into many femme bi men in mainstream romance, or even in not-mainstream romance. Edie is kind of a dingdong, which is pretty common for romcom heroines, but it never tips over into suicidal stupidity or clueless cruelty. (I’m just a sol bean who can’t help getting people killed being a dumbass uwu. This sort of thing happens a lot in zombie stories.) I get the impression this is the start of a series, and I’m into it.

Awakened by Laura Elliott. Thea Chares lives in the Tower of London with a skeleton crew of medical staff, engineers, and a couple other folk, people who were instrumental in developing a neural implant that would eliminate a person’s need for sleep. After the neural chip was widely adopted, something catastrophic happened with the programming of the chip, a shift which basically turned everyone into ravening monsters. Thea and her band of survivors while away their time trapped in the Tower half-assedly trying to come up with a cure and in-fighting, a tenuous status quo that is unsettled when they take in two survivors: a pregnant human woman, and a preternaturally self-composed one of the Sleepless. The plot of the novel, insofar as there is one, is pretty episodic. Awakened is laid out in an almost epistolary format, narrated by Thea. While this sort of musing, literary take on the zombie apocalypse usually makes me freak out, cf. It Lasts Forever and Then It’s Over by Anne de Marcken, another Zombrurary book I read last year, Awakened never quite clicked for me, and that despite some really great writing. Alas.

This Dark Earth by John Hornor Jacobs. I sort of fell into reading this again when I finished reading Jacobs’s most recent novel, The Night That Finds Us All, and wanted it to keep going. His writing is so fucking good. I read this when it came out, and even wrote a long review back when I did such things. I don’t necessarily have much to add to it, other than I really, really appreciate Jacobs’s attention to detail. This Dark Earth was the first of his novels I’d read, but as I’ve read down his oeuvre, I can tell how much research he puts into his books, but it doesn’t come out in a showy, flashy way. The doctor in This Dark Earth speaks both casually and professionally about the symptoms the infected exhibit — this looks like such-and-such syndrome, but that only affects people with a Y chromosome, wtf, &c — but it never turns into a lecture. I totally get the impulse to show off when you’ve done some good research, and the restraint Jacobs shows while still clearly knowing what he’s talking about is dope as hell. Hail to the king, baby.

Southern Reach by Jeff Vandermeer

I ended up listening to the entire Southern Reach series — original trilogy Annihilation, Authority, Acceptance, and the more recently published Absolutionbecause while I’ve read all four books before, I tore through them so fast that the mechanics of the plot didn’t register, other than a few bright, terrible moments. So the full impact of creeping dread punctuated by terrifying reveals was largely intact, hoorah. I had virtually no memory of Acceptance, for example, which became a problem when I read Absolution; there’s a lot of lore. The novels deal with an eldritch anomaly called Area X on the Forgotten Coast of Florida — something like a pocket universe crossed with a dreamscape. A governmental body called the Southern Reach has the administration of Area X as its mandate, such as it is. Vandermeer plays with storytelling styles, tropes, narrative voices, perspective, and so on, all in the service of some of the most quietly unsettling shit put to paper.

While I really don’t care what the explanation for Area X’s existence or behavior is — that does not matter to the viscera of the narrative — I did find myself thinking about the reader’s perception of Area X. So much of what we know is filtered through the Southern Reach, and the institutional wisdom of the SR is … institutional. All the spy machinations and siloing leads to paranoia, and that’s not even getting into Lowry’s arachnid fuckshit at the center of things. While a lot of horrible stuff happens to our characters, this time through I experienced the ending on the original trilogy this as almost a somulant letting go, the sleeper’s hand opening as dreams pull them under. 

A note on the audio: I wouldn’t have expected it from an actor I associate with 80s sitcoms and the asshole character in TV movies, but holy wow is Bronson Pinchot’s voice acting excellent. (Carolyn McCormick was lovely too, but I didn’t have preconceived notions about her.)

The Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer

Back in my Goodreads days, that site basically ran on Twilight reviews. I read Twilight at that time and then decided to be done with the series. But then I ended up reading Breaking Dawn because I’d been told Breaking Dawn was relevant to my interests (which it was.) Though this is reductive, the first three Twilight novels each misread a work of classic literature: Twilight alludes to Pride & Prejudice; New Moon gets Romeo & Juliet wrong; and Eclipse makes an absolute hash of Wuthering Heights. The mistaken asshole plot of P&P is so ubiquitous in romance that it doesn’t set me off, but I have a whole thing about R&J and an even bigger one about Wuthering Heights, so I knew it was best that I stay away. Anyway, this year ended up being the year that I read the entire Twilight Saga, including the gender-flipped version she put out for the 10 year anniversary. I did not read Midnight Sun, however, because everyone I know who read it says it was trash.

Twilight. I don’t have much to say about this one that I haven’t already said. I’ll just note that Meyer does do an excellent job invoking the absolute cringiest parts of adolescence, which is one of those good news/bad news situations. Well done! But now I’ve broken out in hives.

New Moon. Meyer’s depiction of depression is decent, like the run of blank pages used to signify her catatonia. Bella’s emotional emptiness and feelings of flatness resonated with me as well; depression can be numb instead of painful. However, having only seen the movies before, I was a little taken aback by how much book Jacob sucks. Like seriously, fuck that guy. And the Romeo & Juliet intertext is so much more pronounced in book New Moon, which isn’t a good thing: Meyer doesn’t have the best sense of what makes that work tick. (Spoiler: they have to die at the end.) So she does things like have both Edward and Bella profess they believe they are dreaming for pages and pages, which, in addition to being super embarrassing, also makes them look like ninnies.

Eclipse. In some ways Eclipse is better than New Moon — considerably more happens and the action sequence is well written — but Jacob Black is such a date rape piece of shit that, as a whole, the book is considerably worse. Also, Meyer gets everything wrong in the Wuthering Heights intertext: neither of those dipshits Edward nor Jacob can hold a candle to the majestic swath of fucking destruction Heathcliff wreaks in Brontë’s novel, and Bella doesn’t have anywhere near Cathy’s incandescent cruelty. I thought the Romeo & Juliet thing in New Moon was misguided, but at least R & J were teenage dumbasses, so same. On the other hand, the fact that Bella has to get into a sleeping bag with Jacob or she’ll freeze to death was hilarious, and I admire using such a hoary old chestnut without a hint of embarrassment. On the level that these novels work, they work because they are utterly, perfectly earnest. I know that sounds like a dig, but it isn’t. While these books aren’t my own personal heroin, I can see why so many people love them.

The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner. Maybe it was the mood I was in when I read Bree Tanner, but I thought it was so delightfully goofy. Bree was the newborn vampire that Carlisle spared at the end of Eclipse but the Volturi killed anyway, and this is her first-person account of the last maybe two weeks before her death. Victoria and Riley, who were responsible for creating this newborn army, let the new vampires believe they couldn’t go into the sun, so all the new vamps end up stuck in the basement every night. Apparently, that many vampires in one place is going to end in lots of fights, and I was so amused by how many people got their arms ripped off — don’t worry, it’s bloodless and they reattach them. At one point, Riley throws someone’s own arms chunks at him lol. Anyway, I enjoyed the tone of Bree Tanner because Bree does so much less moaning and bitching than Bella. 

Breaking Dawn. Like Twilight, I’ve already spilled more than enough ink on Breaking Dawn. I’ll just note that I didn’t have quite as strong a reaction to the horrific birthing sequence this time around, I think because I’m farther from my own horrific birthing experience with the older kid. That said, that is still one of the most disturbing depictions of pregnancy and childbirth put to paper. And in a freaking YA novel! Shudder.

Life and Death. Stephenie Meyer was so hurt by critics pointing out how weird and creepy she treats gender in the series — recall that multiple grown-ass men imprint on female infants, for just one disturbing example — that she wrote a whole gender-flipped version of Twilight. (Imprinting is a sort of one-sided soul mate bond, because women don’t imprint back.) And she doesn’t just flip the genders of Edward and Bella, here named Edythe and Beaufort (lol), she flips everyone’s gender, except for Charlie and Renee, weirdly.

The book is somehow both hilarious and tedious. It’s beat for beat with Twilight, down to identical dialogue in some places, which gets really old. But it also shows how horrifically bad she is at writing men, especially in the first person (which, I’m given to understand, is one of the many things wrong with Midnight Sun.) She inadvertently proves her critics’ points: absolutely none of the procreative terror and female-coded “protective” magic works if Bella is Beau, and the whole love triangle with Jacob/Julie doesn’t work if she can’t imprint her way out of it. But the whole thing is so utterly bonkers that I ended up having a good time anyway. Shrug emoticon.

Cities! Cities! Cities!

There are many things I adore in fiction: the post-apocalyptic mall, functioning sff bureaucracies, zombies, &c. Pretty high on the list is vibrant, complicated, fucked up cities. Like the kind of cities that have neighborhoods and aren’t a bare boards play set for the characters, but a character in and of itself. This year was really good for that.

The Rivers of London series by Ben Aaronovich. I’ve been listening my way through this series for the last couple years. I absolutely adore the architecture- and history-nerd stuff that’s all over this series, plus the reader for the audiobooks, Kobna Holdbrook-Smith, is so godamn good at all the accents, inflections, and innuendos of the languages of London, the UK, and all of its denizens. While I like Peter Grant, the first person narrator of this series, London itself is the beating heart of every book. I lived in London briefly in the late 90s, and while I’m not going to pretend I know shit about shit, I do know it’s a freaking cool place, a messy amalgam of Roman forts, Renaissance city design, post-War Brutalist infill, and a dozen small towns swallowed by urbanity, layered over with waves of fires, bombings, and gentrification. God save the queen, &c.

  • The Furthest Station. A novella set between the fifth and sixth books, something something ghosts on the Tube. I admit I’m not the most attentive when I’m listening on my commute, so I kind of have no idea how we got from ghosts to an abducted lady. General confusion aside, I love the reader and I love Peter, the main character’s voice, so I don’t even care.
  • The Hanging Tree. The sixth novel. This one was a little mythology-heavy, which which is kind of an issue because I’m a little hazy on some of the mythos, and also it seemed to crimp the more procedural aspects of the plot. One of these things is my fault, the other less so. Anyway, this novel is the one where the Faceless Man, something of a series antagonist, is unmasked (wocka wocka), and he’s somehow both politely charming and terrifying, which is a good mix. He reminds me of this video I saw once of protesters at the home of the CEO of Nestle — a corporation which is about as evil as it comes — being drawn in so completely by his avuncular politeness that they disburse. That’s what the devil looks like.
  • Lies Sleeping. The seventh installment. We finally get a showdown between Leslie and Peter, and it’s really good. I — and I think Peter — always kind of thought that even though she went to the dark side, Leslie wasn’t completely on the dark side. This was inaccurate! Yikes. I do like that Peter seems to be getting out of policing, because while policework is an easy way to have your characters trot around the city and meet all kinds of folk, the Met police are horrifically corrupt assholes, and anything that doesn’t acknowledge that amounts to copaganda.

Dead Things by Stephen Blackmoore. Maybe cheating a little because urban fantasy is gonna urban. Dead Things felt old school in a lot of ways: the story is one of those dude comes back after a dozen years or so cos something super shitty happened, and then the reunions range from awkward to horrific. Add in a John Constantine-ish magic user and an intimate understanding of LA, and you have some rollicking mid-2010s urban fantasy. Also the main character swears a lot. +1

The City in the Middle of the Night by Charlie Jane Anders. Good gravy, this was so far up my alley it was out the other side: not one, not two, but three cities which run on their own mix of ideology and blarney, like cities do. The setting is an alien planet close to inhospitable to human life: it’s one of those tidally-locked ribbon worlds with a side of eternal darkness and one of burning light; plus a whole fucktonne of generational trauma from the generation ship that brought them to said planet.

The City in the Middle of the Night is often mentioned in the same breath as Le Guin’s The Dispossessed, which makes a lot of sense. There are two main cultures with maybe not opposed but disparate ideologies, and the cli-fi angle is pretty front and center. Anders does gets down into the streets of how groups of people — how cities — define themselves and then enforce that definition, a messiness that makes The City in the Middle of the Night feels less didactic than The Dispossessed (which is not meant to be a criticism of either, but an observation). The City in the Middle of the Night is jam-packed with ideas and cultures and just cool stuff and I fucking loved it.  

The Tomb of Dragons by Katherine Addison. This is the third (final?) installment in the Cemeteries of Amalo series, which is set in the world of The Goblin Emperor. The main character, Thara Calahar, is a Witness for the Dead, a calling which is something like a magical coroner. He was grievously injured fighting an evil ghost thing last book — basically he loses access to the ability that makes him a Witness — so he begins The Tomb of Dragons even more hangdog and morose than he usually is (complementary). While I enjoyed the more procedural parts of the novel and I’m happy to get Thara’s backstory, I wasn’t all that satisfied with how things end up between Thara and Iana; basically their slow-burn relationship fizzles out and Thara ends up romantically involved with some rando. I genuinely do not understand that choice at all. But! Amalo, in addition to being a great city, also has just tons of bureaucracy, which makes me happy.

The City We Became and The World We Make by N.K. Jemisin. I kind of don’t want to make this comparison because fuck Neil Gaiman, but the supernatural mechanic in Jemisin’s urban fantasy duology isn’t so far from American Gods: once cities reach a certain complexity in their identities, they become alive. That consciousness is then embodied in (usually) a single person. São Paulo is a character, for example. When New York comes to be, it is embodied in six avatars: one for each of the five boroughs, and a sixth who is the entirety of NYC. The first novel details the six trying to come together, while being thwarted at every turn by a eldritch horror personified by the Woman in White. (She’s a city too, but one of those Lovecraftian jobs.) (Also, the reader of the audio, Robin Miles, should totally get together with Kobna Holdbrook-Smith from the Rivers of London series and create the most perfect audio reader; both navigate dozens of accents and dialects with aplomb.)

