The Year in Reading: 2025

I always look forward to these little roundups — despite the work — because they give me the opportunity to get a meta-view on the stuff I’m putting in my brain. Reading and dreaming are similar for me, in a way: my conscious self is only rarely driving my choices. I can certainly try to assign myself reading, but the me that exists in the half hour between when I climb into bed and fall asleep is going to read what she’s going to read; ditto for the me on my commute. So last year was my rompy space opera year, the year before was the Year of Martha Wells, and the one before that the Year of Seanan McGuire.

This year was a little harder to categorize. I went back and read a lot of paranormal romance from the heyday: specifically, all of the Twilight Saga and the fifteen or so novels in the first “season” of Nalini Singh’s Psy-Changeling series. I also accidentally read five of Olivia Dade’s novels. I read a little more than a hundred books in 2025, so this is roughly a quarter of my reading. I also read a bunch of books with heists, almost all of them novellas or short stories, and continued reading rompy space opera at a much slower pace. Also, I read a lot of zombie books, per usual, because I don’t have a problem, I have a solution. Which is zombies, apparently.

So without further ado, my year in reading:

Zombies:

I’ll start with zombies because the year starts with zombies in Zombruary. This Zombruary was a little lackluster — frankly, I had a brutal depressive episode — but I’m always going to get to several more throughout the year. As usual, the books are a mix: some from the zombie heyday maybe 10-15 years ago which tend to be pretty classic outbreak-and-seige stories, and some more recent, are often more oblique, coming at zombies in odd ways. While generally I prefer the weird stuff to the more Romero-rules narratives, this year I dug the pleasures of the more classic zombie story. Which is to say, I didn’t think some of the more radical experiments worked, though I still enjoyed the attempt.

Revival by Tim Seeley, et al. I first started reading this comic series in 2013 when they were coming out in weekly (monthly?) installments, but, per usual, I wandered off maybe halfway through. I have a pretty serious problem finishing series, even the ones I like, so it was satisfying to go back and read the entire eight volume run from start to finish. The events in Revival are precipitated by a single event: on one day in Wausau, WI, all of the people who died that day get back up. These reanimated people aren’t cannibal shamblers, and the reanimation does not appear to be contagious. Although the setting, art style and dialogue is naturalistic, there’s an edge of the supernatural: rural noir, Midwestern Gothic. The twenty-odd revivers (that the authorities know about) are … mostly normal, but there’s an uncanniness that creeps. The town is quarantined and beset by various federal agencies, and there’s a fair amount of tension between the local podunk bullshit and the high-handed federal bullshit, in addition to the various bullshits of small time dealers, religious hucksters, and opportunistic attention whores.

I absolutely adore the Midwestern setting, and I feel like Seeley et al did a damn fine job of speaking the language of my people, one that relies on understatement and lacuna more often than is wise. While there were some episodes I didn’t enjoy — I thought the change of venue to NYC didn’t quite work in one of the middle volumes — the series has a more than satisfying ending, even if it got a little more operatic that I prefer at points. With a series of this nature, there isn’t ever a single protagonist, or the town is the protagonist. That said, the character of Em, a hidden reviver who basically has to solve her own murder, comes the closest. I really liked the way Em’s story wrapped up — really, the only way that could satisfy — and the decision not to punish the revealed villain with more than natural consequences was a good one.

American Rapture by C.J. Leede. My one-line review was “read the trigger warnings” because these zombies are seriously fucking upsetting. Zombies are generally understood as creatures of appetite, with the urge to consume decoupled from any moderating force. Now do that, but with sexual hunger in addition to the regular kind. Now do that, but have your religiously repressive parents get infected, so you have to run from the house or be attacked by your own father. Though these sexual assaults by the infected aren’t ever described gratuitously, it’s possible that’s worse, letting my imagination do the work of conjuring horror. The themes of the novel center on repressive fundy Christianity in the American Midwest — the title is an indicator — and Leede does an excellent job of sense of place. Like Revival, American Rapture takes place all through central Wisconsin: there’s a memorable sequence in House on the Rock, and I think the main character even passes through Wausau, where the events of Revival take place. Definitely thought about this one long after I finished reading.

Until the End of the World and So Long, Lollipops by Sarah Lyons Fleming. This series was published a dozen or so years ago in the zombie heyday, and it shows. Until the End of the World is pretty straightforward: a group of survivors escape from a zombifying NYC, and strike out to the main character’s parents house in the woods. A lot of people have tagged this as YA, which isn’t accurate but I can see why they do it. There’s a lot of petulant teen behavior that has no place in the zombie apocalypse, nevermind that everyone is in their late 20s. I did like the fact that our main character had been raised by preppers, so she legit knew what she was doing, and knew how hard it was to grow food and have safe water. The book drags because of it though, as there’s a lot of page time of garden tending and the like, so I’m apparently praising and dinging this book for the same thing. So Long, Lollipops is a sidequel novella, and while it was interesting to see what happened to that one guy, it’s def not standalone.

Dating After the End of the World by Jeneva Rose. Dating After the End of the World has more than a few character and plot beats in common with Until the End of the World, weirdly. The main character has to make it out with from a zombifying major metro to head to her parent’s prepper compound, whereupon she settles into some juvenile in-fighting with people who should be old enough to know better, until they’re attacked by a post-apocalyptic gang. I enjoyed Dating After the End more for a couple reasons. The fight scenes are better and they’re a lot gorier, which I thought was interesting for a book which is romance-adjacent. While the romantic pair had just the most cringe banter, the emotional background of the other main players was good, I thought. Dad became a prepper because of the very traumatic death of his wife, and the emotional fallout of that has worn pretty deep grooves in all of their lives. I also liked the ending, which might be a cliffhanger, or might just be really funny.

What Moves the Dead by T. Kingfisher. Maybe tagging this is as a zombie book is a bit of a spoiler, but I think you know pretty quickly that some serious fuckshit is happening with the uncanny rabbits. What Moves the Dead is a riff on The Fall of the House of Usher, and, like the Poe story, the novel follows the person come to visit the Ushers, in this case a soldier from an invented central European country. Per usual, Kingfisher’s narrator is funny and sly and entertaining, and the events more creeping dread and occult weirdness than bloodbath or cruelty. Tbh, I just didn’t connect to this one like I have with Kingfisher’s other horror. There were some nice bits — I am always down for some sporror, for example — but the overall tone bordered on flippant, which I don’t think works in Gothic horror so well. Not bad at all, just not quite for me.

Bloody Sunrise by Gwendolyn Harper. Honestly, if this hadn’t been an insomnia read, I might not have enjoyed it as much. Bloody Sunrise is a straightforward road trip through the zombie apocalypse, up to and including a pretty jaundiced view of human nature. The MMC was pitched to me as having Pedro Pascal vibes, which is kinda accurate, but also it’s tough to capture Pascal’s specific dorky delights on the page. I also didn’t love how this ends on a serious cliffhanger. I fully expected this to be published ten years before it was in that weird period when everyone was serializing everything, because it feels like an installment in a serialized novel. (Basically the only writers I’ll accept this from are Karen Marie Moning — grudgingly — or Mira Grant.) So was this amazing? No. Will I quit reading this series in a huff? Also no. 

The Z Word by Lindsay King-Miller. The pitch on this one made it seem right up my alley: a disaster bisexual has to ride out the beginnings of the zombie apocalypse perpetrated by the corporate sponsor of Pride weekend in a small town in Arizona. Oh, and her ex-girlfriend was working with the sponsor, so the ex is either a patsy or a collaborator. I’m into the criticism of corporate bullshit co-opting queerness as cynical “branding,” but it wasn’t very coherent here in the end. The tonal swerve between pulp and something like realism didn’t work for me either. Fwiw, I think Eat Your Heart Out (a zombie novel I read for last Zombruary) by Kelly deVos manages a similar sort of cultural criticism — with zombies! — in a much more adroit way. 

Zomromcom by Olivia Dade. Zomromcom is just what it says on the tin: a romantic comedy … with zombies! The romantic comedy part of the story worked for me, the zombie part less so. But I was in the mood for this kind of quippy goofiness, so I had a good time anyway. I also enjoyed the romantic pair. The vampire love interest is openly bisexual, but more than that, he’s also pretty femme. He has a fashion and makeup insta, and he’s more than a little vain about his dashing good looks. I don’t think you run into many femme bi men in mainstream romance, or even in not-mainstream romance. Edie is kind of a dingdong, which is pretty common for romcom heroines, but it never tips over into suicidal stupidity or clueless cruelty. (I’m just a sol bean who can’t help getting people killed being a dumbass uwu. This sort of thing happens a lot in zombie stories.) I get the impression this is the start of a series, and I’m into it.