I loved the first book, which showcases Jemisin’s typically smart prose & deft character sketches, but the second is where things really get interesting. Judging from the pub dates, these novels were written during Trump 1 and the Biden interregnum, and it shows. Lots of urban fantasy minces around, taking place in some ahistorical no-time; The World We Make does not. The overt plot details a mayoral race between a Make New York Great Again asshole and one of our avatars. Reading this right after Zorhan Mamdani’s defeat of that grandma-killing sexual-assaulting piece of garbage Andrew Cuomo was very cool; Mamdani could honestly be one of Jemisin’s avatars, and Cuomo has more than a little in common with the MNYGA candidate. We live in dark times, but New York abides.

Heists! Murder! Mystery!

I’m going to throw together a bunch of books under this broad category because I feel like it. Also they sort of occupy the same part of my brain.

How to Steal a Galaxy and Last Chance to Change the World by Beth Revis. I know it’s not fair that I read How to Steal a Galaxy during a rolling coup of the American government, but: the antagonist, a trillionaire obviously modeled after Elon Musk, is evil because he’s built planned obsolescence into his technology. In real life, Musk’s evil goes significantly harder than that. Feels like a failure of imagination. But our heroine also thinks the government is bad because … I’m not entirely sure — they won’t do things the way she likes? Also, freedom fighters are bad because they all employ suicide bombers or something. Our only solution is a wiseass thief, a woman working alone. I don’t think the message of “only Ada can save us” is all that great, because I know for a fact mutual aid is the only way we’re getting through this. Look, I know this is unfair the ding this lighthearted space heist for [gestures at everything], but it’s just the bad timing of history.

Last Chance to Change the World is a perfectly cromulent ending to the trilogy (if indeed it’s an ending.) Ada and Rian end up back on Earth, to pull a reverse heist of sorts: they’re trying to reprogram the climate-cleaning nanobots that the evil Musk-like trillionaire has designed to fail at an important and expensive moment. I’m a huge fan of how Ada uses mutual aid to achieve her goals, alleviating one of my criticisms of the series, though I’m less of a fan of Rian’s cop nonsense. He’s a cop, Ada, c’mon. She keeps her eyes on the prize tho, which is not capitulating to a badge who’s more obsessed with bringing a woman who hurt his ego to justice, instead of destroying the stupid and evil rich asshole who is willing to let a whole planet rot for more money. Money which he doesn’t need, of course. Relatable content.

Run with The Hunted by Jennifer R Donohue. I read Donohue’s witchy Hamlet retelling, Exit Ghost, last year, which was fucking fantastic. So I thought I’d try her cyberpunk heist novellas, which I think are eight or nine and counting. The main character has Ada Lamarr from Full Speed to a Crash Landing vibes — which is the first in the Beth Revis series above — but even girlier, which I like. (I have a whole thing about how heroines aren’t allowed to be girly, like if you wear dresses and know how to match your shoes to your lipstick you can’t be a real badass. This is bullshit.) A good outing, but I’m sure I’ll get more out of the next now that I know who’s who.

Murder on the Titania and Other Steam-Powered Adventures by Alex Acks. Fun collection of rompy steampunk short stories, most of which involve murder and/or a heist. The setting is an alt-America which has been divided into duchies; also there are airships and zombies. Acks has a light touch with exposition, which I honestly appreciate, but I also wanted so much more information on the zombie situation. (I admit this is a me thing.)

Death by Silver by Amy Griswold & Melissa Scott. A consulting detective and a metaphysician are hired by one of their bullies from public school (the British kind) to figure out who killed his father in a steampunky Victorian England. The alchemist and detective, Mathey and Lynes, were lovers in school and have something of a situationship going on. I loved the magic system because while it was clear the authors had worked it all out, they didn’t show off or bore you with a primer. And they took into account how useful skills — like cooking, or sewing, or magic — are expressed differently by class, gender, or culture. The pace felt deliberately slow, which I think is an interesting choice, but sometimes I felt like I didn’t need to get all the details of their transport about London and such. I admit I’m not much a mystery person though, and I suspect some of this might be convention, giving the reader a sense of place or the layers of society and class. I plan to read the next.

All of Us Murderers by KJ Charles. Kind of an odd mix of Knives Out and Northanger Abbey: a family of assholes is bidden to the family manse out on the moors in order to determine who will inherit the ill-gotten family wealth. Our protagonist is the youngest son who is utterly uninterested in both the wealth and what he’d have to do to get it, namely marrying a cousin from the wrong side of the blanket. (It’s Edwardian England; that’s not so odd.) There’s a lot of fun Gothic trappings and potentially supernatural shenanigans, though I think most readers can identify a Scooby Doo haunting pretty quickly. In fact, I was having a perfectly lovely time up until the third act when it was revealed how truly horrible this family is/was. One of the keys to Gothic, I think, is a sense of comedy that never lets on that it’s funny. There is a fair amount of humor, but in the end, everyone was so awful that humor was well and truly shattered. When it was fun it was fun, but when it wasn’t it was still ok. 

The Supersonic Phallus by Steven Key Meyers. I admit I downloaded this from Netgalley because of the title, obviously. As the title indicates, though this novel has some sword fighting, The Supersonic Phallus is not a romance novel. Nor is it a comedy, somehow? Two cub reporters are sent to investigate reports of UFOs in a small town in Colorado in 1947, same year as the Roswell crash. The narrator has a wife and a kid and another one on the way, while his counterpart is much more obviously queer-coded. They begin a largely unspoken affair while Scooby Doo sleuthing their way to the truth of the unidentified aircraft. The Supersonic Phallus felt like a historical fable, but it also put me in mind of The X-Files, oddly. This is neither a tragedy nor a comedy, though it is both rueful and funny in equal measures, which is a very complicated tone and one I don’t feel like I encounter often.

Otherworldly: Ghosts! Vampires! Demons! Magic!

Collected fantasy novels, in various modes. Some are high fantasy, some urban fantasy, some Gothic, some set in unique fantasy worlds. I spent some time trying to find a haunting that felt like the ghost stories my mother has collected for decades, but I never did. I suppose this is because actual ghost stories can be chilling, but they’re also usually discrete, something that happens to the house’s occupants a couple times but doesn’t ultimately affect their lives all that much. I had a good time anyway. I’m also tossing in some vamps, demons, and even a little cthulhu as a treat.

The Other Wind by Ursula K Le Guin. Last year I read through all the Earthsea books, but technically didn’t finish The Other Wind, the sixth and final installment, until early 2025. The Other Wind, more than anything, feels like Le Guin breaking her wand. Made me cry.

Black Hellebore by Grace Draven. Grace Draven’s Wraith Kings series starts as a really thoughtful slow-burn romantasy between a couple in a political marriage in Radiance — a book I love and reread every year — but then plays with various fantasy modes: doomed company on a quest, court intrigue, even a mermaid tale. Black Hellebore feels like a set up for dealing with the fallout from mess at the end of Eidolon, the second novel. But then also some stuff happened in Black Hellebore that freaked me out so bad I had to read the last page to make sure. It turns out, sort of, if you’re worried too. I also reread Master of Crows by Draven, which is about a powerful mage who is also a subsistence farmer, which is the coolest thing. You can’t eat magic.

A Fae in Finance by Juliet Brooks. This is another book I actually wrote a review for. Short form review: corporate drone Miri gets stuck in Fairyland, where she has to continue being a corporate drone. There’s lots of bureaucracy, send-ups of corporate culture, and hijinks involving cats, all of which I very much enjoy.

Moonflow by Bitter Karella. I first encountered Bitter Karella in the web series (is that what this is?) called The Midnight Society, which is a bit that started on Twitter wherein various horror writers sit around talking about stuff. It’s funnier than it sounds, promise. Anyway, when I learned their first novel was going to be published, I pre-ordered the shit out of it. It did not disappoint. Moonflow is extremely goopy sporror which is somehow gross, hilarious, and horrifying all at once.

Small Miracles by Olivia Atwater. It was when I saw that the pub date for this was 2022 that I realized that this is a Covid book in the vein of Legends & Lattes: low-stakes fantasy that is sweet, full of baked goods, and gently — not broadly — comedic. Most reviews note the Good Omens vibes, which I get. The main character is a fallen angel whose purview is minor temptations; she’s not going to damn you, just get you to take the last cookie. He ends up in a deal with an angel to tempt a woman who is so virtuous — largely due to crushing feelings of obligation to her dead sister’s child — that she’s grinding herself down. (I did a pronoun switch because angels are genderqueer, and Gadriel switches sexes regularly.) It’s not quippy, which I like, more gently slapstick with some minor theological jokes. So. Not going to blow your mind, but a nicely affirming little story. Enjoyable.

The Undermining of Twyla and Frank by Megan Bannen. I read the first of this series last year for Zombruary, but this one doesn’t have zombies in it. I felt this one in my bones. Twyla and Frank are both marshals who patrol Tanria, which is like a national park and a pocket universe had a baby. They’re both in their 50s with grown children, Twyla widowed and Frank divorced. They’ve been best friends for going on a dozen years. Things start to get messy when Frank has a baby dragon imprint on him — not unlike what happens in Robin McKinley’s Dragonhaven — and gets stuck in Tanria with a toff draconologist for a bit. Their relationship becomes strained when she goes on a date with said toff, the first one she’s gone on since the death of her husband. 

The way Twyla reflexively cares for everyone while also sometimes seething with resentment for the thoughtless ways she’s sometimes used by her family reeeeaally got to me. The hot flashes, the utterly necessary sensible shoes, the way you sometimes pee a little when you sneeze: I felt seen in ways I haven’t in a long while. Which is not to say Twyla is mistreated or her family sucks or anything — far from it — it’s just the quiet needs of a lot of menopausal women are often backburnered and then never seen to at all. Jfc. Also, Frank gives off really decent Pedro Pascal vibes. Rwrrr. I also read The Undercutting of Rosie and Adam, the third and final book in the series. I liked this one the least of the trilogy just due to my own predilections, but it nonetheless sticks the landing. I loved this world a lot and I’m kinda bummed there won’t be more.

Thirst by Marina Yuszczuk. At some point during my time on Goodreads, I created a shelf called “tragic hair-brushing” for a certain kind of Gothic novel, the kind that likely has a sylph-like female character who haunts her habitation wearing diaphanous dresses. The first book to go on the list was Flowers in the Attic. I’m making a little fun, but also I love this so much. Thirst is definitely a tragic hair-brushing book. The opening epigraph is a quote from The Bloody Countess: The Atrocities of Erzsebet Báthory by the surrealist poet Valentine Penrose, which details the depredations of Báthory not so much academically as emotionally. The old saw goes that a novel teaches you how to read it, and this epigraph definitely points to a rubric more psychosexual than historical. I’m a big believer that Gothic runs on vibes much more than other genres, so this is an auspicious opening. There’s a retrospective quality to Thirst that makes me hungry for the parts of the story not told, the continuations and explications. It is fitting, in a way, for a novel called Thirst that the reader is never quite sated. 

A Voice Calling by Christopher Barzak. A short story of a haunted house — and the screwed up family producing the haunting — told from the perspective of the town. The anecdotal quality was just aces.

The Secret Casebook of Simon Feximal by KJ Charles. Less a novel and more related short stories, in the vein of John Watson’s documentation of Sherlock Holmes’s cases. Here, Simon Feximal is the Holmes character, and Richard his Watson, though their romantic relationship is less subtext and more text than Sherlock & John. Simon is a ghost hunter, of sorts, and the milieu is England in the late 19th C up to the run-up to WWI. The cases often use British folklore or history, which is neat. The ghosts were often more … pyrotechnic than I prefer, but I’m not dinging the book for that, of course, just making an observation. Anyway, I really enjoyed the episodic nature of the book, because I could down what was functionally a short story at bedtime and not get sucked into staying up too late or falling asleep mid-page. 

The Night That Finds Us All by John Hornor Jacobs. Our hilariously awesome hot mess of a narrator, Sam Vines, signs on as crew to take a huge Edwardian sailing ship from the west coast of the States to England because the ship was sold. From the first, things don’t seem right. The ship is … uncanny, and Vines can’t tell if it’s the comedown from the last several months at the bottom of a bottle, or if the weird stuff is actually happening. There are three rich guys cosplaying as crew who begin to go missing, one by one, and no one knows if they went on a bender at a stopover, or something more sinister. The novel uses tons of Gothic tropes, but they’re delivered through such a likeably screwed up & deadpan narrator that I didn’t even clock them at first. Jacobs is so good; you should read all of his books right now.

Prosper’s Demon by K.J. Parker. Nasty yet entertaining little morality tale, in the medieval sense of the term, with demons and those who fight them vying for spiritual dominion. This one plays out like a trolley problem where you want the train car of people dead, which is bonkers. Nice narrative voice too.

Dead Harvest by Chris F. Holm. Urban fantasy from the heyday. The main character is a reaper, tasked with retrieving souls destined for the hot place. He’s sent to retrieve the soul of a girl who seemingly brutally murdered her entire family, but whatever spidey sense he has tells him she’s an innocent. Which kicks off a proxy war between heaven and hell focused on the reaper and the girl. This kind of story is so action-driven you sometimes feel exhausted for the characters. I really liked it and plan to finish the trilogy.

Romance/Adjacent

This is not to say that a bunch of the books I’ve stuck in other categories don’t have romantic themes, but here’s where I’m going to sweep up the novels that have a strong romantic thread — if they’re not just straight up romance novels — because they don’t fit anywhere else. As will be the theme, most of them are genre in one way or another: space opera, science fantasy, romantasy, etc.

Chaos by Constance Fay. This series, about one of those cobbled together spaceship crews of fuckups and weirdos, continues to be a whole lot of rompy fun. The author apparently works in biotech so a lot of the technobabble is next level. It’s still pretty pulpy though, which I don’t hate at all. I’m pretty much into this sort of thing to see space dudes get themselves into a pickle and then make up a bunch of nonsense to get out of it. There are also killer floofs.

The Secret by Elizabeth Hunter. This is the culmination of a story arc which began two books back about a group of people, the Irin, who are the children of angels before they left the world. I don’t think it’s amazingly plotted or anything, but the way the various themes come together for the series as a whole is pretty great. Also, Hunter does something with the concept of the mate bond that I have literally never seen anywhere else, and it’s fascinating. 

Olivia Dade. I read a lot of Olivia Dade this year, almost by accident. I stored her zombie novel, Zomromcom, in the zombie section; here’s where I’ll put the rest of it.

  • At First Spite. Jilted woman moves into the spite house next to her ex’s brother, which is awesome because spite houses are the coolest. While I get why this was written this way — there’s a parallelism between two eavesdropping conversations that bookend the plot — the crisis in the second act is an annoying overreaction which I didn’t love. But! There’s a harrowing depiction of descent into a depressive episode which rang horribly true, and I appreciate when writers show that depression can happen to anyone, even bubbly extroverts. Not all of the comedy worked for me, but there’s a lot of genuinely funny stuff in At First Spite. Also, I 100% want to be part of a monsterfucking book club.
  • Second Chance Romance. Sequel to the above. It’s got Dade’s sense of humor and body positivity — including for the dude, which is even less common — and the characters have lives and interests outside of each other, which is great. I even liked how thoughtful the romantic lead was with our heroine: giving her space, paying attention to her wants and needs, and most importantly, respecting her boundaries. But I got more and more annoyed that our thoughtful and grownup main characters absolutely refused to say anything out loud to one another, leading to one of those bullshit third act misunderstandings which I cannot abide. The annoying thing is that they had a real conflict! They lived on separate coasts, and while that’s more or less waved away, that is a genuine impediment to a relationship. Anyway, I don’t want to end on a grumpy note (and this is more grumping than bitching). This series is still a lot of fun.
  • Spoiler Alert. This and its sequel, which I also read, seem like Covid books, steeped as they are in AO3 culture and communities (specifically the BriennexJaime fandom). A fanfic writer and cosplayer of a popular show that seems an awful lot like Game of Thrones with the serial numbers filed off falls into a romance with an actor on the show. The wrinkle being said actor is ALSO her writing partner and longtime online friend, but she doesn’t know that. He doesn’t clue her in on this identity because his career would be over if the shitty showrunners found out he was writing fix-it fics, plus he’s got some serious imposter syndrome. Cute.
  • All the Feels. This is the sequel. Dade is, as usual, funny with lots of body positivity. The love interest is an actor on Game of Thrones Gods of the Gates playing Jaime Lannister Cupid. His mom has a history of spousal abuse so he’s furious that the showrunners, who are assholes, had Jaime Cupid return to his abusive relationship with Cercei Venus instead of ending up with Brienne  Psyche. The showrunners assign him a minder, our heroine, who is there to try to keep him from blowing up his career over that disastrous final season. The relationship was cute, but the real satisfaction was having someone go after Game of Thrones showrunners D&D for being such fuckwits. 

Defender by Michelle Diener. I read the absolute shit out of Diener’s space opera-y books last year. (I tried her fantasy but it didn’t click for me.) Anyway, Defender is the latest installment, published this year, in the Verdant String series, and it was a godamn treat to slip back into this world. While Diener’s books almost always have a romantic thread, they’re crazy action-driven, like the kind of story that keeps throwing absolutely terrible stuff at our heroes and then watching them be resourceful or clever or kind — especially the last — in order to get out of the mess they’re in. Super fun.

Delay of Game by Ari Baran. Read this because of all the Discourse on Heated Rivalry, and one of the people I follow recommended this series as better than Reid’s Game Changers. Of course I ended up reading #2 first. Situations that are a result of people not talking to each other kind of drive me crazy, but I thought they were mostly justified here. (Except for the last big one.) They’re both on the same team, have been friends for ages, and the consequences of their relationship going to hell are tangible. Plus, both are filled with a fair amount of anxiety, self-loathing, and impostor syndrome — some due to the pressure cooker of professional sports, some due to upbringing — which makes it hard for them to understand themselves, let alone another person. Hooray, horny hockey players! 

Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen. Look, I know this isn’t a romance novel, but it’s definitely a formative work for latter day romance, so. Pride and Prejudice continues to be a delight, just this unbelievable mix of gently domestic and utterly savage. I was not in love with the audio reader, Rosamund Pike, who played Jane Bennett in the 2005 adaptation. I thought her straight reading was fine, but I hated her voices for Mrs Bennett and most of the men. Much sport is made of Mrs Bennett in the text, which is fair enough because Mrs Bennett is ridiculous most of the time. But honestly, Mr Bennett’s poor planning is the reason the girls are in such a precarious position in the first place, an ugly reality he deals with largely through aloof, sardonic bullshit and belittling his family. Mrs Bennett is basically the only parent taking that seriously, even if her temperament makes her bad at it. Always a rewarding book to revisit.

I Think I’m in Love With an Alien by Ann Aguirre. The set up feels a little similar to Spoiler Alert, but a more science fictional version: a group of alien aficionados who’ve been chatting for years on a subreddit or something decide to finally meet in person at an Alien Con in Roswell. Of course, some of the people are actually aliens, which is kind of an issue when they finally have an opportunity to act on their online crushes. Although this was cute and funny and the cover is an absolute banger, I didn’t enjoy this as much as Aguirre’s Galactic Love books, which are also alien romances. But it is still cute and funny!

Oddities

This is where I’m going to store all of the books that don’t fit neatly into any of the (admittedly capricious and inexact) categories I have for my reading. All of them are genre-adjacent: they all have some bit of weirdness in their settings that renders the familiar strange. This is what I said about one of the books on this list, but it really could go for all.*

I finished reading and floated around the house in a pleasant sense of ecstatic despair. I’ve felt this hard to define emotion after some of my favorite novels: The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker, The Mad Scientist’s Daughter by Cassandra Rose Clarke, or Composite Creatures by Caroline Hardaker. There’s something about stories of domestic upheaval foregrounded by intrusive technology that just utterly get to me.

*Except for the last on this list, lol. You’ll see when you get there.

I Who Have Never Known Men by Jacqueline Harpman. A group of women and one child are taken from their homes and deposited into an underground prison patrolled by silent men. They are not allowed to touch each other; the light and dark cycles appear to be random; their food is rough ingredients and they have few amenities. The girl — our narrator — grows up in this environment: untouched, almost shunned by her fellow inmates, in a prison. When they are freed, the whole situation gets a lot bleaker, which is saying something. Reminded me in a lot of ways of Wittgenstein’s Mistress: the loneliness, the sere quality of the environment, the reflection. But I Who Have Never Known Men is definitely not trying to be clever, which, for better or worse, Wittgenstein’s Mistress is. Completely fucking devastating.

On the Calculation of Volume, vol 1, by Solvej Balle. This is the first installment in a seven-volume novel by Danish writer Solvej Balle about a woman who begins to repeat November 18th, Groundhog Day-style. Three have been published in English so far, with a fourth coming out this April. It took me a while to get through this because it is so, so sad. My experience of Groundhog Day fictions is largely through comedies — though check out Two Distant Strangers if you want to see a serious treatment about racial violence in America — but I had never really understood the sadness inherent in being the only one awake in a repeating day. Gutting. Beautiful. Endless. I’ll be reading the rest.

Sunset at Zero Point by Simon Stålenhag. I completely lost my shit over everything Stålenhag a couple years back. I can’t think of a good analogy for his work, except for maybe illustrator/writer Shaun Tan: both use beautiful, arresting paintings in the service of narrative, something like a children’s picture book for adults? And even though their stories are told both with and told through illustrations, they’re not so much like comics. Anyway, I did actually write a long review of Sunset at Zero Point, but the bullet review is thus: this might be his finest work yet.

The Starving Saints by Caitlin Starling. The setting is a Medieval castle several months into a siege, at the time when there are no living animals but people and skinny rats, when hungry thoughts begin to turn to the unthinkable. But this isn’t quite Medieval Europe: there is a religion of bees, of the hive, in addition to unthinkable powers in the land itself. The prose is almost overwritten, which ends up feeling voluptuous when set against the scarcity and famine of the characters’ situation. Beautiful in a gnawing, hungry way.

Telluria by Vladimir Sorokin. Sorokin is Russian, but of a grand tradition of the ex-pat Russian writer who excoriates the current admin, which in this case is Putin. Telluria was written in 2013, but there are odd parallels with Russia’s invasion of Ukraine all over this mess of an alt-Europe. The fifty chapters of this novel are all narrated by different people, in disparate parts of a Europe which has shattered and balkanized into dozens of countries. Then also add in oddities like a drug — the titular telluria — which is administered through trepanning, or donkey and dog people, or other science fictional details which rear up in the middle of what seems like an otherwise legible recounting of events. It’s very Bulgakov, a writer who I can appreciate but don’t love. Which is to say: I don’t love Telluria, but it also gave me tons to think about.

Mean One by Ab. Cynthe. Mean One is an absolutely unhinged erotic horror retelling of The Grinch, which is exactly right. Banger of an ending, even if getting there gets a little repetitive with all the murder/fucking. Which is a sentence I didn’t expect to write.

Psy-Changeling by Nalini Singh

I’m putting this section last, in case you don’t want to read through bullet reviews of fifteen books in the same series. For whatever reason, this year I decided I was going to read through the entire Psy-Changeling series in publication order. I don’t remember when I started reading Psy-Changeling, but for sure only a half dozen or so novels and novellas were out at the time (there’s over 20 now) and, because I’m kind of a dilettante, I just read around in no particular order. Which is fine because the novels are technically standalone — it’s a romance series, so each installment focuses on a new couple, and they may or may not have any connection to the previous one — there is definitely an evolving story going on in the background. And that evolving story is so fucking cool. Once I kenned to this larger arc, I completely lost my mind and have been in the tank for this whole series. Sure, there are individual installments I don’t love, and I have the kind of criticisms one has when one loves something and wants it to be better — the biggest being the gender essentialism everywhere — but I love it both despite and because of its flaws.

Slave to Sensation. The very first Psy-Changeling novel, published in 2006. This was fun to reread because Singh hasn’t quite worked out the mechanics of everything yet, and there were a couple moments when I thought, boy, that’s not like that now. The world is thus: a hundred years before the events of the novel, in 1979, the Psy, a psychic race, decided to institute something called the Silence Protocol in the hopes of protecting themselves from out of control psychic abilities. Silence is functionally child abuse on a global scale: all Psy children are “conditioned” using pain not to express any emotion. The plot of the novel involves a Psy who must have enormous power — there are physical tells — but because that power is based in emotion, no one around her recognizes it. She ends up in a courtship with a Changeling, who are shape-shifters, in this case a big cat (maybe a jaguar? I don’t remember.) Ended up being better than I remembered.

Visions of Heat. This one, however, ended up being significantly worse. There are some things going for it: Singh introduces both the NetMind, a Gibsonian neo-sentience born out of the PsyNet which all Psy must connect to to stay alive, and Kaleb Krychek, one of the Psy world leaders and hands down my favorite character in the series. A lot of people note how similar this book and its predecessor are — high powered but unstable Psy falls in with a dominant predatory changeling, with a dated-feeling serial killer plot to act as “stakes”. But there’s a ton wrong with how our leading dickhead treats his lady love. I’ve always said that Singh typically does a great job of showing individuals working their way through trauma, and the Psy are a deeply traumatized people. Singh doesn’t use bullshit shortcuts to recovery — aka application of magic vagina — nor does she minimize the reality of that trauma. But this was the first time her traumatized Psy character read to me as neurodivergent, and the way Vaughn tramples over Faith’s clearly marked boundaries made me furious. Fuck Vaughn.

Caressed by Ice. There is some weird nonsense here which managed to sour my reread somewhat. This is saying something, because normally I’m super into a plot involving an emotionally reserved dude losing his shit over a lover. So, broad strokes: wolf-shifter Bren was abducted and brutalized by a Psy Councilor in one of the previous books. It’s been six months-ish since then, and her brothers are being overbearing about her “safety” in lieu of actually helping her heal from the trauma. (Her brothers can all go kick rocks.) She gets all fixated on Judd Lauren, one of a family of Psy who dropped out of the PsyNet and threw in with her changeling pack. Their relationship worked for me as two traumatized people learning to experience simple human pleasures, and the parts of the plot which focused on them were enjoyable. Unfortunately, there’s a lot of casually gross stuff about gender roles in this novel, plus some real bile about people who suffer from addiction being “weak.” Not great.

Mine to Possess. These early ones continue to be mid to bad. I like all the backstory we’re getting about the Psy Council, the PsyNet, the Forgotten, etc, but Talin is a dish rag and Clay a fucking dick. For example, Clay gets mad that Talin, due to the effects of sexual abuse when she was a child, was promiscuous as a young woman. Like I get why she would feel bad about that a little — it’s all wrapped up in shame and trauma — but the fact that she keeps apologizing to fucking Clay makes me furious. Fuck you, Clay. So this series continues to be bananas because I still adore the big Psy Revolution thing going on in the background, even while I want to throat punch various predatory changelings. Also, much as I hate Clay, Singh does accurately depict the effects of trauma at points, down to the ways people rely on real maladaptive behavior, and recovery is a difficult and often incomplete process. Clay sucks, but he also takes Talin’s fear of the dark and enclosed spaces seriously and doesn’t expect her to magically get over a phobia just by thinking about it, so.