Awakened by Laura Elliott. Thea Chares lives in the Tower of London with a skeleton crew of medical staff, engineers, and a couple other folk, people who were instrumental in developing a neural implant that would eliminate a person’s need for sleep. After the neural chip was widely adopted, something catastrophic happened with the programming of the chip, a shift which basically turned everyone into ravening monsters. Thea and her band of survivors while away their time trapped in the Tower half-assedly trying to come up with a cure and in-fighting, a tenuous status quo that is unsettled when they take in two survivors: a pregnant human woman, and a preternaturally self-composed one of the Sleepless. The plot of the novel, insofar as there is one, is pretty episodic. Awakened is laid out in an almost epistolary format, narrated by Thea. While this sort of musing, literary take on the zombie apocalypse usually makes me freak out, cf. It Lasts Forever and Then It’s Over by Anne de Marcken, another Zombrurary book I read last year, Awakened never quite clicked for me, and that despite some really great writing. Alas.

This Dark Earth by John Hornor Jacobs. I sort of fell into reading this again when I finished reading Jacobs’s most recent novel, The Night That Finds Us All, and wanted it to keep going. His writing is so fucking good. I read this when it came out, and even wrote a long review back when I did such things. I don’t necessarily have much to add to it, other than I really, really appreciate Jacobs’s attention to detail. This Dark Earth was the first of his novels I’d read, but as I’ve read down his oeuvre, I can tell how much research he puts into his books, but it doesn’t come out in a showy, flashy way. The doctor in This Dark Earth speaks both casually and professionally about the symptoms the infected exhibit — this looks like such-and-such syndrome, but that only affects people with a Y chromosome, wtf, &c — but it never turns into a lecture. I totally get the impulse to show off when you’ve done some good research, and the restraint Jacobs shows while still clearly knowing what he’s talking about is dope as hell. Hail to the king, baby.

Southern Reach by Jeff Vandermeer

I ended up listening to the entire Southern Reach series — original trilogy Annihilation, Authority, Acceptance, and the more recently published Absolutionbecause while I’ve read all four books before, I tore through them so fast that the mechanics of the plot didn’t register, other than a few bright, terrible moments. So the full impact of creeping dread punctuated by terrifying reveals was largely intact, hoorah. I had virtually no memory of Acceptance, for example, which became a problem when I read Absolution; there’s a lot of lore. The novels deal with an eldritch anomaly called Area X on the Forgotten Coast of Florida — something like a pocket universe crossed with a dreamscape. A governmental body called the Southern Reach has the administration of Area X as its mandate, such as it is. Vandermeer plays with storytelling styles, tropes, narrative voices, perspective, and so on, all in the service of some of the most quietly unsettling shit put to paper.

While I really don’t care what the explanation for Area X’s existence or behavior is — that does not matter to the viscera of the narrative — I did find myself thinking about the reader’s perception of Area X. So much of what we know is filtered through the Southern Reach, and the institutional wisdom of the SR is … institutional. All the spy machinations and siloing leads to paranoia, and that’s not even getting into Lowry’s arachnid fuckshit at the center of things. While a lot of horrible stuff happens to our characters, this time through I experienced the ending on the original trilogy this as almost a somulant letting go, the sleeper’s hand opening as dreams pull them under. 

A note on the audio: I wouldn’t have expected it from an actor I associate with 80s sitcoms and the asshole character in TV movies, but holy wow is Bronson Pinchot’s voice acting excellent. (Carolyn McCormick was lovely too, but I didn’t have preconceived notions about her.)

The Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer

Back in my Goodreads days, that site basically ran on Twilight reviews. I read Twilight at that time and then decided to be done with the series. But then I ended up reading Breaking Dawn because I’d been told Breaking Dawn was relevant to my interests (which it was.) Though this is reductive, the first three Twilight novels each misread a work of classic literature: Twilight alludes to Pride & Prejudice; New Moon gets Romeo & Juliet wrong; and Eclipse makes an absolute hash of Wuthering Heights. The mistaken asshole plot of P&P is so ubiquitous in romance that it doesn’t set me off, but I have a whole thing about R&J and an even bigger one about Wuthering Heights, so I knew it was best that I stay away. Anyway, this year ended up being the year that I read the entire Twilight Saga, including the gender-flipped version she put out for the 10 year anniversary. I did not read Midnight Sun, however, because everyone I know who read it says it was trash.

Twilight. I don’t have much to say about this one that I haven’t already said. I’ll just note that Meyer does do an excellent job invoking the absolute cringiest parts of adolescence, which is one of those good news/bad news situations. Well done! But now I’ve broken out in hives.

New Moon. Meyer’s depiction of depression is decent, like the run of blank pages used to signify her catatonia. Bella’s emotional emptiness and feelings of flatness resonated with me as well; depression can be numb instead of painful. However, having only seen the movies before, I was a little taken aback by how much book Jacob sucks. Like seriously, fuck that guy. And the Romeo & Juliet intertext is so much more pronounced in book New Moon, which isn’t a good thing: Meyer doesn’t have the best sense of what makes that work tick. (Spoiler: they have to die at the end.) So she does things like have both Edward and Bella profess they believe they are dreaming for pages and pages, which, in addition to being super embarrassing, also makes them look like ninnies.

Eclipse. In some ways Eclipse is better than New Moon — considerably more happens and the action sequence is well written — but Jacob Black is such a date rape piece of shit that, as a whole, the book is considerably worse. Also, Meyer gets everything wrong in the Wuthering Heights intertext: neither of those dipshits Edward nor Jacob can hold a candle to the majestic swath of fucking destruction Heathcliff wreaks in Brontë’s novel, and Bella doesn’t have anywhere near Cathy’s incandescent cruelty. I thought the Romeo & Juliet thing in New Moon was misguided, but at least R & J were teenage dumbasses, so same. On the other hand, the fact that Bella has to get into a sleeping bag with Jacob or she’ll freeze to death was hilarious, and I admire using such a hoary old chestnut without a hint of embarrassment. On the level that these novels work, they work because they are utterly, perfectly earnest. I know that sounds like a dig, but it isn’t. While these books aren’t my own personal heroin, I can see why so many people love them.

The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner. Maybe it was the mood I was in when I read Bree Tanner, but I thought it was so delightfully goofy. Bree was the newborn vampire that Carlisle spared at the end of Eclipse but the Volturi killed anyway, and this is her first-person account of the last maybe two weeks before her death. Victoria and Riley, who were responsible for creating this newborn army, let the new vampires believe they couldn’t go into the sun, so all the new vamps end up stuck in the basement every night. Apparently, that many vampires in one place is going to end in lots of fights, and I was so amused by how many people got their arms ripped off — don’t worry, it’s bloodless and they reattach them. At one point, Riley throws someone’s own arms chunks at him lol. Anyway, I enjoyed the tone of Bree Tanner because Bree does so much less moaning and bitching than Bella. 

Breaking Dawn. Like Twilight, I’ve already spilled more than enough ink on Breaking Dawn. I’ll just note that I didn’t have quite as strong a reaction to the horrific birthing sequence this time around, I think because I’m farther from my own horrific birthing experience with the older kid. That said, that is still one of the most disturbing depictions of pregnancy and childbirth put to paper. And in a freaking YA novel! Shudder.

Life and Death. Stephenie Meyer was so hurt by critics pointing out how weird and creepy she treats gender in the series — recall that multiple grown-ass men imprint on female infants, for just one disturbing example — that she wrote a whole gender-flipped version of Twilight. (Imprinting is a sort of one-sided soul mate bond, because women don’t imprint back.) And she doesn’t just flip the genders of Edward and Bella, here named Edythe and Beaufort (lol), she flips everyone’s gender, except for Charlie and Renee, weirdly.

The book is somehow both hilarious and tedious. It’s beat for beat with Twilight, down to identical dialogue in some places, which gets really old. But it also shows how horrifically bad she is at writing men, especially in the first person (which, I’m given to understand, is one of the many things wrong with Midnight Sun.) She inadvertently proves her critics’ points: absolutely none of the procreative terror and female-coded “protective” magic works if Bella is Beau, and the whole love triangle with Jacob/Julie doesn’t work if she can’t imprint her way out of it. But the whole thing is so utterly bonkers that I ended up having a good time anyway. Shrug emoticon.

Cities! Cities! Cities!

There are many things I adore in fiction: the post-apocalyptic mall, functioning sff bureaucracies, zombies, &c. Pretty high on the list is vibrant, complicated, fucked up cities. Like the kind of cities that have neighborhoods and aren’t a bare boards play set for the characters, but a character in and of itself. This year was really good for that.

The Rivers of London series by Ben Aaronovich. I’ve been listening my way through this series for the last couple years. I absolutely adore the architecture- and history-nerd stuff that’s all over this series, plus the reader for the audiobooks, Kobna Holdbrook-Smith, is so godamn good at all the accents, inflections, and innuendos of the languages of London, the UK, and all of its denizens. While I like Peter Grant, the first person narrator of this series, London itself is the beating heart of every book. I lived in London briefly in the late 90s, and while I’m not going to pretend I know shit about shit, I do know it’s a freaking cool place, a messy amalgam of Roman forts, Renaissance city design, post-War Brutalist infill, and a dozen small towns swallowed by urbanity, layered over with waves of fires, bombings, and gentrification. God save the queen, &c.