Hostage to Pleasure. This one starts to cook! The main guy is annoying because he’s a predatory changeling and all the “feral protectiveness” that implies (I swear Singh uses that phrase dozens of times). The book itself is pretty mythology-heavy; just ignore Dorian’s bullshit. (Also, there’s a scene here where he prematurely blows his load because she, like, pokes his penis, which made me laugh so hard I had to put the book down for a minute.) The Psy half of the couple has a deeply disturbing relationship with her twin sister, and coming out of that looks a lot like decoupling from an abuser. Singh also builds out how the PsyNet works and gets into Psy Council politics, which is why I’m here.

Branded by Fire. Singh doesn’t go in for enemies-to-lovers all that often, so Branded by Fire is notable in that regard. So a little backstory: through the course of the series, the changeling packs DarkRiver and SnowDancer — leopard and wolf packs, respectively — more or less fuse into one big super-pack. Though they’ve been moving closer together due to the various Psy-expats in their ranks, the romance between Mercy and Riley, who are sort of military enforcers for their own packs, cements this alliance. Basically, they bang it out after a big wedding that both packs are involved with, and then angst for the next 300 pages about dogs and cats living together, mass hysteria! Branded by Fire lurches between being a bunch of gender essentialist nonsense and fine character work, which is how these middle books roll.

Blaze of Memory. Blaze of Memory is a perfectly cromulent outing, even if I felt a little squirmy at points, and really pushes the mythology along in satisfying ways. Devraj Santos, the leader of the Forgotten — Psy who left the PsyNet rather than submit to the brutal emotional conditioning called Silence — is pretty much a classic incel. His love interest is Katya, a woman specifically and obviously sent in to be the kind of spy a misogynist expects. Their interactions are … not always great. But Singh knows how to show recovery from trauma well, and I love the way it’s both based on community action, and sometimes incomplete. When people heal from trauma, they don’t get better on their own or due to a lover’s devotion, but because communities of people care for both their bodies and minds. Blaze of Memory definitely leans romantic suspense, which I have limited success with but, again, all the stuff with Net was so compelling I don’t even care. Something is very wrong on the PsyNet, and it’s getting worse.

Bonds of Justice. While I like this installment — Max Shannon is a lot more affectionate and thoughtful than most of Singh’s heroes — I really noticed how weird Singh’s attitude to criminal justice is. The plot involves a J-Psy, psychics who have useful powers for the criminal justice system. Having to go into the minds of murderous psychopaths isn’t good for their health though, so Js end up used up by their mid-30s. Max works for Enforcement which is like the … FBI maybe? (Honestly, nothing about the governments and bureaucracies in the Psy-Changeling world make any sense.) J-Psys often push already incarcerated murderers to kill themselves as a form of “justice”, which all the main characters endorse. Extrajudicial murder by the ostensible good guys shows up often in Psy-Changeling books, and it’s often directed at addicts. Needless to say, I’m super uncomfortable with this, especially i/r/t addicts. I feel like this endorsement of vigilantes tones down a bit in later books and there is some acknowledgement that addiction is a disease that should not be treated with a death sentence, but it’s still there.

Play of Passion. I had mixed this one up in my memory with another Psy-Changeling novel with a similar conflict: the woman is more “dominant” than her boyfriend, which is obviously a huge problem for fragile male egos and other gender essentialist nonsense. The other novel “solves” this by having her actually be a maternal, a category of shifter that exists in the universe but is there largely to be a punchline: haha, the alphas are so scared to go see the mommies. She’s not really dominant, she’s just such a mama bear, etc. Which means I was braced for that appalling conclusion most of the way through Play of Passion, which is too bad. The main couple here are good friends and colleagues, and the way they navigate their conflicting roles and responsibilities is actually pretty great.

Kiss of Snow. I remembered this one fondly because I <3 when Singh addresses the whole concept of a mate bond and fated mates and all that jazz head on. Because while I understand why the concept is appealing — it makes a relationship as difficult and fragile as one based on romantic love unbreakable and enduring — the whole idea of being eternally bonded to someone who will inevitably change, and not always for the better, gives me the screaming fantods. Like what if they join an MLM? What if they get super into crypto? (same/same) My massive and enduring issues aside, Kiss of Snow is about the Alpha of the San Francisco wolf pack, Hawke — which, I might add, is the silliest name for a lupine changeling — and the oldest Lauren kid, Sienna, who is part of a family of Psy taken in by the pack. Hawke lost the girl who was his fated mate when she died at five years old. So Sienna and Hawke dance around each other for the book, with Hawke being high-handed and emotionally withholding, while simultaneously not respecting boundaries that Sierra keeps trying to impose. I did ultimately respect what Singh was doing here, even if I didn’t see why she was doing it that way at first, so the middle act was harder sledding for me. Good outing tho.

Tangle of Need. This is the one with the dominant maternal that I was worried about. It ended up being better than I remembered, even if the whole dominant maternal thing makes my ass twitch. Lots of mythology, which I love, but the main couple still did significantly more meaningless wheel-spinning than I prefer. I did like that Singh addresses couples who can’t or won’t have a mate bond. She’s done this before with Sienna and Hawke, but he had an easy out in that his potential mate was deceased. Here the guy’s potential mate was alive and well and happily married, and he still chose the person he loved over the one that some bullshit magical mate bond chose for him. Love is ultimately a choice, and I like that Singh underlines that here.

Heart of Obsidian. The next three Psy-Changeling novels are very good — and it’s notable that they’re a dozen novels deep into a series — but Heart of Obsidian is my favorite by a country mile. Kaleb Krychek has been around since the second book as a unthinkably powerful Psy — he could literally crack the planet in half — with utterly opaque motivations. He was raised by another Psy Councilor who was a serial killing psycho, and no one knows if he shares his mentor’s predilections. He’s been searching for a girl who gave him kindness and affection when he was a vulnerable and abused adolescent, and he finally finds her in this novel. As a romance, this is fascinating stuff: Kaleb is deeply flawed (I think shrinks would call it an attachment disorder) and while he finds love, he remains deeply flawed. I think it’s notable that love doesn’t erase his character flaws, nor does it undo the effects of a childhood of abuse. Singh lets Kaleb heal one part of himself and stay otherwise messy, which is so very cool.

Shield of Winter. Singh doesn’t always do the best job having her romance plot and the overt plot work together. She relies on dated-feeling serial-killer machinations (so 90s!) or random violence by poorly-reasoned guerilla groups as plot-drivers a lot, and irrespective of what her lovers are going through. Shield of Winter, however, is perfectly balanced. Vasic is an Arrow, one of a Psy paramilitary group devoted to maintaining Silence. Now that Silence has fallen, they have to adjust to the new realities. Ivy Jane is an E-Psy (that’s the emotion one, like Sascha Duncan in the first book) one of a dozen the Arrows bring together to try to figure out why the PsyNet is dying. Vasic is also dying, due to a malfunctioning bio-mechanical gauntlet he had installed in an almost suicidal gesture. Here Singh starts addressing head on how horrific the eugenics practiced under Silence was, which I am 100% here for. I am also a sucker for the way Singh focuses on the small pleasures her Psy characters experience as they come out of Silence: the softness of clothing, the warmth and sweetness of hot chocolate, the joys of caring for a pet.

Shards of Hope. This one leans romantic-suspense, which I normally have limited success with (so much copaganda!) but it works here really well. Aden and Zaira are both Arrows, part of that paramilitary group I mentioned in Shield of Winter. Arrows are largely taken in as children because they have powerful, often lethal psychic powers which result in them killing or endangering their families of origin. (I have a whole thing about how utterly bonkers the conception of government is in the Psy-Changeling books, which I will not get into here, but know that I have at least an hour long cassette tape on the subject.) In Shards of Hope, Aden & Zaira wake up in some remote facility after unknown persons have abducted them and stuck chips in their brains for god knows what purpose. They escape out into a snow storm, and then have to do things like brain surgery under a tree in the middle of nowhere. It’s nail-biting stuff.

Allegiance of Honor. Allegiance of Honor is the fifteenth and final book in what Singh calls the “first season” of the Psy-Changeling novels. Silence has fallen, and a tentative way forward has been forged in the Trinity Accord. Unfortunately, the book sucks beyond the telling of it, and that after three of the best books in the series. I’ve taken a run at it a couple times, but always get stopped when I realize it’s the romance equivalent of a clip show: basically we check in with literally all of the couples from the previous fourteen books and get to watch them canoodling and congratulating themselves on how perfect their lives are. Gag. There is a romance but it has zero stakes, which is fine because it’s maybe 5% of the page count. I pushed through this time in the interests of completism. While I’m kind of glad I did — there were a number of instances where Singh introduces characters who become the subject of later books, and I liked seeing the origin stories — I will never read it again.

Final Thoughts

So! That’s my reading for the year. The list isn’t complete: there were some rereads I didn’t bother to note, some books I read at the beginning of the year and don’t remember enough to say, and a couple books I hated, but I’m trying to practice restraint throwing stones on the internet. Also, I’ve gotten pretty good at tossing books I’m not grooving on before I make the mistake of reading to the end. Life is short, &c.

It was notable to me how much 2010s urban fantasy I read — everything from zombie novels to more paranormal romance. I should probably read more weird genre litfic, because, judging from the Oddities section, that stuff turns my crank. It’s also hard reading, in way, not to be undertaken when tired or on the commute, so I get why I don’t read more of it. I read for many reasons: because I can’t sleep, the joy of language, to pass the time, to learn something, to feel something. These reasons aren’t mutually exclusive, necessarily, but they also don’t always conjoin.

Happy reading! We’ll see what I get up to this year.

The Year in Reading: 2022

I rounded up the books I’d read for the year a couple years back, which I hoped to make into something of a tradition. Alas, I’ve never done well when I assign myself homework, so last year went by without a roundup. But I guess I’m back! We’ll see how this goes. I’m still pretty focused on lighter fare, like I was at the start of the pandemic, but I’ve managed to slip in some horror here and there, mostly stuff I’d read already. In fact, I did a lot of rereading this year; I’m just not interested in surprises. So, without further ado:

Stuff I read for class:

The Collected Works of T.S. Eliot. If you weren’t aware, I finally finished up the English degree I started eleventy million years ago. The class itself was a senior seminar style class — where your grade is based on a single, bigass paper — and the class was called “T. S. Eliot and War.” We started with the WWI poets — Siegfried Sassoon, Wilfred Owen, Rupert Brooke, &c — and then worked our way into Prufrock, The Wasteland, and the Four Quartets. It’s been a hot minute since I seriously read poetry, so it was very rewarding to get hip deep in the one of the most important poets of the 20th Century. I’m not sure who this is attributed to, but one pithy take on Eliot goes: Modernism begins between the second and third lines of “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.”

The Midwich Cuckoos by John Wyndham. A small town gets knocked out by an unidentified force, after which it turns out all the women of childrearing age are knocked up. A comedy of manners that ends on a bang.

Day of the Triffids by John Wyndham. This novel defies the wisdom that you shouldn’t have too much weird stuff going on in a novel, because first up, almost everyone on earth is blinded by a celestial event, and then, while society is breaking down and everything is a mess, giant, ambulatory, carnivorous plants start preying on the survivors. Fun fact: Alex Garland lifted the opening of Triffids, which follows a patient who was convalescing in hospital & who doesn’t know about the recent cataclysm, for 28 Days Later.

The War of the Worlds by H. G. Wells. O.G. alien invasion narrative, which reads really weird now. Published in 1897, it pre-dates both world wars, and it shows. My paper ended up being on what Wyndham took from Wells when he wrote his own alien invasion narrative, fifty years and two world wars later.

Hidden Wyndham by Amy Binns. As far as I know, the only biography of Wyndham available, published in the last few years. I feel like Wyndham is experiencing a little bitty renaissance, because he is so much more interesting than many of his peers. Hidden Wyndham publishes just scads of his letters to the love of his life while they were separated by the war, and I admit I cried.

The History of Science Fiction by Adam Roberts. I also read a lot of academical stuff for the paper, but I’m not going to bore you with psychoanalytic takes on mid-century scifi or whatnot. I mention The History of Science Fiction because I read around for sections which dealt with my specific topics, and hit a three page analysis of The Midwich Cuckoos which was better than every other bit of criticism I’d read about that novel by a country mile. I made a mental note to get back to his fiction when I remember; Roberts is also a science fiction writer himself. I recommend following his twitter if you’re into extremely erudite dad jokes and multi-lingual puns.

Zombies!

Most of my zombie reads were rereads, so we’ll start with the new stuff.

Love, Lust, and Zombies: Short Stories edited by Mitzi Szereto. Short story collection about people banging the undead. Look, I know. Would you believe I read it for the articles? I do think it’s notable, given the burgeoning subgenre of monsterotica, that zombies almost never are portrayed as fuckable, a paradox of the zombie’s curious detachment and their voraciousness. Something something, quip about the little death and the big one.

The Down Home Zombie Blues by Linnea Sinclair. Turns out, not actually about zombies, which I found incredibly disappointing. Buddy-cop alien-invasion narrative with hive-mind space chthulu, set in Florida. Make of that what you will.

Everything Dies by T. W. Malpass. I read the first “season”; this is apparently some kind of serial. Decent, but it’s got the wordiness of serials and the tendency to jump around in a way that works when you’re consuming something episodically, but not so much in a binge. I’m on the fence about whether to continue.

The First Thirty Days by Lora Powell. Self-pub with the requisite typos and infelicities, but stronger than most. Kinda not into the fact that a vaccine is responsible for the zombie apocalypse. Given the pub date, this isn’t Covid vaccine denialism, just the regular kind, but it still rankles. I liked the slow collection of survivors; I didn’t like the cartoony bad guys in the third act. I also enjoyed that these zombies were fast zombies initially, but as they decomposed, they got more like the shamblers of yore. Not that physics exists in zombie stories, but I liked that these zombies decomposed like bodies would.

This is Not a Test by Courtney Summers. YA novel about a young woman who is suicidal when the zombie apocalypse hits, and ends up riding it out in the high school with a collection of frenemies. There’s a real thing that depressed people tend to do better in crisis situations, because they’ve been catastrophizing the whole time so sure, why not zombies. Beautifully written and worth the reread.

Severance by Ling Ma. Legit, I reread this almost exclusively because I watched the AppleTV series, Severance (no relation). This novel definitely cemented my opinion that zombie novels more accurately capture the experience of living through a pandemic than fiction about pandemics. This lappingly memoirish novel follows a post-college millennial through a global outbreak of Shen fever, which strips its victims down to one rote action until they die of exposure or malnutrition. She keeps working her publishing job as New York empties, masked and Zooming with a smaller and smaller group of people.

Zone One by Colson Whitehead. This is maybe the third time I’ve read this, second time I’ve listened to the audio, which is very good. Once you get past the 50c words and the complex syntax — not to mention how aggressively deadpan the narrative voice is — Zone One is seriously freaking funny. It’s honestly become one of my favorite novels. Zone One is also elegiac about a lost New York, like Severance, and is probably best understood as a 9/11 novel, of sorts.

The Dark Earth by John Hornor Jacobs. Another super rewarding reread. Jacobs isn’t reinventing the zombie wheel here — they’re pretty standard shamblers — but this book really cemented a lot of my early ponderings about the American instinct towards fascism, what zombie stories tend to say about domesticity, etc. The way the story is told through interlocking perspectives is absolutely aces, and there’s a sequence with a steam train which rules.

Seanan McGuire

The InCryptid Series. McGuire is seriously seriously prolific, so if you’re looking for three dozen novels or so because you’ve got a long weekend, look no further. I read the first four InCryptid books — Discount Armageddon, Midnight Blue-Light Special, Half-Off Ragnarok, and Pocket Apocalypse (I was today years old when I got the pun the title; the novel takes place in Australia), but I bounced off the fifth, Chaos Choreography. This is notable, because it usually takes me two books to run out steam with a series and have to take a break. InCryptid features a sprawling family of cryptozoologists (some of whom happen to be cryptids themselves). The first was published in 2012, and it isn’t so different from the glut of urban fantasy published in the 2010s, but they get weirder and more McGuire-like as they go on, which is cool to watch happen.

Wayward Children. I continued my read of Wayward Children with Down Among the Sticks and Bones, Beneath the Sugar Sky, and In an Absent Dream. I can’t recommend this series enough. It’s a sort of meta-portal fantasy, and the plots have the logic of dreams and nightmares. In an Absent Dream is absolutely gutting so I had to take a break, but I’ll be back.

Mira Grant. I also read a couple of her novels published under the Mira Grant name, which I think largely she uses for her more science horror stuff, but who even knows. Alien Echo is a YA novel set in the Alien universe. Olivia and Viola are the twin daughters of xenobiologists whose colony gets overrun with xenomorphs. Totally decent tie-in novel. Kingdom of Needle and Bone has a similar vibe to the Newsflesh books, which I enjoyed greatly despite my often loud bitching. Unfortunately, the book is about a pandemic, and I am not capable of reading about pandemics right now. I suspect this was supposed to be the start of a series, but Covid put an end to that, along with so much else. Oh, and speaking of that, I am absolutely dying for another killer mermaids book, like Into the Drowning Deep, but I think there might be some fuckery with the publisher? I really hope they get that nonsense worked out.

Ann Aguirre

Galactic Love. I’ve found my way working through Aguirre’s back catalogue because she’s a rock solid journeyman writer who is often quietly subversive as hell, especially when it comes to toxic genre tropes. Like in the first of her Galactic Love series, Strange Love, Aguirre takes on alien abduction romance, a sub-genre which is often a trash fire of dub-con and dudes with weird dicks. Strange Love is instead a charming, funny story with a talking dog and a Eurovision-ish contest, and the alien doesn’t even have a dick. This year I read the third, Renegade Love, which isn’t as great as Strange Love, but is still pretty great. It’s about a froggy dude in a murder suit, what more could you possibly need to know?

Mirror, Mirror. Mirror, Mirror is the second in her Gothic Fairytales series, after Bitterburn. I really enjoyed the Beauty & the Best retelling in Bitterburn, even if the end fizzled a bit, but I feel like Mirror, Mirror, which takes on Sleeping Beauty (sort of), was a misfire. The novel’s protagonist is the step-mother, and while I appreciated the attempt at inverting the tropes — it’s the mother that’s evil, not the step-mother — I don’t think the novel really gets under the hood of what those tropes say about motherhood, etc. The novel instead just relabels the good mom and the bad one.

Grimspace. The first in the Sirantha Jax novels about an FTL pilot who gets pinned as the patsy in some galactic political fuckery. Peripatetic space opera which moves pretty fast. The main character sometimes annoyed me with the gormlessly naïve thing that is common to this kind of protagonist, but still a totally decent novel.

Witch Please. Bounced off this hard, but then I have close to zero patience for contemporary romance, which this is. Just including it because Aguirre writes in a lot of different genres, which I think is nifty, even if they’re not to my taste.

Jessie Mihalik

I discovered Mihalik some time in October, and I’ve been tearing through her books. Incredibly fast-moving space operas, often with labyrinthine galactic court drama and some light kissing. The Consortium Rebellion series — Polaris Rising, Aurora Blazing and Chaos Reigning — just keep getting better, partially because I think she stops relying on tropes and types so hard. (Like one of the characters in Polaris Rising is 100% Riddick with the serial numbers filed off). Too be clear: tropes and types are what makes a genre, so I’m not slagging this, just observing. The first two of the Starlight’s Shadow series, Hunt the Stars and Eclipse the Moon, have a Vulcan-y psychic race which I am totally into, but I think the books are occasionally hamstrung by their first person narrators, especially the first. I’m reading The Queen’s Advantage, the second of the Rogue Queen series right now. The first, The Queen’s Gambit, has an Amadala-type elected queen, which is silly, but then mostly she’s queen so the title works, which is whatever. They’re all superfun books, and if you’re looking to while away an attack of insomnia, don’t pick these up because you will never go back to sleep. Just one more chapter.

Various Series I Continued Reading

Kiss of the Spindle by Nancy Campbell Allen. Steampunky take on Sleeping Beauty, and the second in a series begun with Beauty and the Clockwork Beast. The previous novel had a really cool protagonist, but the mystery plot was almost offensively stupid. Kiss of the Spindle improves on this by having a cool protagonist, and then also the whole locked room mystery was fun to watch play out. The antagonist ended up being the most compelling character by far, and I was bummed to see the next novel in the series wasn’t about him.

Raven Unveiled by Grace Draven. The last (?) of the Fallen Empire series didn’t quite work for me. We’ve met both main characters before — Gharek of Cabast and Siora — and the novel is supposed to be a redemption arc for the former. Alas, I felt like he was too much of a jerk to be redeemed, so I was ambivalent about the novel. I will always love Draven’s prose style, but I just can’t love Gharek. (I also reread all of the Wraith Kings series, of course.)

Irin Chronicles by Elizabeth Hunter. I read the first three of the Irin Chronicles series ages ago, when PNR was in its angel phase. I loved how Hunter dealt with the concept of a mate bond. Hunter addresses a specific fucked up situation which would inevitably happen if indeed the mate bond existed in book 2 or 3 of the Irin books — can’t remember exactly. I’ve only seen one other writer address this situation (but not this well). I never continued on with the series because of my aforementioned need for series breaks, but I finally got around to reading books 6, 7 & 8, The Silent, The Storm, and The Seeker. (I skipped #4, The Staff and the Blade, because I find Damien and Sari kind of annoying.) They were all enjoyable in their own ways, but The Seeker rises to a crescendo which could serve as a series ender, if she decides not to go on.

Ruby Fever by Ilona Andrews. Perfectly cromulent conclusion to Catalina’s arc in the Hidden Legacy series. The husband and wife team behind the pen name have this tendency to rely on eugenics in their magic systems, which can flower into full-on magical fascism. (The Kate Daniels books especially are guilty of this, most egregiously in Blood Heir, which I also read this year. I did not like Blood Heir.) Fortunately, in Ruby Fever they seem to be aware of how screwed up a system based on heritable magic would be, and there’s some direct critique in the novel. Ruby Fever also showcases their trademark ability to begin a novel with three totally screwed up but seemingly unrelated situations, and then have them escalate and entwine into a massive disaster. Even if I’m not into a book of theirs, they are very, very good at what they do. (Oh also, apparently I read Fated Blades, their most recent novella in the Kinsmen Universe, a series which they started and abandoned over a decade ago. I didn’t love it, but it was fine.)

Fugitive Telemetry by Martha Wells. The sixth Murderbot Diaries book, Fugitive Telemetry takes place before book 5, so the timeline was a little confusing at points. I thought we were going to get a road trip with ART after the last? Anyway, fun little locked room (locked space station?) mystery, full of Murderbot’s trademark kvetching. For a series based on a bot what murders, the Murderbot Diaries are surprisingly cozy reads. Murderbot just wants to get back to its stories when other peoples’ horseshit gets in the way. Big same, Murderbot.

Last Guard by Nalini Singh. I reread a few Psy-Changeling novels this year, to better and worse results. I invariably enjoy the books which focus on two Psy as the romantic leads, because all the growling and posturing of the changelings gets real old fast. The Psy are dealing with massive trauma, on a society-wide level, and Singh never defaults to the love of a good woman (or shape-shifter, whatever) to heal the damage. Her characters are going to have to work for it. Anyway, Last Gaurd has for its protagonists two Psy with disabilities — one physical and one mental. This is notable, because the Psy have practiced an incredibly nasty form of eugenics for last 100 years. We also get a closer look at the first gay couple I’ve ever seen in the Psy-Changeling novels. I think this is probably the best of the Psy-Changeling Trinity books to date.

Dukes are Forever and From London with Love by Bec McMaster. Dukes are Forever is the conclusion to McMaster’s London Steampunk series, and it absolutely sticks the landing. The series takes place in an alt-Victorian England where the upper classes have turned into literal blood-sucking parasites due to a communicable disease which is basically vampirism. It’s not a particularly careful alt-history — if you want that from your steampunk, read Meljean Brook’s Iron Seas series instead — but it is incredibly pulpy and energetic. From London with Love is an epilogue novella, which isn’t required reading or anything, but it was a nice denouement to a series I followed for whatever dozen books.

Various One-Offs

A Lush and Seething Hell by John Hornor Jacobs. Two novellas in a cosmic horror vein. While I liked The Sea Dreams It Is the Sky, a post-traumatic wig-out set in a South American country’s slide into dictatorship and its horrific aftermath, it didn’t quite get me like My Heart Struck Sorrow, about some librarians collecting the textured horror, sorrow, and folklore of the American south. There’s an alt-history where I became a folklorist, and I deeply appreciate the porousness of the collector and the collected. Also, while there’s some eldritch stuff going on in the center of both novels, the real horror is other godamn people.

Half a Soul and Ten Thousand Stitches by Olivia Atwater. Gaslamp fantasies set in the Regency period, and really very good. Atwater has a delightful way of shifting the perspective just enough so that somewhat tired tropes become interesting again. The main character in Half a Soul reads to me as non-neurotypical, and the protagonist in Ten Thousand Stitches is a servant, of all things. Both act as pretty furious indictments of the class system — far beyond the more anodyne “it sucks to be a penniless relation” kind one can find in this sort of thing.

Legends & Lattes by Travis Baldree. Baldree pinned the coziness slider all the way up on Legends & Lattes, a fantasy novel about an orc mercenary putting up her sword and opening a coffeeshop. If you’re looking for a comfort read with a focus on simple, sensual pleasures, this is the book for you. Also, there’s a huge, adorable dire cat.

Titus Groan by Melvyn Peake. Technically finished this in ’21, but I never did a round up last year, so. Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings is almost always invoked alongside the Gormenghast trilogy, and I can see why that is to a degree: they are both essentially English in a way I can identify but not define, and both describe a world on the knife’s edge. Both Gormenghast and Middle Earth are close to, if not wholly, a fantasy of manners, describing worlds circumscribed by the weight and the import of tradition and legend. Both end with this tightening sense of change introduced into a system which has been essentially (purportedly, nominally) changeless. Peake uses the language of apostasy to describe this coming cataclysm: the concepts of both heresy and blasphemy permeate those last chapters which detail the young Titus’s earling: the world of Gormenghast is as rule-bound as any horror novel, and often more obscene. It’s completely legible to me that someone born at the burnt end of the Edwardian era and who lived through the second world war would produce something as strange as Gormenghast — born as the old world falls away and the new one burns. All hail Titus, the 77th Earl of Gormenghast. God save us all.

Midnight Bargain by C. L. Polk. Probably the best read-alike to Midnight Bargain would be Shades of Milk and Honey by Mary Robinette Kowal: the setting is Regency-ish, but the situation is complicated by a tiny bit of magic. Beatrice Clayborn comes to Bargaining Season with her family mortgaged to the hilt to fund whatever alliance can be made through her marriage. She’s also practicing magic in secret, a magic which will be severed and suppressed by a marital collar. The metaphors at play could absolutely be too on the nose, but Polk has a Regency-level restraint and never overplays the obvious gendered (and class) dynamics. 