  • The Furthest Station. A novella set between the fifth and sixth books, something something ghosts on the Tube. I admit I’m not the most attentive when I’m listening on my commute, so I kind of have no idea how we got from ghosts to an abducted lady. General confusion aside, I love the reader and I love Peter, the main character’s voice, so I don’t even care.
  • The Hanging Tree. The sixth novel. This one was a little mythology-heavy, which which is kind of an issue because I’m a little hazy on some of the mythos, and also it seemed to crimp the more procedural aspects of the plot. One of these things is my fault, the other less so. Anyway, this novel is the one where the Faceless Man, something of a series antagonist, is unmasked (wocka wocka), and he’s somehow both politely charming and terrifying, which is a good mix. He reminds me of this video I saw once of protesters at the home of the CEO of Nestle — a corporation which is about as evil as it comes — being drawn in so completely by his avuncular politeness that they disburse. That’s what the devil looks like.
  • Lies Sleeping. The seventh installment. We finally get a showdown between Leslie and Peter, and it’s really good. I — and I think Peter — always kind of thought that even though she went to the dark side, Leslie wasn’t completely on the dark side. This was inaccurate! Yikes. I do like that Peter seems to be getting out of policing, because while policework is an easy way to have your characters trot around the city and meet all kinds of folk, the Met police are horrifically corrupt assholes, and anything that doesn’t acknowledge that amounts to copaganda.

Dead Things by Stephen Blackmoore. Maybe cheating a little because urban fantasy is gonna urban. Dead Things felt old school in a lot of ways: the story is one of those dude comes back after a dozen years or so cos something super shitty happened, and then the reunions range from awkward to horrific. Add in a John Constantine-ish magic user and an intimate understanding of LA, and you have some rollicking mid-2010s urban fantasy. Also the main character swears a lot. +1

The City in the Middle of the Night by Charlie Jane Anders. Good gravy, this was so far up my alley it was out the other side: not one, not two, but three cities which run on their own mix of ideology and blarney, like cities do. The setting is an alien planet close to inhospitable to human life: it’s one of those tidally-locked ribbon worlds with a side of eternal darkness and one of burning light; plus a whole fucktonne of generational trauma from the generation ship that brought them to said planet.

The City in the Middle of the Night is often mentioned in the same breath as Le Guin’s The Dispossessed, which makes a lot of sense. There are two main cultures with maybe not opposed but disparate ideologies, and the cli-fi angle is pretty front and center. Anders does gets down into the streets of how groups of people — how cities — define themselves and then enforce that definition, a messiness that makes The City in the Middle of the Night feels less didactic than The Dispossessed (which is not meant to be a criticism of either, but an observation). The City in the Middle of the Night is jam-packed with ideas and cultures and just cool stuff and I fucking loved it.  

The Tomb of Dragons by Katherine Addison. This is the third (final?) installment in the Cemeteries of Amalo series, which is set in the world of The Goblin Emperor. The main character, Thara Calahar, is a Witness for the Dead, a calling which is something like a magical coroner. He was grievously injured fighting an evil ghost thing last book — basically he loses access to the ability that makes him a Witness — so he begins The Tomb of Dragons even more hangdog and morose than he usually is (complementary). While I enjoyed the more procedural parts of the novel and I’m happy to get Thara’s backstory, I wasn’t all that satisfied with how things end up between Thara and Iana; basically their slow-burn relationship fizzles out and Thara ends up romantically involved with some rando. I genuinely do not understand that choice at all. But! Amalo, in addition to being a great city, also has just tons of bureaucracy, which makes me happy.

The City We Became and The World We Make by N.K. Jemisin. I kind of don’t want to make this comparison because fuck Neil Gaiman, but the supernatural mechanic in Jemisin’s urban fantasy duology isn’t so far from American Gods: once cities reach a certain complexity in their identities, they become alive. That consciousness is then embodied in (usually) a single person. São Paulo is a character, for example. When New York comes to be, it is embodied in six avatars: one for each of the five boroughs, and a sixth who is the entirety of NYC. The first novel details the six trying to come together, while being thwarted at every turn by a eldritch horror personified by the Woman in White. (She’s a city too, but one of those Lovecraftian jobs.) (Also, the reader of the audio, Robin Miles, should totally get together with Kobna Holdbrook-Smith from the Rivers of London series and create the most perfect audio reader; both navigate dozens of accents and dialects with aplomb.)

I loved the first book, which showcases Jemisin’s typically smart prose & deft character sketches, but the second is where things really get interesting. Judging from the pub dates, these novels were written during Trump 1 and the Biden interregnum, and it shows. Lots of urban fantasy minces around, taking place in some ahistorical no-time; The World We Make does not. The overt plot details a mayoral race between a Make New York Great Again asshole and one of our avatars. Reading this right after Zorhan Mamdani’s defeat of that grandma-killing sexual-assaulting piece of garbage Andrew Cuomo was very cool; Mamdani could honestly be one of Jemisin’s avatars, and Cuomo has more than a little in common with the MNYGA candidate. We live in dark times, but New York abides.

Heists! Murder! Mystery!

I’m going to throw together a bunch of books under this broad category because I feel like it. Also they sort of occupy the same part of my brain.

How to Steal a Galaxy and Last Chance to Change the World by Beth Revis. I know it’s not fair that I read How to Steal a Galaxy during a rolling coup of the American government, but: the antagonist, a trillionaire obviously modeled after Elon Musk, is evil because he’s built planned obsolescence into his technology. In real life, Musk’s evil goes significantly harder than that. Feels like a failure of imagination. But our heroine also thinks the government is bad because … I’m not entirely sure — they won’t do things the way she likes? Also, freedom fighters are bad because they all employ suicide bombers or something. Our only solution is a wiseass thief, a woman working alone. I don’t think the message of “only Ada can save us” is all that great, because I know for a fact mutual aid is the only way we’re getting through this. Look, I know this is unfair the ding this lighthearted space heist for [gestures at everything], but it’s just the bad timing of history.

Last Chance to Change the World is a perfectly cromulent ending to the trilogy (if indeed it’s an ending.) Ada and Rian end up back on Earth, to pull a reverse heist of sorts: they’re trying to reprogram the climate-cleaning nanobots that the evil Musk-like trillionaire has designed to fail at an important and expensive moment. I’m a huge fan of how Ada uses mutual aid to achieve her goals, alleviating one of my criticisms of the series, though I’m less of a fan of Rian’s cop nonsense. He’s a cop, Ada, c’mon. She keeps her eyes on the prize tho, which is not capitulating to a badge who’s more obsessed with bringing a woman who hurt his ego to justice, instead of destroying the stupid and evil rich asshole who is willing to let a whole planet rot for more money. Money which he doesn’t need, of course. Relatable content.

Run with The Hunted by Jennifer R Donohue. I read Donohue’s witchy Hamlet retelling, Exit Ghost, last year, which was fucking fantastic. So I thought I’d try her cyberpunk heist novellas, which I think are eight or nine and counting. The main character has Ada Lamarr from Full Speed to a Crash Landing vibes — which is the first in the Beth Revis series above — but even girlier, which I like. (I have a whole thing about how heroines aren’t allowed to be girly, like if you wear dresses and know how to match your shoes to your lipstick you can’t be a real badass. This is bullshit.) A good outing, but I’m sure I’ll get more out of the next now that I know who’s who.

Murder on the Titania and Other Steam-Powered Adventures by Alex Acks. Fun collection of rompy steampunk short stories, most of which involve murder and/or a heist. The setting is an alt-America which has been divided into duchies; also there are airships and zombies. Acks has a light touch with exposition, which I honestly appreciate, but I also wanted so much more information on the zombie situation. (I admit this is a me thing.)

Death by Silver by Amy Griswold & Melissa Scott. A consulting detective and a metaphysician are hired by one of their bullies from public school (the British kind) to figure out who killed his father in a steampunky Victorian England. The alchemist and detective, Mathey and Lynes, were lovers in school and have something of a situationship going on. I loved the magic system because while it was clear the authors had worked it all out, they didn’t show off or bore you with a primer. And they took into account how useful skills — like cooking, or sewing, or magic — are expressed differently by class, gender, or culture. The pace felt deliberately slow, which I think is an interesting choice, but sometimes I felt like I didn’t need to get all the details of their transport about London and such. I admit I’m not much a mystery person though, and I suspect some of this might be convention, giving the reader a sense of place or the layers of society and class. I plan to read the next.

All of Us Murderers by KJ Charles. Kind of an odd mix of Knives Out and Northanger Abbey: a family of assholes is bidden to the family manse out on the moors in order to determine who will inherit the ill-gotten family wealth. Our protagonist is the youngest son who is utterly uninterested in both the wealth and what he’d have to do to get it, namely marrying a cousin from the wrong side of the blanket. (It’s Edwardian England; that’s not so odd.) There’s a lot of fun Gothic trappings and potentially supernatural shenanigans, though I think most readers can identify a Scooby Doo haunting pretty quickly. In fact, I was having a perfectly lovely time up until the third act when it was revealed how truly horrible this family is/was. One of the keys to Gothic, I think, is a sense of comedy that never lets on that it’s funny. There is a fair amount of humor, but in the end, everyone was so awful that humor was well and truly shattered. When it was fun it was fun, but when it wasn’t it was still ok. 

The Supersonic Phallus by Steven Key Meyers. I admit I downloaded this from Netgalley because of the title, obviously. As the title indicates, though this novel has some sword fighting, The Supersonic Phallus is not a romance novel. Nor is it a comedy, somehow? Two cub reporters are sent to investigate reports of UFOs in a small town in Colorado in 1947, same year as the Roswell crash. The narrator has a wife and a kid and another one on the way, while his counterpart is much more obviously queer-coded. They begin a largely unspoken affair while Scooby Doo sleuthing their way to the truth of the unidentified aircraft. The Supersonic Phallus felt like a historical fable, but it also put me in mind of The X-Files, oddly. This is neither a tragedy nor a comedy, though it is both rueful and funny in equal measures, which is a very complicated tone and one I don’t feel like I encounter often.

Otherworldly: Ghosts! Vampires! Demons! Magic!

Collected fantasy novels, in various modes. Some are high fantasy, some urban fantasy, some Gothic, some set in unique fantasy worlds. I spent some time trying to find a haunting that felt like the ghost stories my mother has collected for decades, but I never did. I suppose this is because actual ghost stories can be chilling, but they’re also usually discrete, something that happens to the house’s occupants a couple times but doesn’t ultimately affect their lives all that much. I had a good time anyway. I’m also tossing in some vamps, demons, and even a little cthulhu as a treat.

The Other Wind by Ursula K Le Guin. Last year I read through all the Earthsea books, but technically didn’t finish The Other Wind, the sixth and final installment, until early 2025. The Other Wind, more than anything, feels like Le Guin breaking her wand. Made me cry.

Black Hellebore by Grace Draven. Grace Draven’s Wraith Kings series starts as a really thoughtful slow-burn romantasy between a couple in a political marriage in Radiance — a book I love and reread every year — but then plays with various fantasy modes: doomed company on a quest, court intrigue, even a mermaid tale. Black Hellebore feels like a set up for dealing with the fallout from mess at the end of Eidolon, the second novel. But then also some stuff happened in Black Hellebore that freaked me out so bad I had to read the last page to make sure. It turns out, sort of, if you’re worried too. I also reread Master of Crows by Draven, which is about a powerful mage who is also a subsistence farmer, which is the coolest thing. You can’t eat magic.

A Fae in Finance by Juliet Brooks. This is another book I actually wrote a review for. Short form review: corporate drone Miri gets stuck in Fairyland, where she has to continue being a corporate drone. There’s lots of bureaucracy, send-ups of corporate culture, and hijinks involving cats, all of which I very much enjoy.

Moonflow by Bitter Karella. I first encountered Bitter Karella in the web series (is that what this is?) called The Midnight Society, which is a bit that started on Twitter wherein various horror writers sit around talking about stuff. It’s funnier than it sounds, promise. Anyway, when I learned their first novel was going to be published, I pre-ordered the shit out of it. It did not disappoint. Moonflow is extremely goopy sporror which is somehow gross, hilarious, and horrifying all at once.

Small Miracles by Olivia Atwater. It was when I saw that the pub date for this was 2022 that I realized that this is a Covid book in the vein of Legends & Lattes: low-stakes fantasy that is sweet, full of baked goods, and gently — not broadly — comedic. Most reviews note the Good Omens vibes, which I get. The main character is a fallen angel whose purview is minor temptations; she’s not going to damn you, just get you to take the last cookie. He ends up in a deal with an angel to tempt a woman who is so virtuous — largely due to crushing feelings of obligation to her dead sister’s child — that she’s grinding herself down. (I did a pronoun switch because angels are genderqueer, and Gadriel switches sexes regularly.) It’s not quippy, which I like, more gently slapstick with some minor theological jokes. So. Not going to blow your mind, but a nicely affirming little story. Enjoyable.

The Undermining of Twyla and Frank by Megan Bannen. I read the first of this series last year for Zombruary, but this one doesn’t have zombies in it. I felt this one in my bones. Twyla and Frank are both marshals who patrol Tanria, which is like a national park and a pocket universe had a baby. They’re both in their 50s with grown children, Twyla widowed and Frank divorced. They’ve been best friends for going on a dozen years. Things start to get messy when Frank has a baby dragon imprint on him — not unlike what happens in Robin McKinley’s Dragonhaven — and gets stuck in Tanria with a toff draconologist for a bit. Their relationship becomes strained when she goes on a date with said toff, the first one she’s gone on since the death of her husband. 

The way Twyla reflexively cares for everyone while also sometimes seething with resentment for the thoughtless ways she’s sometimes used by her family reeeeaally got to me. The hot flashes, the utterly necessary sensible shoes, the way you sometimes pee a little when you sneeze: I felt seen in ways I haven’t in a long while. Which is not to say Twyla is mistreated or her family sucks or anything — far from it — it’s just the quiet needs of a lot of menopausal women are often backburnered and then never seen to at all. Jfc. Also, Frank gives off really decent Pedro Pascal vibes. Rwrrr. I also read The Undercutting of Rosie and Adam, the third and final book in the series. I liked this one the least of the trilogy just due to my own predilections, but it nonetheless sticks the landing. I loved this world a lot and I’m kinda bummed there won’t be more.

Thirst by Marina Yuszczuk. At some point during my time on Goodreads, I created a shelf called “tragic hair-brushing” for a certain kind of Gothic novel, the kind that likely has a sylph-like female character who haunts her habitation wearing diaphanous dresses. The first book to go on the list was Flowers in the Attic. I’m making a little fun, but also I love this so much. Thirst is definitely a tragic hair-brushing book. The opening epigraph is a quote from The Bloody Countess: The Atrocities of Erzsebet Báthory by the surrealist poet Valentine Penrose, which details the depredations of Báthory not so much academically as emotionally. The old saw goes that a novel teaches you how to read it, and this epigraph definitely points to a rubric more psychosexual than historical. I’m a big believer that Gothic runs on vibes much more than other genres, so this is an auspicious opening. There’s a retrospective quality to Thirst that makes me hungry for the parts of the story not told, the continuations and explications. It is fitting, in a way, for a novel called Thirst that the reader is never quite sated. 

A Voice Calling by Christopher Barzak. A short story of a haunted house — and the screwed up family producing the haunting — told from the perspective of the town. The anecdotal quality was just aces.

The Secret Casebook of Simon Feximal by KJ Charles. Less a novel and more related short stories, in the vein of John Watson’s documentation of Sherlock Holmes’s cases. Here, Simon Feximal is the Holmes character, and Richard his Watson, though their romantic relationship is less subtext and more text than Sherlock & John. Simon is a ghost hunter, of sorts, and the milieu is England in the late 19th C up to the run-up to WWI. The cases often use British folklore or history, which is neat. The ghosts were often more … pyrotechnic than I prefer, but I’m not dinging the book for that, of course, just making an observation. Anyway, I really enjoyed the episodic nature of the book, because I could down what was functionally a short story at bedtime and not get sucked into staying up too late or falling asleep mid-page. 

The Night That Finds Us All by John Hornor Jacobs. Our hilariously awesome hot mess of a narrator, Sam Vines, signs on as crew to take a huge Edwardian sailing ship from the west coast of the States to England because the ship was sold. From the first, things don’t seem right. The ship is … uncanny, and Vines can’t tell if it’s the comedown from the last several months at the bottom of a bottle, or if the weird stuff is actually happening. There are three rich guys cosplaying as crew who begin to go missing, one by one, and no one knows if they went on a bender at a stopover, or something more sinister. The novel uses tons of Gothic tropes, but they’re delivered through such a likeably screwed up & deadpan narrator that I didn’t even clock them at first. Jacobs is so good; you should read all of his books right now.

Prosper’s Demon by K.J. Parker. Nasty yet entertaining little morality tale, in the medieval sense of the term, with demons and those who fight them vying for spiritual dominion. This one plays out like a trolley problem where you want the train car of people dead, which is bonkers. Nice narrative voice too.

Dead Harvest by Chris F. Holm. Urban fantasy from the heyday. The main character is a reaper, tasked with retrieving souls destined for the hot place. He’s sent to retrieve the soul of a girl who seemingly brutally murdered her entire family, but whatever spidey sense he has tells him she’s an innocent. Which kicks off a proxy war between heaven and hell focused on the reaper and the girl. This kind of story is so action-driven you sometimes feel exhausted for the characters. I really liked it and plan to finish the trilogy.

Romance/Adjacent

This is not to say that a bunch of the books I’ve stuck in other categories don’t have romantic themes, but here’s where I’m going to sweep up the novels that have a strong romantic thread — if they’re not just straight up romance novels — because they don’t fit anywhere else. As will be the theme, most of them are genre in one way or another: space opera, science fantasy, romantasy, etc.