We by Yevgeny Zamyatin. I could probably put this in the “books I read for class” category, because I peer reviewed a paper about this, Brave New World and 1984. I’d already read the other two, so I thought, what the hell. And I’m glad I did, because this book ended up being an absolute banger. Written in the Soviet Union in 1920-ish, We is THE classic dystopia; both Huxley and Orwell cribbed from Zamyatin. D-503 is an engineer in a city made of glass and organized by scare quote “rational principles” un-scare-quote. The novel itself is an epistolary, of sorts: the One State is building a generation ship to colonize and proselytize aliens, when they find them; he is writing to the as yet undiscovered aliens. He kinda reminded me of the narrator in “The Horla,” a short story by Guy de Maupassant, the way he gets more and more unhinged as the narrative progressive, the difference being that We is a satirical comedy and “The Horla” is not.

So that’s it! I probably read some other stuff I can’t remember, but this is definitely the high notes. Another year, another teetering TBR.

Review: Big Bad Wolf by Suleikha Snyder

One of the strengths of the paranormal fantasy is its ability to make the metaphors manifest, and then play with them in really concrete terms. One of my favorite werewolf stories, for example, is Ginger Snaps, a turn of the millennium film about two pubescent sisters, one of whom begins turning into a werewolf. The lycanthropy in Ginger Snaps works as this really extreme metaphor for all of the dangerous becoming that happens to girls in puberty: sexually, personally, socially. One of the reasons it works so well is that the actuality of puberty is going on as well — the lycanthropy is a metaphor, yes, but the real world thing exists too. The metaphor doesn’t erase the reality, it heightens it.

There’s this really great scene where the younger sister goes to the school nurse and begins describing the changes in her werewolf sister — sexual awaking, blood, hair growth — and the nurse clucks knowingly and gives her a pamphlet about “Your Changing Body!” or somesuch. It’s a gesture to how the literature about puberty is both accurate, physiologically speaking, and absolutely misses the mark when it comes to the lived experience of the average person at that vulnerable period. I don’t remember getting a pamphlet about dealing with sketch dudes on the bus when I was 14, but unwelcomed sexual attention is, unfortunately, a very real aspect of puberty for many girls & people assigned female at birth. The way the werewolf is used in Ginger Snaps doesn’t erase or replace the experience of puberty, it heightens it.

Anyway, point being, for every story like Ginger Snaps — which flawlessly combines both the metaphorical and the actual — there’s a dozen which treat the metaphor of the paranormal other as somehow more real than actual, legitimate, real world problems, prejudices, and bigotries. This is especially true when the paranormal identity is understood to be a persecuted minority and acts as a stand in for race. I’ve seen many fictions erase systemic racism in lieu of the simplified and ahistoric “prejudice” against their made up whatsit. It’s not that I don’t think people wouldn’t be bigots about werewolves/shifters/vampires should they be revealed to be real, it’s that I think they’d be racist about them in addition to all the stuff they’re already racist about.

Which is why Suleikha Snyder’s Big Bad Wolf is such a godamn breath of fresh air. So much — so much — paranormal fantasy takes place in a magical America which isn’t riven by bone-deep, brutal, and violent disagreement about who gets to count as a person. We’ve all seen the state violence — children in cages, Black people murdered by the police with no accountability — and that’s not even getting into the stochastic terrorism that makes up the background radiation of the Trump years. If, somehow in the last four years, supernatural beings were added to the population as a category of persons who exist, they would have been subject to the exact same treatment as every other minority. Which is to say: poorly, and worse and worse for intersectional identities.

Big Bad Wolf focuses largely, though not exclusively, on the relationship between Neha Ahluwalia and Joe Peluso. He’s a white former soldier who murdered six Russian mafia dudes, and she’s a Desi lawyer who’s been tasked with defending him in court. He was part of a super secret military unit which was changed through scientific fuckery into a wolf shifter, but for unknown reasons he never used his shifting abilities when he smoked the mafia dudes. Neha has a PhD in psychology in addition to her JD, so she’s sent in to try to get him to cooperate with his legal defense. So far he’s been anything but cooperative.

Joe and Neha have an almost immediate connection, one that discombobulates them both. He’s got a healthy dose of self loathing going on, both because of his military service and because he legit murdered 6 dudes in cold blood. Her motives are a little less legible — he is, after all, a murderer — but their dialogue is snappy and I’ll allow a lot of emotional latitude setting up a world this complex. At a certain point Neha has to decide whether to follow her intense reaction to Joe, or stay on the straight and narrow. She makes the leap, and ends up on the run with Joe, dodging the cops, the Russian mafia, and possibly the military.

Because that’s the thing: this novel takes place firmly in Trump’s America (though I’m reasonably sure he’s never named). As the child of immigrants and a lawyer, Neha has a richly textured understanding of how scary it is out there for brown people, for women, for non-Christians. Early on, Joe tries to pull some economic anxiety bullshit on her — you’re just into me because I’m working class — and she’s like pffffft, that’s nothing. I’ve survived the last four years; slumming doesn’t factor. Yes, absolutely, he’s seen some shit, and what was done to him was wrong. But his experience of being hung out to dry as a shifter once the military was done with him is just one injustice. There are so many others, and there’s no rules that say you only experience the one.

As the first in a series, there are a lot of people, organizations, and lore that need explaining, and the narrative feels occasionally cluttered with their introductions. Relatedly, because there are so many people, the character sketches of anyone but the leads are pretty rudimentary. This is less a complaint and more an observation. Even though there are a lot of moving parts, Snyder has a firm hand on her exposition — I never felt like, who the hell is this person, I have no idea how they fit in. Given the size of the cast, that’s no small feat.

Yesterday, I bolted down all 6 episodes of Staged, a pandemic-produced BBC series starring David Tennent and Michael Sheen. I’ve watched a couple other shows produced during the pandemic, stuff like Host (a pretty cute found-footage horror film about a tele-séance) and Locked Down (which I turned off after 15 minutes because of its fucking awful script.) Staged was absolutely pitch perfect, the pandemic production I didn’t even know I needed, coming at just the right time. Big Bad Wolf is exactly like this for me, a corrective to the sometimes ahistorical metaphorical landscape of the paranormal, coming at a time when history demands accounting. Put less douchily: It’s so welcome to see family and friends on the pages of of a novel, living in the same conflicted and dangerous reality, but intensified by a paranormal element that gives the everyday that much more freight.

World War Z: The Movie

Of course when I started seeing trailers and reading descriptions of the film adaption of Max Brooks’s journal of the zombie apocalypse, World War Z, I immediately jumped up onto my high horse and started penning angry screeds in the comment sections of Reddit. (Just kidding. I don’t use Reddit.) Why in the hell were they even calling this movie World War Z if exactly nothing was taken from the book but the title? The book World War Z is nerdy and wonky, very much what a serious military history geek would write about the zombie apocalypse with CNN on mute in the background. So, maybe the individual voices were a little same-same; Brooks’s take was refreshing in its long, global pan, broken out from the locked room scenarios of so many zombie narratives. Instead of the usual how will we survive tomorrow, it was a consideration of how society – societies – would respond to such a threat.

Admittedly, the book is a little bloodless – the snap gone out of recountings because we know the raconteur has survived – and I was expecting changes. Much of Brooks’s book simply wouldn’t work on the screen. I did have some fantasies about the film being about the soldier’s narrative. He pops up at least three times in the book, moving from the Battle of Yonkers – which is actually beautifully narrated, and a pretty biting criticism of the ways military tacticians refuse to adapt to changing realities – to a West Coast enclave, and then back out through the flyover states, reclaiming this grand America. The zombie herds like buffalo, the consideration of the in-fill towns and the feral domestic animals, the drudgery and mud-covered victories: all this would have worked on the screen. Alas, no mas.

World War Z, the film, opens with a languorous morning flipping pancakes and only occasionally tense domesticity. Gerry Lane is an ex-CIA investigator, clearly still in the recovery phase of adjustment to stay-at-home dad and unemployment. His kids are moppets, and while I think it might be indicted that his wife is a professional of some kind, this isn’t lingered on. The New York setting and the traffic snarl action pieces reminded me of Will Smith’s I Am Legend, but the New Yorkiness and generally elegiac tone is absent from the movie. Pitt’s Gerry Lane seems like someone who would be better played by Tom Cruise, whose asshole Ethan Hunt routine from the Mission Impossible movies might register stronger than Pitt’s surfer insouciance. Much as I generally like Pitt, here he lacked an edge that made his supposed backstory anything but narrative justification. I was in the CIA, like, I guess.

From here, the movie bops around the zombie apocalypse, running set pieces with the thinnest of narrative fiber between them. Some of the set pieces were honestly thrilling – like the zombies swarming over the Israeli wall, or some of the stuff in North Korea. Some of them felt like hey, what about an outbreak on a plane??? I felt twitchy about a wasted David Morse vamping through a toothless mouth prosthetic about Jews and how they never forget, although the chatty Jurgen Warbrunn – one of the few characters (sort of) from the novel – explains a little better what looks like unvarnished antisemitism in Morse’s explanations of the Israeli response. I liked the look of the androgyne Israeli soldier tasked to escort Lane out of Israel, but there wasn’t much more than a look to her character. All in all, the movie was the kind of contentless flash-bang that can be fun in the dollar theater on a Sunday, but will likely diminish on the small screen to the point of boring.

Rather than just complain about fast zombies, because honestly, that’s maybe the lamest criticism one can level at the zombie narrative, my complaints more have to do with the lack of viscera. (Seriously, I’ve been trolled one too many times by people exclaiming that fast zombies aren’t really zombies, like the taxonomy of imaginary creatures isn’t flexible enough to include a little sprinting.) But really it was the lack of guts that got me, because whatever other societal jibber jabber zombie narrative might capture, they can thrill because of entrail-rending zombie bouquets, the mob ripping someone limb from limb. They’re about physical fear, body horror, our fear of the inevitably declining meat-sack we all live in. It’s not about the fear of death, but of decomposing life. Blood splatter was notably absent in World War Z, which seems a crying shame.

But that’s not even what I want to note about this movie. What I want to talk about is Gerry Lane’s wife. I’ve noted before that zombie stories deal with domesticity in a weird way, and the housewife, as the embodiment of domesticity, ends up bearing the brunt of the weirdness. And maybe I should just take a minute to define terms. Yes, obviously, Lane’s wife is working outside the home, and Lane himself is playing emasculated parent to her harping worry. There’s a quelling quality to their marital interactions: you shouldn’t want to go back out into that manly, war-torn landscape, Gerry. No, no, of course I don’t. I’m using housewife as a shorthand term for the straight, white, middle class momming set, working or not, who regularly are the focal point of the Mommy Wars, the cultural wars, and apparently, now the zombie wars. The housewife is a category more mythic than actual, but she’s got teeth like any other monster, and sometimes she sprints.

But when the fit hits the shan, it’s Gerry’s war skills that nurture domesticity. Gerry mansplains to the Hispanic family that they have to move to be safe in crisis, and they don’t listen, bringing moppet count up to three when their son takes the advice they don’t. By the time the Lane family makes it to the aircraft carrier, Mrs Lane is in full on helicopter mom mode, hissing at Gerry and the UN dude that they should take their conversation about zombies outside lest they upset the children. I punched my husband at this point in the film — in the arm, jeez — why wouldn’t she want to know wtf was going on? Fair enough, don’t freak out the kids anymore than you have to, but given that they were pretty much unconscious in every scene from here on out, maybe you have a shred of curiosity about anything but making sandwiches? Why would a professional woman just wring her hands and push her sleeping babies’ hair out of their eyes? You’re in danger of getting chucked from the relative safety of the carrier, why don’t you offer up whatever hastily sketched skills you have?

Mrs Lane’s story reaches a nadir when she calls Gerry in a panic while he’s on a dangerous op in North Korea, the squeal of the phone alerting the zombies to their locale. Life pro tip: set your cell phone to buzz when in the zombie apocalypse. (Also: cell phones work?) His world-weary decision not to tell her that her domestic panic got a lot of good men killed – good men! – just exhausted me. Broads, man, amiright? Don’t text me right now because I’m in a v. important meeting. Mrs Lane ends up as this tragic impetus for action, inert and often interfering, but without agency or motivation beyond the cheesy invocation of family. Someone smacks down Gerry near the end when he invokes it right back — I watched the thing that became my wife kill my children — but this is a weird conversation, bros ruminating on their obligations that are little more than luggage. Think of the children! Because that’s all we can do!

I don’t know. It’s late, and I’m tired, and maybe I’ll be back to bloviate tomorrow. I thought WWZ: the Movie was fine when people were running and screaming, but it wasn’t much more than that in the end.

Oh, and also, the scene where Gerry pops open a Pepsi machine and the cans all rolled with their labels out cracked my shit up. Pepsi: The Choice of the Undead! Pepsi quenches your thirst for brains.

Strange Attractors by Charles Soule

My husband and I were talking recently about the aphorisms that people dish at you and then act like they’re revelatory or meaningful. The one that we heaped the most scorn on was, “The opposite of love isn’t hate; it’s indifference.” O, rilly? Pretty much the opposite of any emotional state is the lack of an emotional state, from a certain observational angle, so you might as well say, “The opposite of hate is being in a coma” or, “The opposite of feeling itchy is being dead.” True enough, as far as it goes, but not helpful. I mean, I know that this proverb is mostly deployed in situations when love’s gone wrong, but it’s just so freaking dumb and unhelpful. The opposite of irritation is slumber!

Anyway, somewhat wobbly point being, I had classed the saying, “When a butterfly flaps its wings in one part of the world, we can get an hurricane in another,” as one of those stupid aphorisms: something someone says to you when a tree flattens your garage or something. Oh those damn butterflies! Add in the fact that since Ray Bradbury‘s A Sound of Thunder, where time travelers squash a butterfly in the Jurassic, leading to Planet of the Apes-style changes in the hear-and-now, the whole butterfly thing has become something of a hoary old chestnut in sff.

[What happens when Homer squashed a butterfly. Donuts!]

But, turns out, it’s an actual mathematical thing! From the wikis:

In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions, where a small change at one place in a deterministic nonlinear system can result in large differences to a later state.