Chaos by Constance Fay. This series, about one of those cobbled together spaceship crews of fuckups and weirdos, continues to be a whole lot of rompy fun. The author apparently works in biotech so a lot of the technobabble is next level. It’s still pretty pulpy though, which I don’t hate at all. I’m pretty much into this sort of thing to see space dudes get themselves into a pickle and then make up a bunch of nonsense to get out of it. There are also killer floofs.

The Secret by Elizabeth Hunter. This is the culmination of a story arc which began two books back about a group of people, the Irin, who are the children of angels before they left the world. I don’t think it’s amazingly plotted or anything, but the way the various themes come together for the series as a whole is pretty great. Also, Hunter does something with the concept of the mate bond that I have literally never seen anywhere else, and it’s fascinating. 

Olivia Dade. I read a lot of Olivia Dade this year, almost by accident. I stored her zombie novel, Zomromcom, in the zombie section; here’s where I’ll put the rest of it.

  • At First Spite. Jilted woman moves into the spite house next to her ex’s brother, which is awesome because spite houses are the coolest. While I get why this was written this way — there’s a parallelism between two eavesdropping conversations that bookend the plot — the crisis in the second act is an annoying overreaction which I didn’t love. But! There’s a harrowing depiction of descent into a depressive episode which rang horribly true, and I appreciate when writers show that depression can happen to anyone, even bubbly extroverts. Not all of the comedy worked for me, but there’s a lot of genuinely funny stuff in At First Spite. Also, I 100% want to be part of a monsterfucking book club.
  • Second Chance Romance. Sequel to the above. It’s got Dade’s sense of humor and body positivity — including for the dude, which is even less common — and the characters have lives and interests outside of each other, which is great. I even liked how thoughtful the romantic lead was with our heroine: giving her space, paying attention to her wants and needs, and most importantly, respecting her boundaries. But I got more and more annoyed that our thoughtful and grownup main characters absolutely refused to say anything out loud to one another, leading to one of those bullshit third act misunderstandings which I cannot abide. The annoying thing is that they had a real conflict! They lived on separate coasts, and while that’s more or less waved away, that is a genuine impediment to a relationship. Anyway, I don’t want to end on a grumpy note (and this is more grumping than bitching). This series is still a lot of fun.
  • Spoiler Alert. This and its sequel, which I also read, seem like Covid books, steeped as they are in AO3 culture and communities (specifically the BriennexJaime fandom). A fanfic writer and cosplayer of a popular show that seems an awful lot like Game of Thrones with the serial numbers filed off falls into a romance with an actor on the show. The wrinkle being said actor is ALSO her writing partner and longtime online friend, but she doesn’t know that. He doesn’t clue her in on this identity because his career would be over if the shitty showrunners found out he was writing fix-it fics, plus he’s got some serious imposter syndrome. Cute.
  • All the Feels. This is the sequel. Dade is, as usual, funny with lots of body positivity. The love interest is an actor on Game of Thrones Gods of the Gates playing Jaime Lannister Cupid. His mom has a history of spousal abuse so he’s furious that the showrunners, who are assholes, had Jaime Cupid return to his abusive relationship with Cercei Venus instead of ending up with Brienne  Psyche. The showrunners assign him a minder, our heroine, who is there to try to keep him from blowing up his career over that disastrous final season. The relationship was cute, but the real satisfaction was having someone go after Game of Thrones showrunners D&D for being such fuckwits. 

Defender by Michelle Diener. I read the absolute shit out of Diener’s space opera-y books last year. (I tried her fantasy but it didn’t click for me.) Anyway, Defender is the latest installment, published this year, in the Verdant String series, and it was a godamn treat to slip back into this world. While Diener’s books almost always have a romantic thread, they’re crazy action-driven, like the kind of story that keeps throwing absolutely terrible stuff at our heroes and then watching them be resourceful or clever or kind — especially the last — in order to get out of the mess they’re in. Super fun.

Delay of Game by Ari Baran. Read this because of all the Discourse on Heated Rivalry, and one of the people I follow recommended this series as better than Reid’s Game Changers. Of course I ended up reading #2 first. Situations that are a result of people not talking to each other kind of drive me crazy, but I thought they were mostly justified here. (Except for the last big one.) They’re both on the same team, have been friends for ages, and the consequences of their relationship going to hell are tangible. Plus, both are filled with a fair amount of anxiety, self-loathing, and impostor syndrome — some due to the pressure cooker of professional sports, some due to upbringing — which makes it hard for them to understand themselves, let alone another person. Hooray, horny hockey players! 

Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen. Look, I know this isn’t a romance novel, but it’s definitely a formative work for latter day romance, so. Pride and Prejudice continues to be a delight, just this unbelievable mix of gently domestic and utterly savage. I was not in love with the audio reader, Rosamund Pike, who played Jane Bennett in the 2005 adaptation. I thought her straight reading was fine, but I hated her voices for Mrs Bennett and most of the men. Much sport is made of Mrs Bennett in the text, which is fair enough because Mrs Bennett is ridiculous most of the time. But honestly, Mr Bennett’s poor planning is the reason the girls are in such a precarious position in the first place, an ugly reality he deals with largely through aloof, sardonic bullshit and belittling his family. Mrs Bennett is basically the only parent taking that seriously, even if her temperament makes her bad at it. Always a rewarding book to revisit.

I Think I’m in Love With an Alien by Ann Aguirre. The set up feels a little similar to Spoiler Alert, but a more science fictional version: a group of alien aficionados who’ve been chatting for years on a subreddit or something decide to finally meet in person at an Alien Con in Roswell. Of course, some of the people are actually aliens, which is kind of an issue when they finally have an opportunity to act on their online crushes. Although this was cute and funny and the cover is an absolute banger, I didn’t enjoy this as much as Aguirre’s Galactic Love books, which are also alien romances. But it is still cute and funny!

Oddities

This is where I’m going to store all of the books that don’t fit neatly into any of the (admittedly capricious and inexact) categories I have for my reading. All of them are genre-adjacent: they all have some bit of weirdness in their settings that renders the familiar strange. This is what I said about one of the books on this list, but it really could go for all.*

I finished reading and floated around the house in a pleasant sense of ecstatic despair. I’ve felt this hard to define emotion after some of my favorite novels: The Age of Miracles by Karen Thompson Walker, The Mad Scientist’s Daughter by Cassandra Rose Clarke, or Composite Creatures by Caroline Hardaker. There’s something about stories of domestic upheaval foregrounded by intrusive technology that just utterly get to me.

*Except for the last on this list, lol. You’ll see when you get there.

I Who Have Never Known Men by Jacqueline Harpman. A group of women and one child are taken from their homes and deposited into an underground prison patrolled by silent men. They are not allowed to touch each other; the light and dark cycles appear to be random; their food is rough ingredients and they have few amenities. The girl — our narrator — grows up in this environment: untouched, almost shunned by her fellow inmates, in a prison. When they are freed, the whole situation gets a lot bleaker, which is saying something. Reminded me in a lot of ways of Wittgenstein’s Mistress: the loneliness, the sere quality of the environment, the reflection. But I Who Have Never Known Men is definitely not trying to be clever, which, for better or worse, Wittgenstein’s Mistress is. Completely fucking devastating.

On the Calculation of Volume, vol 1, by Solvej Balle. This is the first installment in a seven-volume novel by Danish writer Solvej Balle about a woman who begins to repeat November 18th, Groundhog Day-style. Three have been published in English so far, with a fourth coming out this April. It took me a while to get through this because it is so, so sad. My experience of Groundhog Day fictions is largely through comedies — though check out Two Distant Strangers if you want to see a serious treatment about racial violence in America — but I had never really understood the sadness inherent in being the only one awake in a repeating day. Gutting. Beautiful. Endless. I’ll be reading the rest.

Sunset at Zero Point by Simon Stålenhag. I completely lost my shit over everything Stålenhag a couple years back. I can’t think of a good analogy for his work, except for maybe illustrator/writer Shaun Tan: both use beautiful, arresting paintings in the service of narrative, something like a children’s picture book for adults? And even though their stories are told both with and told through illustrations, they’re not so much like comics. Anyway, I did actually write a long review of Sunset at Zero Point, but the bullet review is thus: this might be his finest work yet.

The Starving Saints by Caitlin Starling. The setting is a Medieval castle several months into a siege, at the time when there are no living animals but people and skinny rats, when hungry thoughts begin to turn to the unthinkable. But this isn’t quite Medieval Europe: there is a religion of bees, of the hive, in addition to unthinkable powers in the land itself. The prose is almost overwritten, which ends up feeling voluptuous when set against the scarcity and famine of the characters’ situation. Beautiful in a gnawing, hungry way.

Telluria by Vladimir Sorokin. Sorokin is Russian, but of a grand tradition of the ex-pat Russian writer who excoriates the current admin, which in this case is Putin. Telluria was written in 2013, but there are odd parallels with Russia’s invasion of Ukraine all over this mess of an alt-Europe. The fifty chapters of this novel are all narrated by different people, in disparate parts of a Europe which has shattered and balkanized into dozens of countries. Then also add in oddities like a drug — the titular telluria — which is administered through trepanning, or donkey and dog people, or other science fictional details which rear up in the middle of what seems like an otherwise legible recounting of events. It’s very Bulgakov, a writer who I can appreciate but don’t love. Which is to say: I don’t love Telluria, but it also gave me tons to think about.