Oh look! Attractors! Maybe some of them will be strange.

So the story starts with grad student Heller Wilson bopping around New York, complaining about the soulless thesis topic he was given by his adviser, and just generally having the pre-graduate crisis. The art is sepia realism with bright punctuations of color, and the scientific-y drawings are wonderful, crossing a sort of biological feel with more airless, computer-generated structures. The image I found of one of these complexity maps has decided not to work, so you’ll have to take my word for it, sadly. I’m just saying I liked the art.

In order to kick-start his thesis, he goes to meet the old math department crank, Dr. Spencer Brownfield, who is a cross between a hobo and Sean Connery in Finding Forrester, but less sexy than the latter. Brownfield’s been working on something called “complexity theory” for the last 30 years – a mix of Asimov’s psychohistory and the Butterfly Effect – and believes himself to be the guardian of New York. He’s forever doing these inexplicable “adjustments” – things like setting a rat loose in a restaurant or subtly driving people towards a different subway entrance – which he believes keeps New York’s “immune system” robust.

Which is my segue to talk about New York. First and foremost, Strange Attractorsis a love letter to the cityest of American cities, a place with infrastructure so unbelievably barnacled, complex, and jury-rigged that it’s astonishing that it works at all, let alone that it weathers the shocks of terrorist attacks, hurricanes, and various NY mayors. One of the many facts that blew my mind in The World Without Us was that, without the pumps working every minute of every day, the subway system would revert to the underground rivers that every inch of the underground strains to become. The 9/11 attacks and the subsequent destruction were just a hairsbreadth from knocking out these pumps and flooding the system. This could be repaired after months and months of work, but. Soule and Co do an excellent job of capturing the vibrancy, texture, and fragility of life in NY, as Heller gets more and more caught up in Dr. Brownfield’s crazy theories and such.

The plot is pretty perfunctory. Heller thinks Dr. Brownfield is a loon, but a brilliant one; he gets more caught up in Brownfield’s ideas; Heller gets in trouble with The Powers That Be over Brownfield’s influence; Brownfield asks for more than Heller is willing to give, etc, etc. The crisis and resolution is a little dorkily cheerful, with a whole pay it forward vibe that makes me gag just a little. But! Just a little. I am not immune to feel-good stories about majestic, chaotic cities repairing themselves in the wake of disaster, or in the forefront of it. I <3 cities. They might even <3 me back. Awww.

Also, way back in the day we had a bird named Boolean, and Dr. Brownfield has a dog with the same name. Nerd pet names represent!

I received my copy from NetGalley.com.

The Demon Lover by Juliet Dark: Tam Lin in Newford

For the last month, I’ve been working my way through the ridiculous number of NetGalley titles I downloaded in a big frenzy once I remembered I had an account there. Of course I started with the stuff I knew was in my wheelhouse, to very good results. So time to start in on the less likely stuff! I’m generally not looking for taxing on my Sunday on the couch reads (or Sunday on the back porch, in more clement weather), and I figured something called The Demon Lover (by Juliet Dark, of course) with that cover would fit the bill. There’s a whole passel of books that have more or less that cover, and they tend to be young adult paranormal romance type stuff. Observe:

I’m not casting aspersions here, just making observations (partially because I have not read any of these books in question.) But given general impressions from reviews of similarly covered books, I figured I knew what I was in for here: young girl, maybe some tragedy in her young life to make her “deep”, meet cute with a bad boy/otherworldly creature, sudden love bordering on obsession, lots of angsting and misreading of the classics of Romantic literature. (Sorry to say, kids, but Cathy and Heathcliff can never be made to have a happy ending, and if they do, they are not Cathy and Heathcliff. Character is bloody destiny in that instance.)(Just kidding. I’m not sorry to say it.) But whatever Chardonnay-snorting near-snobbery from me aside, often these kinds of books have a vibrating energy to them, a pulse of often deeply misguided, but very real passion. You can do worse on a Sunday after reading a collection of considered, thoughtful, careful prose. Sometimes I don’t want to think but feel.

So it was hugely surprising to me to find a musing, allusive, and referential novel here, complete with affectionate send-ups of academia and an almost matter-of-fact tone. Callie McFay – and I will take this moment to note that the names are awful, across the board – McFay barf is an adjunct professor type who has had some minor success with a Master’s-thesis-turned-pop-criticism book about vampires in the contemporary Gothic, and is now figuring out whether to publish or perish. She’s got a long-term long-distance bi-coastal relationship, and has obviously read a lot of Bakhtin, Gilbert & Gubar, and Marina Warner. Not that those things are related, making for a terrible sentence from me. Anyway, she decides to go in for a small college in upstate New York because of feelings, and pretty much all of the bitchy things I said would happen come to pass, except for the misreading of the classics part. Ms McFay (barf) has the Gothic classics down. And goddamn right. Oorah.

If I were writing a blurb for this novel, which I would never be asked to do because my sentences heretofore have been for shit, I would say: Pamela Dean’s Tam Lin meets Charles de Lint‘s Newford. On acid. Actually, just kidding about the on acid part; that’s just a bad joke about blurbcraft. But The Demon Lover has the everyday boringness (and I mean this mostly kindly) of Dean’s college fairy tale, and the nose-picking earnest wonder of de Lint’s “North American” – this means Canadian – city and its denizens. (I kind of can’t believe what a bitch I’m being here, and I’m sorry.) I had to swear off reading any more de Lint (except for short fiction) because of inherent blackness in my heart – Newford is just too wonderful for me – so the parts of this that reminded me of that fell flat. But Dean’s Blackstone College is pretty much my collegiate soul, so split differences at will.

There are many aside observations here I enjoyed about the contemporary Gothic and its workings, but ultimately the action of the prose didn’t do it for me, and I can’t figure what the thesis might be, if you’ll allow me academical phrasing on this. Ms McFay falls in with an incubus, that soul-sucking Romantic/Gothic fantasy of the perfectly Byronic, tragic dude, and while I appreciated the clear-eyed, innuendo-less conversations about what that might mean, I had a hard time connecting with the emotional stakes. Some of this is tone, which is more sensible than usually found in Gothic romance. But certainly, this could be a function of my long-married pragmatic heart, which doesn’t have much patience with dramatic passion with assholes and users anymore. That is too much like work, and the rewards of not being sucked dry and killed by your lover are pretty awesome, especially if you don’t have the dress-billowing mania to make up for the whole Romantic death business. Lest I sound too negative, I do appreciate how this all works out for McFay, and the hard choices she makes, I just…I’m going to have to admit I’m getting old here. Gothic romance is freaking exhausting, which is possibly the take-home message here, which makes this book a little bit awesome.

So, anyway, enjoyably smart fun, though maybe not the kind of fun advertised on the tin. And I downloaded this because I really wanted to get to The Water Witch, whose cover was much more enticing to me. Billowy dresses, you’re fine and all, but half-naked chicks rising out of the water? That’s the show. We’ll see what happens next Sunday on the couch.

Maus: My (Grand)father Bleeds History

Grandpa and I are standing by the wooden fence that holds my cousin’s horses. They aren’t skittish, but they stand just out of reach and flick their ears with watchfulness and flies. It’s full summer in Wisconsin, all grass and the scritch-scritch of insects in the grass. We talk about my cousin and her riding, about horses. I’ve always played city mouse to my country cousins, which is slightly fraught because my Grandpa is a man who has definite ideas about right living which center on small town life. He is second generation Danish from a small town in Iowa, and while he is fiercely progressive in much of his life philosophy, he retains a certain near-stoic near-asceticism which doesn’t mesh with my nuclear family’s outlook. I knew, even as a child, not to talk about certain things certain ways with Grandpa, how he would…maybe not misunderstand, but certainly not respect our city life. And our city life is the detached single-family suburban sprawl of Minneapolis, so city is certainly relative. 

I’m not sure how we start talking about this, but we get onto the subject of SSRIs – drugs like Prozac which affect brain chemistry, which were, even when this conversation occurred, being prescribed like candy. Grandpa was a doctor in the Navy during the War, and then attached to the nascent Marines, the raiders who would go out on lethal missions onto the scads of tiny islands between Australia and Japan. He doctored for both battles of Guam and Guadalcanal, in addition to an unremembered number of conflicts spraying out into the Pacific Rim. He never much talked about the War, least not to me anyway, but I was a child and there was no place for those stories. We knew there was something wrong when the stories started, stories that had always been stoppered, for better or for worse, by my Grandma’s almost harsh pragmatism. My Grandma runs family mythology like knitting, the way she knits anyway, the quickness of her hands in sharp contrast with how bent and gnarled they are by long-term arthritis. “Chris,” she would say when he started in a vein she didn’t approve of, and then quick deflections into topics more tractable. When he could or did ignore her machinations, which are at Sun Tzu levels of mastery, it was an indication of a deeper wrongness. Senior dementia was in the process of erasing him year by year until he was somewhere near six in the year his mother died, at the piano she taught him to play before she left him. It stops my heart still to think of how much pain he still carried from her loss, ninety years later on the eve of his passing. 

Here, I knew that the process was beginning, but not where it would take him. Next to the wooden stile that penned my cousin’s horses, we’re talking about Prozac, and about medicine and psychology and all of that. He’s been retired for a long time, over a decade, maybe more like two. I know he worked for years at a low income clinic after his retirement. Eventually he had to let his medical licence lapse because there is so much need out there that he kept getting sucked into the brutal hours of doctoring he had enjoyed his entire working life. I run the line about how pharmaceutics are not candy, and SSRIs are being used to treat grief like grief is unnatural. He agrees, in the sense that his view of psychology has always been based on will. He is a man of his generation, and getting over it is as getting over it does, and they did. Unless they didn’t. 

I sure wish we had had something like that during the War though.

I was getting ready to ship out again. I had already done a tour in the South Pacific. The ship was in the process of filling up with soldiers, many of whom had not seen action, who were just out of basic training with their squeaky boots. But there were a number of soldiers who had seen combat, piling back onto a ship that would bring them back to that. One man snapped. He was in full gear, with a 70 lb bag on his back. He saluted – ten hut! (Here Grandpa snaps a salute.) And then walked off the edge of the ship into the water. Soldiers scrambled, throwing off their own gear and diving in to water to fish him out. He was screaming uncontrollably. They hauled him off to the brig because that was the only place they could contain his breakdown. His screams reverberated through the metal bones of the ship until someone knocked him out with phenobarbital, but he’d just start screaming again when he came to. All those young men just out of basic listened to the ship they were boarding scream. We had no real way to treat the injuries in the mind. 

This isn’t the voice of my Grandpa. This is me trying to remember him as hard as I can, but it keeps slipping, and I am too much me to recreate him. If you could see me, I could recreate with my body which has some of his genetic tendencies the way he laughed and held his hands and hunched, but it wouldn’t be exactly right, two generations and a gender displaced from him, all those years displaced from the War, the years from this conversation, the years from his death. So much is gone. I felt like I’d been hit by a truck – I had never heard anything like this from him. I have the vague sense that there was someone else there, maybe a younger cousin, but it might have been me simply blown out of myself with shock. We would hear more war stories as the years wore on. My sister and I would collect them and show them to each other. Did you hear the one about the shelling on the beach? About running the wrong way during a retreat and almost ending up on the wrong side of the line? “Hey doc,” the rear guard said, “Where’re you going?” I wish, in a way, I’d tried more diligently to collect them, but I know it was an impossibility. He became so frail, and there’s no way Grandma would allow that line of questioning, even if I’d thought it was a good idea. 

Which is why Maus I: A Survivor’s Tale: My Father Bleeds Historytowers as a narrative about familial and historical traumas, about the way we talk to our parents and grandparents about the fucked up shit they had to endure out there in the ugly mess of history. Art Spiegelman and I are not real similar people; our parents and grandparents did not have the same experiences; we are not from the same places. Spiegelman’s parents, Polish Jews, survived Auschwitz. Maus is the strange lapping recounting of that survival, his dad on a exercise bike or fighting with his second wife, Art fighting hard against his father’s disapproval and the memory of his mother’s suicide. The story keeps folding on itself, Art drawing panels which his father sees and then comments on, this secondary conversation through the oblique public performance that keeps collapsing the narratives, rendering it all into this wash of the meaningful and unmeaningful acts that make up our familiar conversations. It puts me on a wooden fence with my Grandpa who had begun his long, slow erasure of memory to his death, and beyond. It’s bananas. 

It’s so fiercely honest, not just the history, but the ways Art and his dad fail to connect at times. I loved my Grandpa, of course, but sometimes he was a difficult and rigid man, and the ways Spiegelman captures the affection, respect, and complete irritation with our loved ones was perfect for me. My Father Bleeds History is uncompleted, the elder Spiegelmans just committed to Auschwitz, and Art and his father just beginning to talk more openly about the comic Art is creating. Of course I’m reading the second part the second I get my hands on it. 

The Wishing Cake: Adjusting Expectations

I am probably being overly generous with my starrage – three stars on Goodreads – as I adore what Ellen Meister has done with the Dorothy Parker page on facebook. Seems a weird thing to say (or do), but I follow a number of dead authors on social media. I follow some live ones too, but they tend to be overly chatty for my tastes, and the dead aren’t so much interested in getting you to buy their books. Some of the goodness of the Parker page has to do with Parker’s twitter-ready style; were she alive today, she would have burned up social media. 

“Heterosexuality is not normal, it’s just common.”

“Don’t look at me in that tone of voice.”

“This wasn’t just plain terrible, this was fancy terrible. This was terrible with raisins in it.”

“Ducking for apples — change one letter and it’s the story of my life.”

Indeed.

But Meister is to be credited with really fabulous curation of Parker’s jabs and epigrams, along with the occasional longer form bit. Writing such as:

I think I knew first what side I was on when I was about five years old, at which time nobody was safe from buffaloes. It was in a brownstone house in New York, and there was a blizzard, and my rich aunt—a horrible woman then and now—had come to visit. I remember going to the window and seeing the street with the men shovelling snow; their hands were purple on their shovels, and their feet were wrapped with burlap. And my aunt, looking over my shoulder, said, “Now isn’t it nice there’s this blizzard. All those men have work.” And I knew then that it was not nice that men could work for their lives only in desperate weather, that there was no work for them when it was fair.

Which I had never seen, while Parker’s more epigrammatic cut-downs are more ambient and recognizable. Apparently, Meister has written a novel inspired? influenced? by Parker called Farewell, Dorothy Parker, and in the run up to publication early next year, she offered this little story for free. I bit. 

I still think I want to read the Parker novel, because the writing on a technical level was good, and I think given a subject she obviously knows a good deal about, Meister might actually say something in the novel. The Wishing Cakewas far too slight, with too many moving parts and not enough finish. (Ugh, what is that previous sentence about? You suck at the epigrammatic cut-down, Ceridwen.) In a vaguely It’s a Wonderful Life style scenario, a Brooklyn baker is given wishing powder. She wishes herself a man, and then poof! She’s a man. Some things ensue with her shitheel of a boss. 

It’s far too easy to spoil the plot of a story this short, so I’m left being unable to complain about…certain things. The gender change is treated really bathetically, with a failed pissing scene rolling into beers with a dude that made me cringe for the characterization of dudes. The various asides about language use between the sexes weren’t bad, but overall the treatment seemed rom-comedy-esque. To phrase it poorly yet again; God. I didn’t get the deal with the older couple, or their fish/deity, and certain characters were set up too well as shitsnacks for me to believe the 26-page redemption. Altogether, I wish there were more story here, which is occasionally a good thing to want, but not so when the lacunae crater motivation and catharsis. 

Really though, I suspect my problem might be one of being a genre reader in my little cranky, black heart. A gender change in a science fiction or spec fic story is going to be treated a certain way, maybe not always seriously, but with a sense to the larger ramifications. (Whether I agree with the larger ramifications is entirely a separate issue, of course.) In pop fiction, you end up with more nut shots and worn observations about the genders, with a little gay-panic romance thrown in for fun. You know, like Just One of the Guysor Mrs. Doubtfire or Tootsie. Which, blah. I pretty much hate that shit forever. But! I get that this is mostly my feminist hang-ups talking, and cheesy topicality seems to play for people who are not crank nerd feminists. Well, I seem to have found my epigrammatic bitch-face after all. 

So, anyway, I will adjust my expectations of Farewell, Dorothy Parkeraccordingly, which is probably a good effect of reading this story. I will continue to love Meister’s work on the Dorothy Parker page, because she’s very good there. I find the ability or failure of writers to work within various media pretty interesting – I like John Scalzi a ton more as a blogger than a novelist, but I pretty much want to murder his Twitter feed – and Meister might be more like Parker – memorable in the shortest form, and forgettable at the long. Which is again a bitchy thing to say, and I’m sorry. I might be a bang-up review writer and a failure at every other thing I set to paper, so at least there’s that.

In the Shadow of No Towers: The Personal is the Political

Somewhere on the shelf where I store all the family photo albums, the high school year books, a stuffing of letters and other ephemera, is a copy of the New Yorker published on September 24, 2001. I find it whenever I’m digging around looking for some artifact of my family’s life, and never know what to do with it but slip it back into the jumble. I can’t throw it out.

It came in the mail nearly two weeks late, the entire publishing machine run to an absolute standstill as we wept in our living rooms in front of a 24 hours news cycle that broke to gossip and conjecture, half watched while we called and called and called, hoping this time I would get through to my sister who I last heard right after the first plane on the lower east side and before the second. Marco. Polo. I wrote emails on emails to this person and that, forwarded messages, called moms. Pete was supposed to be in the station just below the towers that day, but due to a series of choices and accidents, was 15 minutes late. My sister walked out on the Brooklyn Bridge as the ash fell. Some of her Jewish co-workers, upon seeing the buildings fall, fell to the floor screaming. It’s happening again. Oh no no no.

[the famous cover of the first post-9/11 New Yorker, which was black on black with an image of the towers. The black of the towers was different from the the black of the background only by a shiny film]

Art Spiegelman created this image. He’s been affecting my long slow digestion of that event from before I even knew he was. The first of the periodicals coming in was the beginning of the return to normalcy – that most American of coinage, put forth first by the President Warren G. Harding, an embarrassing failure who had the good sense to die in office. I was hungry in those days for something with editing, something not just reiteration and conjecture, and that first New Yorker was a sign we might be able to start doing something other than crying and freaking out. And speaking of tears, the periodical I was really waiting for was The Onion, which, as you may already know, is a satirical humor site. What could possibly be funny in all of this? After a quick google so I could write this review, I scrolled through the edition I read first and only two weeks after 9/11. Irony wasn’t dead, but it was crying its eyes out.

[How have we spent the last two weeks?
1. Crying
2. Staring at hands.
3. Feeling guilty about renting video.
4. Calling loved one.
5. Thinking about donating blood.
6. Watching TV for nine hours, finally getting up, going to the corner store for Cheez Doodles, eating Cheez Doodles, realizing Cheez Doodles aren’t helping, throwing Cheez Doodles away.]

In the Shadow of No Towerswas written in the weeks and months after 9/11, not so much a critical examination as a reaction in the wobbling search for meaning in the first normalcy after that event. Spiegelman is best known for his graphic novel Maus, which, if you’ve only read one graphic novel, this is probably the one. I read it at 15 or 16, probably because it was assigned in class, but maybe because it was ambient at the time. Maustells the story of the Holocaust in the medium of the paneled comic, but what I remember most is the the ways Spiegelman wrote himself into the narrative, worried about his father and mother, Holocaust survivors, their stories and feelings, the audacity of telling a story as serious as the Holocaust in a format called comics.

I’ve lost much of the story in the intervening decades – godamn it, decades – but I know it’s brilliant, using both the latent didacticism and implicit spectacle of the comics medium to both instruct and – and I am aware how loaded this word is – entertain. Little Artie drawing himself as a mouse, at the knee of his father who then speech balloons a narrative so awful that it makes irony cry. The political cartoon is a longstanding form – hundreds of years – but it was mostly a single panel – a caricature, a punchline – not a moving vaudeville of the brutal slap-stick of how the political intersects with the personal. To make the political cartoon move, that’s a stroke of genius.

I mention Maus because it’s probably not possible to come at In the Shadow of No Towerswithout knowing who Art Spiegelman is and what he has written. This is Art Spiegelman’s story of 9/11, raw and only barely filtered. He deliberately echoes Mausat points, his cartoons of himself morphing into the mouse-self of his story of the Holocaust. That Spiegelman is a Jew, and the child of Holocaust survivors himself is a vital part of how he reacts to this event. My father always said the smell of the smoke in the camps was indescribable. Now I understand what he meant. That he is a New Yorker is another; the revelation that he is not a rootless cosmopolitan, like he always fancied himself to be. He’d learned to keep his bags packed from his parents, but in the event, he realized he had more invested than he thought in that most cityest of cities. I understand now why some Jews did not leave leave Berlin, even after Kristallnacht. 

I read it today on the couch while my daughter played Barbies and bugged me. “That book is for kids,” she said, gesturing to the over-large board book format.

“No,” I said. “It really isn’t.”

“If it has pictures, it’s for kids,” she retorted, decisively. Five is a very certain age.

The sparse panels of this sparse book were intended to be a weekly output, but the ways of trauma and its aftermath would not run on a timetable. Weeks would pass, and Spielgelman would smoke a thousand cigarettes and watch a thousand hours of the news cycle and the images and their attendant words would be unwritten. Nothing runs linearly in this book, it’s just or essentially a series of narrative snapshots, the kind that are absolutely and completely impossible years after the event. There’s a moment somewhere where he talks about reading Philip K. Dick in the aftermath, and I totally felt what he was about, the feeling I had of alternate history at the time. This cannot be so. When Spiegelman would write himself as the mouse character from Maus, this doubly, triply third person, even while the I is all over this book, I don’t even have a verb to contain this clause.

This book ends more in gesture than in conclusion, a final essay on the comic form as developed in the days when Hearst and Pulitzer went after each other in the Sunday Special. It made sense to me how this ended in backward-looking cataloging of the form, made so uneasy by all these events we humans keep enacting on one another. I’ve been waffling on how to assign a star rating – certainly, this isn’t perfect by any stretch, but as an imperfect reflection of a time that has been digested down to a sleek narrative that we’re not going to talk about – it’s perfect. It’s perfect because it’s so decidedly personal, the kind of personal that gets where it is coming from, and has no idea where it’s going.

On 9/11/01 time stopped. On 9/12/01 clocks began to tick again. But everyone knew it was the ticking of a giant time bomb

The other shoe has yet to drop.

Review: Sailor Twain: Or: The Mermaid in the Hudson

I took the kids to the zoo on Friday because sometime late Thursday, I discovered they had the day off and we were suddenly at loose ends. The Como Park Zoo and Conservatory in St Paul is an old school, Victorian zoo, a municipal pasture that was fenced in to hold three deer gifted to the city in 1897. Various attractions were added over the years, such as the ominous sounding “Monkey Island” which must be where the flamingos live now in the summer, or Archie Brand’s Seal Show featuring a succession of sea lions named Sparky. There’s a statue of the original Sparky, as well as one of the first resident lowland gorillas, a male named Don, who lived out his days at Como Zoo. He’s currently stuffed and in a case at the Science Museum of Minnesota across town.

a woman in what looks like 1920's garb with a huge fur wrap around her shoulders feeds a black bear
Watch your fingers.

The zoo has changed a lot since I was a kid. Mum used to joke that you more or less pulled open a fridge to see the penguins, which continues to be true, but the polar bears recently got a multi-million dollar upgrade on their previous, frankly appalling enclosure. Two black bears and a grizzly were visiting from someplace upstate that had been washed out by flooding. But I like how the Victorian bones of the zoological garden are still showing at Como, all this post-Civil War Age of Industry and Expansion, that drops a fence over a pasture and then calls it tame.

an undated black and white photograph that shows three large metal enclosures in a grove with lots of people milling around and looking. It's not possible to tell what's in the cages.
(The two above photos are from the Como Zoo website, and do not have dates.)

My kids and I stood out in the weak November sun and watched sea lions circle their rocky tank. They were the only seasonal animals still out; the single desultory ostrich and his warm climate peers disappeared into basements or wherever they go when not on display – and the flash of the dark body, knifing silently through the water to nose up with the sound of breaking surface tension (not a splash) and then disappear again moves me in that enclosed way of all zoos. They remind me more of dogs than anything, with their big brown eyes and doggy snouts, but I can feel the fur just under my skin, like I could strip off my hairlessness and dive in. Lord, but do selkies do it for me.

stamp from the Faro islands which features a woman transforming into a seal

Mermaids are a little different. They aren’t layers of wildness and domesticity, but a bifurcation of the two, an uneasy stitch between scale and skin. Sailor Twain: Or: The Mermaid in the Hudsonby Mark Siegel takes place slightly earlier than the founding of this zoo, 1887, on the Hudson river. Sailor Twain (“Don’t call me captain”) plies the river in his steamer in the employ of a drunken Frenchman named Lafayette. The story starts with layers though – a broken Twain sought out for his story by an enigmatic woman, all shadows and cloaks, and then tells the tale lappingly, incidents building, reversing so that you apply new information to old assumptions, reimagine as you imagine. The Hudson, like the Thames, is a tidal river, and it flows both ways depending on the moods of the tides. Twain’s recountings start with his offhand observation of a stag in the river, and then the discovery of mermaid on his boat.

My husband called the art here “sophomoric” because he’s a jackass, but I do see his point. Twain is rendered almost naively, his big round eyes and unruly hair under his captain’s hat offset by his almost Puritanically dark figure. The mermaid – her name is unpronounceable, but translates to South – is both fishily sticky and voluptuously sexy. They enact their doom on the charcoal canvass of Industrial Revolution America, all smog and late evening. It took me a while to cotton to Twain’s rendering – why so cartoonish, so simple? – but I eventually dug it for its childlike lack of wonder, its earnest simplicity.

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I’m waiting for someone to flag this image, because Goodreads has a no nudity clause (something which I generally agree with – the pornbots are bad enough without encouragement) and I’m pretty sure that’s a nipple slip there. But it gets really tricky with creatures like mermaids. Their strange unconsummated sexuality is the seam of their existence – it’s what holds them together. The mermaid in Sailor Twainis bare-breasted in most of the panels she occurs, and it is frustrating me no end that I can’t replicate them here. I went and dug around the history of the Starbucks mermaid for a while this morning – I knew she had run into trouble in places like Saudi Arabia and with Christian groups for doing things like having breasts and being a woman-ish creature.

black and white etching of a split tale mermaid with German text
Now I’m just being a scofflaw.

Like the strange Starbucks mermaid with her fishy “legs”, there are a lot of doubled storylines and doppelgangers – Twain’s wife convalescing from some unnamed illness that has her legs tucked unworking into a blanketed wheelchair, her church solo like the siren song of the mermaid, but pious and tamed. Siegel makes use of all the metaphorical possibilities of a steamer captain named Twain – so much so, that I occasionally laughed at how they were deployed. But I think I was supposed to in these little odd moments of levity. Mark Twain himself wasn’t afraid of the narrative wink – although his tended to be whole body gestures.

I pretty much loved this story because I love inevitable tragedy – mermaid stories never end well – and doppelgangers, and Industrial Revolution America, and strange sublimated sexuality and doom. I love it like watching sea lions in an enclosure thousands of miles from the sea.