Mean One by Ab. Cynthe. Mean One is an absolutely unhinged erotic horror retelling of The Grinch, which is exactly right. Banger of an ending, even if getting there gets a little repetitive with all the murder/fucking. Which is a sentence I didn’t expect to write.

Psy-Changeling by Nalini Singh

I’m putting this section last, in case you don’t want to read through bullet reviews of fifteen books in the same series. For whatever reason, this year I decided I was going to read through the entire Psy-Changeling series in publication order. I don’t remember when I started reading Psy-Changeling, but for sure only a half dozen or so novels and novellas were out at the time (there’s over 20 now) and, because I’m kind of a dilettante, I just read around in no particular order. Which is fine because the novels are technically standalone — it’s a romance series, so each installment focuses on a new couple, and they may or may not have any connection to the previous one — there is definitely an evolving story going on in the background. And that evolving story is so fucking cool. Once I kenned to this larger arc, I completely lost my mind and have been in the tank for this whole series. Sure, there are individual installments I don’t love, and I have the kind of criticisms one has when one loves something and wants it to be better — the biggest being the gender essentialism everywhere — but I love it both despite and because of its flaws.

Slave to Sensation. The very first Psy-Changeling novel, published in 2006. This was fun to reread because Singh hasn’t quite worked out the mechanics of everything yet, and there were a couple moments when I thought, boy, that’s not like that now. The world is thus: a hundred years before the events of the novel, in 1979, the Psy, a psychic race, decided to institute something called the Silence Protocol in the hopes of protecting themselves from out of control psychic abilities. Silence is functionally child abuse on a global scale: all Psy children are “conditioned” using pain not to express any emotion. The plot of the novel involves a Psy who must have enormous power — there are physical tells — but because that power is based in emotion, no one around her recognizes it. She ends up in a courtship with a Changeling, who are shape-shifters, in this case a big cat (maybe a jaguar? I don’t remember.) Ended up being better than I remembered.

Visions of Heat. This one, however, ended up being significantly worse. There are some things going for it: Singh introduces both the NetMind, a Gibsonian neo-sentience born out of the PsyNet which all Psy must connect to to stay alive, and Kaleb Krychek, one of the Psy world leaders and hands down my favorite character in the series. A lot of people note how similar this book and its predecessor are — high powered but unstable Psy falls in with a dominant predatory changeling, with a dated-feeling serial killer plot to act as “stakes”. But there’s a ton wrong with how our leading dickhead treats his lady love. I’ve always said that Singh typically does a great job of showing individuals working their way through trauma, and the Psy are a deeply traumatized people. Singh doesn’t use bullshit shortcuts to recovery — aka application of magic vagina — nor does she minimize the reality of that trauma. But this was the first time her traumatized Psy character read to me as neurodivergent, and the way Vaughn tramples over Faith’s clearly marked boundaries made me furious. Fuck Vaughn.

Caressed by Ice. There is some weird nonsense here which managed to sour my reread somewhat. This is saying something, because normally I’m super into a plot involving an emotionally reserved dude losing his shit over a lover. So, broad strokes: wolf-shifter Bren was abducted and brutalized by a Psy Councilor in one of the previous books. It’s been six months-ish since then, and her brothers are being overbearing about her “safety” in lieu of actually helping her heal from the trauma. (Her brothers can all go kick rocks.) She gets all fixated on Judd Lauren, one of a family of Psy who dropped out of the PsyNet and threw in with her changeling pack. Their relationship worked for me as two traumatized people learning to experience simple human pleasures, and the parts of the plot which focused on them were enjoyable. Unfortunately, there’s a lot of casually gross stuff about gender roles in this novel, plus some real bile about people who suffer from addiction being “weak.” Not great.

Mine to Possess. These early ones continue to be mid to bad. I like all the backstory we’re getting about the Psy Council, the PsyNet, the Forgotten, etc, but Talin is a dish rag and Clay a fucking dick. For example, Clay gets mad that Talin, due to the effects of sexual abuse when she was a child, was promiscuous as a young woman. Like I get why she would feel bad about that a little — it’s all wrapped up in shame and trauma — but the fact that she keeps apologizing to fucking Clay makes me furious. Fuck you, Clay. So this series continues to be bananas because I still adore the big Psy Revolution thing going on in the background, even while I want to throat punch various predatory changelings. Also, much as I hate Clay, Singh does accurately depict the effects of trauma at points, down to the ways people rely on real maladaptive behavior, and recovery is a difficult and often incomplete process. Clay sucks, but he also takes Talin’s fear of the dark and enclosed spaces seriously and doesn’t expect her to magically get over a phobia just by thinking about it, so.

Hostage to Pleasure. This one starts to cook! The main guy is annoying because he’s a predatory changeling and all the “feral protectiveness” that implies (I swear Singh uses that phrase dozens of times). The book itself is pretty mythology-heavy; just ignore Dorian’s bullshit. (Also, there’s a scene here where he prematurely blows his load because she, like, pokes his penis, which made me laugh so hard I had to put the book down for a minute.) The Psy half of the couple has a deeply disturbing relationship with her twin sister, and coming out of that looks a lot like decoupling from an abuser. Singh also builds out how the PsyNet works and gets into Psy Council politics, which is why I’m here.

Branded by Fire. Singh doesn’t go in for enemies-to-lovers all that often, so Branded by Fire is notable in that regard. So a little backstory: through the course of the series, the changeling packs DarkRiver and SnowDancer — leopard and wolf packs, respectively — more or less fuse into one big super-pack. Though they’ve been moving closer together due to the various Psy-expats in their ranks, the romance between Mercy and Riley, who are sort of military enforcers for their own packs, cements this alliance. Basically, they bang it out after a big wedding that both packs are involved with, and then angst for the next 300 pages about dogs and cats living together, mass hysteria! Branded by Fire lurches between being a bunch of gender essentialist nonsense and fine character work, which is how these middle books roll.

Blaze of Memory. Blaze of Memory is a perfectly cromulent outing, even if I felt a little squirmy at points, and really pushes the mythology along in satisfying ways. Devraj Santos, the leader of the Forgotten — Psy who left the PsyNet rather than submit to the brutal emotional conditioning called Silence — is pretty much a classic incel. His love interest is Katya, a woman specifically and obviously sent in to be the kind of spy a misogynist expects. Their interactions are … not always great. But Singh knows how to show recovery from trauma well, and I love the way it’s both based on community action, and sometimes incomplete. When people heal from trauma, they don’t get better on their own or due to a lover’s devotion, but because communities of people care for both their bodies and minds. Blaze of Memory definitely leans romantic suspense, which I have limited success with but, again, all the stuff with Net was so compelling I don’t even care. Something is very wrong on the PsyNet, and it’s getting worse.

Bonds of Justice. While I like this installment — Max Shannon is a lot more affectionate and thoughtful than most of Singh’s heroes — I really noticed how weird Singh’s attitude to criminal justice is. The plot involves a J-Psy, psychics who have useful powers for the criminal justice system. Having to go into the minds of murderous psychopaths isn’t good for their health though, so Js end up used up by their mid-30s. Max works for Enforcement which is like the … FBI maybe? (Honestly, nothing about the governments and bureaucracies in the Psy-Changeling world make any sense.) J-Psys often push already incarcerated murderers to kill themselves as a form of “justice”, which all the main characters endorse. Extrajudicial murder by the ostensible good guys shows up often in Psy-Changeling books, and it’s often directed at addicts. Needless to say, I’m super uncomfortable with this, especially i/r/t addicts. I feel like this endorsement of vigilantes tones down a bit in later books and there is some acknowledgement that addiction is a disease that should not be treated with a death sentence, but it’s still there.

Play of Passion. I had mixed this one up in my memory with another Psy-Changeling novel with a similar conflict: the woman is more “dominant” than her boyfriend, which is obviously a huge problem for fragile male egos and other gender essentialist nonsense. The other novel “solves” this by having her actually be a maternal, a category of shifter that exists in the universe but is there largely to be a punchline: haha, the alphas are so scared to go see the mommies. She’s not really dominant, she’s just such a mama bear, etc. Which means I was braced for that appalling conclusion most of the way through Play of Passion, which is too bad. The main couple here are good friends and colleagues, and the way they navigate their conflicting roles and responsibilities is actually pretty great.

Kiss of Snow. I remembered this one fondly because I <3 when Singh addresses the whole concept of a mate bond and fated mates and all that jazz head on. Because while I understand why the concept is appealing — it makes a relationship as difficult and fragile as one based on romantic love unbreakable and enduring — the whole idea of being eternally bonded to someone who will inevitably change, and not always for the better, gives me the screaming fantods. Like what if they join an MLM? What if they get super into crypto? (same/same) My massive and enduring issues aside, Kiss of Snow is about the Alpha of the San Francisco wolf pack, Hawke — which, I might add, is the silliest name for a lupine changeling — and the oldest Lauren kid, Sienna, who is part of a family of Psy taken in by the pack. Hawke lost the girl who was his fated mate when she died at five years old. So Sienna and Hawke dance around each other for the book, with Hawke being high-handed and emotionally withholding, while simultaneously not respecting boundaries that Sierra keeps trying to impose. I did ultimately respect what Singh was doing here, even if I didn’t see why she was doing it that way at first, so the middle act was harder sledding for me. Good outing tho.

Tangle of Need. This is the one with the dominant maternal that I was worried about. It ended up being better than I remembered, even if the whole dominant maternal thing makes my ass twitch. Lots of mythology, which I love, but the main couple still did significantly more meaningless wheel-spinning than I prefer. I did like that Singh addresses couples who can’t or won’t have a mate bond. She’s done this before with Sienna and Hawke, but he had an easy out in that his potential mate was deceased. Here the guy’s potential mate was alive and well and happily married, and he still chose the person he loved over the one that some bullshit magical mate bond chose for him. Love is ultimately a choice, and I like that Singh underlines that here.

Heart of Obsidian. The next three Psy-Changeling novels are very good — and it’s notable that they’re a dozen novels deep into a series — but Heart of Obsidian is my favorite by a country mile. Kaleb Krychek has been around since the second book as a unthinkably powerful Psy — he could literally crack the planet in half — with utterly opaque motivations. He was raised by another Psy Councilor who was a serial killing psycho, and no one knows if he shares his mentor’s predilections. He’s been searching for a girl who gave him kindness and affection when he was a vulnerable and abused adolescent, and he finally finds her in this novel. As a romance, this is fascinating stuff: Kaleb is deeply flawed (I think shrinks would call it an attachment disorder) and while he finds love, he remains deeply flawed. I think it’s notable that love doesn’t erase his character flaws, nor does it undo the effects of a childhood of abuse. Singh lets Kaleb heal one part of himself and stay otherwise messy, which is so very cool.

Shield of Winter. Singh doesn’t always do the best job having her romance plot and the overt plot work together. She relies on dated-feeling serial-killer machinations (so 90s!) or random violence by poorly-reasoned guerilla groups as plot-drivers a lot, and irrespective of what her lovers are going through. Shield of Winter, however, is perfectly balanced. Vasic is an Arrow, one of a Psy paramilitary group devoted to maintaining Silence. Now that Silence has fallen, they have to adjust to the new realities. Ivy Jane is an E-Psy (that’s the emotion one, like Sascha Duncan in the first book) one of a dozen the Arrows bring together to try to figure out why the PsyNet is dying. Vasic is also dying, due to a malfunctioning bio-mechanical gauntlet he had installed in an almost suicidal gesture. Here Singh starts addressing head on how horrific the eugenics practiced under Silence was, which I am 100% here for. I am also a sucker for the way Singh focuses on the small pleasures her Psy characters experience as they come out of Silence: the softness of clothing, the warmth and sweetness of hot chocolate, the joys of caring for a pet.

Shards of Hope. This one leans romantic-suspense, which I normally have limited success with (so much copaganda!) but it works here really well. Aden and Zaira are both Arrows, part of that paramilitary group I mentioned in Shield of Winter. Arrows are largely taken in as children because they have powerful, often lethal psychic powers which result in them killing or endangering their families of origin. (I have a whole thing about how utterly bonkers the conception of government is in the Psy-Changeling books, which I will not get into here, but know that I have at least an hour long cassette tape on the subject.) In Shards of Hope, Aden & Zaira wake up in some remote facility after unknown persons have abducted them and stuck chips in their brains for god knows what purpose. They escape out into a snow storm, and then have to do things like brain surgery under a tree in the middle of nowhere. It’s nail-biting stuff.

Allegiance of Honor. Allegiance of Honor is the fifteenth and final book in what Singh calls the “first season” of the Psy-Changeling novels. Silence has fallen, and a tentative way forward has been forged in the Trinity Accord. Unfortunately, the book sucks beyond the telling of it, and that after three of the best books in the series. I’ve taken a run at it a couple times, but always get stopped when I realize it’s the romance equivalent of a clip show: basically we check in with literally all of the couples from the previous fourteen books and get to watch them canoodling and congratulating themselves on how perfect their lives are. Gag. There is a romance but it has zero stakes, which is fine because it’s maybe 5% of the page count. I pushed through this time in the interests of completism. While I’m kind of glad I did — there were a number of instances where Singh introduces characters who become the subject of later books, and I liked seeing the origin stories — I will never read it again.

Final Thoughts

So! That’s my reading for the year. The list isn’t complete: there were some rereads I didn’t bother to note, some books I read at the beginning of the year and don’t remember enough to say, and a couple books I hated, but I’m trying to practice restraint throwing stones on the internet. Also, I’ve gotten pretty good at tossing books I’m not grooving on before I make the mistake of reading to the end. Life is short, &c.

It was notable to me how much 2010s urban fantasy I read — everything from zombie novels to more paranormal romance. I should probably read more weird genre litfic, because, judging from the Oddities section, that stuff turns my crank. It’s also hard reading, in way, not to be undertaken when tired or on the commute, so I get why I don’t read more of it. I read for many reasons: because I can’t sleep, the joy of language, to pass the time, to learn something, to feel something. These reasons aren’t mutually exclusive, necessarily, but they also don’t always conjoin.

Happy reading! We’ll see what I get up to this year.

The Year in Reading: 2022

I rounded up the books I’d read for the year a couple years back, which I hoped to make into something of a tradition. Alas, I’ve never done well when I assign myself homework, so last year went by without a roundup. But I guess I’m back! We’ll see how this goes. I’m still pretty focused on lighter fare, like I was at the start of the pandemic, but I’ve managed to slip in some horror here and there, mostly stuff I’d read already. In fact, I did a lot of rereading this year; I’m just not interested in surprises. So, without further ado:

Stuff I read for class:

The Collected Works of T.S. Eliot. If you weren’t aware, I finally finished up the English degree I started eleventy million years ago. The class itself was a senior seminar style class — where your grade is based on a single, bigass paper — and the class was called “T. S. Eliot and War.” We started with the WWI poets — Siegfried Sassoon, Wilfred Owen, Rupert Brooke, &c — and then worked our way into Prufrock, The Wasteland, and the Four Quartets. It’s been a hot minute since I seriously read poetry, so it was very rewarding to get hip deep in the one of the most important poets of the 20th Century. I’m not sure who this is attributed to, but one pithy take on Eliot goes: Modernism begins between the second and third lines of “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock.”

The Midwich Cuckoos by John Wyndham. A small town gets knocked out by an unidentified force, after which it turns out all the women of childrearing age are knocked up. A comedy of manners that ends on a bang.

Day of the Triffids by John Wyndham. This novel defies the wisdom that you shouldn’t have too much weird stuff going on in a novel, because first up, almost everyone on earth is blinded by a celestial event, and then, while society is breaking down and everything is a mess, giant, ambulatory, carnivorous plants start preying on the survivors. Fun fact: Alex Garland lifted the opening of Triffids, which follows a patient who was convalescing in hospital & who doesn’t know about the recent cataclysm, for 28 Days Later.

The War of the Worlds by H. G. Wells. O.G. alien invasion narrative, which reads really weird now. Published in 1897, it pre-dates both world wars, and it shows. My paper ended up being on what Wyndham took from Wells when he wrote his own alien invasion narrative, fifty years and two world wars later.

Hidden Wyndham by Amy Binns. As far as I know, the only biography of Wyndham available, published in the last few years. I feel like Wyndham is experiencing a little bitty renaissance, because he is so much more interesting than many of his peers. Hidden Wyndham publishes just scads of his letters to the love of his life while they were separated by the war, and I admit I cried.

The History of Science Fiction by Adam Roberts. I also read a lot of academical stuff for the paper, but I’m not going to bore you with psychoanalytic takes on mid-century scifi or whatnot. I mention The History of Science Fiction because I read around for sections which dealt with my specific topics, and hit a three page analysis of The Midwich Cuckoos which was better than every other bit of criticism I’d read about that novel by a country mile. I made a mental note to get back to his fiction when I remember; Roberts is also a science fiction writer himself. I recommend following his twitter if you’re into extremely erudite dad jokes and multi-lingual puns.

Zombies!

Most of my zombie reads were rereads, so we’ll start with the new stuff.

Love, Lust, and Zombies: Short Stories edited by Mitzi Szereto. Short story collection about people banging the undead. Look, I know. Would you believe I read it for the articles? I do think it’s notable, given the burgeoning subgenre of monsterotica, that zombies almost never are portrayed as fuckable, a paradox of the zombie’s curious detachment and their voraciousness. Something something, quip about the little death and the big one.

The Down Home Zombie Blues by Linnea Sinclair. Turns out, not actually about zombies, which I found incredibly disappointing. Buddy-cop alien-invasion narrative with hive-mind space chthulu, set in Florida. Make of that what you will.

Everything Dies by T. W. Malpass. I read the first “season”; this is apparently some kind of serial. Decent, but it’s got the wordiness of serials and the tendency to jump around in a way that works when you’re consuming something episodically, but not so much in a binge. I’m on the fence about whether to continue.

The First Thirty Days by Lora Powell. Self-pub with the requisite typos and infelicities, but stronger than most. Kinda not into the fact that a vaccine is responsible for the zombie apocalypse. Given the pub date, this isn’t Covid vaccine denialism, just the regular kind, but it still rankles. I liked the slow collection of survivors; I didn’t like the cartoony bad guys in the third act. I also enjoyed that these zombies were fast zombies initially, but as they decomposed, they got more like the shamblers of yore. Not that physics exists in zombie stories, but I liked that these zombies decomposed like bodies would.

This is Not a Test by Courtney Summers. YA novel about a young woman who is suicidal when the zombie apocalypse hits, and ends up riding it out in the high school with a collection of frenemies. There’s a real thing that depressed people tend to do better in crisis situations, because they’ve been catastrophizing the whole time so sure, why not zombies. Beautifully written and worth the reread.

Severance by Ling Ma. Legit, I reread this almost exclusively because I watched the AppleTV series, Severance (no relation). This novel definitely cemented my opinion that zombie novels more accurately capture the experience of living through a pandemic than fiction about pandemics. This lappingly memoirish novel follows a post-college millennial through a global outbreak of Shen fever, which strips its victims down to one rote action until they die of exposure or malnutrition. She keeps working her publishing job as New York empties, masked and Zooming with a smaller and smaller group of people.

Zone One by Colson Whitehead. This is maybe the third time I’ve read this, second time I’ve listened to the audio, which is very good. Once you get past the 50c words and the complex syntax — not to mention how aggressively deadpan the narrative voice is — Zone One is seriously freaking funny. It’s honestly become one of my favorite novels. Zone One is also elegiac about a lost New York, like Severance, and is probably best understood as a 9/11 novel, of sorts.

The Dark Earth by John Hornor Jacobs. Another super rewarding reread. Jacobs isn’t reinventing the zombie wheel here — they’re pretty standard shamblers — but this book really cemented a lot of my early ponderings about the American instinct towards fascism, what zombie stories tend to say about domesticity, etc. The way the story is told through interlocking perspectives is absolutely aces, and there’s a sequence with a steam train which rules.

Seanan McGuire

The InCryptid Series. McGuire is seriously seriously prolific, so if you’re looking for three dozen novels or so because you’ve got a long weekend, look no further. I read the first four InCryptid books — Discount Armageddon, Midnight Blue-Light Special, Half-Off Ragnarok, and Pocket Apocalypse (I was today years old when I got the pun the title; the novel takes place in Australia), but I bounced off the fifth, Chaos Choreography. This is notable, because it usually takes me two books to run out steam with a series and have to take a break. InCryptid features a sprawling family of cryptozoologists (some of whom happen to be cryptids themselves). The first was published in 2012, and it isn’t so different from the glut of urban fantasy published in the 2010s, but they get weirder and more McGuire-like as they go on, which is cool to watch happen.

Wayward Children. I continued my read of Wayward Children with Down Among the Sticks and Bones, Beneath the Sugar Sky, and In an Absent Dream. I can’t recommend this series enough. It’s a sort of meta-portal fantasy, and the plots have the logic of dreams and nightmares. In an Absent Dream is absolutely gutting so I had to take a break, but I’ll be back.

Mira Grant. I also read a couple of her novels published under the Mira Grant name, which I think largely she uses for her more science horror stuff, but who even knows. Alien Echo is a YA novel set in the Alien universe. Olivia and Viola are the twin daughters of xenobiologists whose colony gets overrun with xenomorphs. Totally decent tie-in novel. Kingdom of Needle and Bone has a similar vibe to the Newsflesh books, which I enjoyed greatly despite my often loud bitching. Unfortunately, the book is about a pandemic, and I am not capable of reading about pandemics right now. I suspect this was supposed to be the start of a series, but Covid put an end to that, along with so much else. Oh, and speaking of that, I am absolutely dying for another killer mermaids book, like Into the Drowning Deep, but I think there might be some fuckery with the publisher? I really hope they get that nonsense worked out.

Ann Aguirre

Galactic Love. I’ve found my way working through Aguirre’s back catalogue because she’s a rock solid journeyman writer who is often quietly subversive as hell, especially when it comes to toxic genre tropes. Like in the first of her Galactic Love series, Strange Love, Aguirre takes on alien abduction romance, a sub-genre which is often a trash fire of dub-con and dudes with weird dicks. Strange Love is instead a charming, funny story with a talking dog and a Eurovision-ish contest, and the alien doesn’t even have a dick. This year I read the third, Renegade Love, which isn’t as great as Strange Love, but is still pretty great. It’s about a froggy dude in a murder suit, what more could you possibly need to know?

Mirror, Mirror. Mirror, Mirror is the second in her Gothic Fairytales series, after Bitterburn. I really enjoyed the Beauty & the Best retelling in Bitterburn, even if the end fizzled a bit, but I feel like Mirror, Mirror, which takes on Sleeping Beauty (sort of), was a misfire. The novel’s protagonist is the step-mother, and while I appreciated the attempt at inverting the tropes — it’s the mother that’s evil, not the step-mother — I don’t think the novel really gets under the hood of what those tropes say about motherhood, etc. The novel instead just relabels the good mom and the bad one.

Grimspace. The first in the Sirantha Jax novels about an FTL pilot who gets pinned as the patsy in some galactic political fuckery. Peripatetic space opera which moves pretty fast. The main character sometimes annoyed me with the gormlessly naïve thing that is common to this kind of protagonist, but still a totally decent novel.

Witch Please. Bounced off this hard, but then I have close to zero patience for contemporary romance, which this is. Just including it because Aguirre writes in a lot of different genres, which I think is nifty, even if they’re not to my taste.

Jessie Mihalik

I discovered Mihalik some time in October, and I’ve been tearing through her books. Incredibly fast-moving space operas, often with labyrinthine galactic court drama and some light kissing. The Consortium Rebellion series — Polaris Rising, Aurora Blazing and Chaos Reigning — just keep getting better, partially because I think she stops relying on tropes and types so hard. (Like one of the characters in Polaris Rising is 100% Riddick with the serial numbers filed off). Too be clear: tropes and types are what makes a genre, so I’m not slagging this, just observing. The first two of the Starlight’s Shadow series, Hunt the Stars and Eclipse the Moon, have a Vulcan-y psychic race which I am totally into, but I think the books are occasionally hamstrung by their first person narrators, especially the first. I’m reading The Queen’s Advantage, the second of the Rogue Queen series right now. The first, The Queen’s Gambit, has an Amadala-type elected queen, which is silly, but then mostly she’s queen so the title works, which is whatever. They’re all superfun books, and if you’re looking to while away an attack of insomnia, don’t pick these up because you will never go back to sleep. Just one more chapter.

Various Series I Continued Reading

Kiss of the Spindle by Nancy Campbell Allen. Steampunky take on Sleeping Beauty, and the second in a series begun with Beauty and the Clockwork Beast. The previous novel had a really cool protagonist, but the mystery plot was almost offensively stupid. Kiss of the Spindle improves on this by having a cool protagonist, and then also the whole locked room mystery was fun to watch play out. The antagonist ended up being the most compelling character by far, and I was bummed to see the next novel in the series wasn’t about him.

Raven Unveiled by Grace Draven. The last (?) of the Fallen Empire series didn’t quite work for me. We’ve met both main characters before — Gharek of Cabast and Siora — and the novel is supposed to be a redemption arc for the former. Alas, I felt like he was too much of a jerk to be redeemed, so I was ambivalent about the novel. I will always love Draven’s prose style, but I just can’t love Gharek. (I also reread all of the Wraith Kings series, of course.)

Irin Chronicles by Elizabeth Hunter. I read the first three of the Irin Chronicles series ages ago, when PNR was in its angel phase. I loved how Hunter dealt with the concept of a mate bond. Hunter addresses a specific fucked up situation which would inevitably happen if indeed the mate bond existed in book 2 or 3 of the Irin books — can’t remember exactly. I’ve only seen one other writer address this situation (but not this well). I never continued on with the series because of my aforementioned need for series breaks, but I finally got around to reading books 6, 7 & 8, The Silent, The Storm, and The Seeker. (I skipped #4, The Staff and the Blade, because I find Damien and Sari kind of annoying.) They were all enjoyable in their own ways, but The Seeker rises to a crescendo which could serve as a series ender, if she decides not to go on.

Ruby Fever by Ilona Andrews. Perfectly cromulent conclusion to Catalina’s arc in the Hidden Legacy series. The husband and wife team behind the pen name have this tendency to rely on eugenics in their magic systems, which can flower into full-on magical fascism. (The Kate Daniels books especially are guilty of this, most egregiously in Blood Heir, which I also read this year. I did not like Blood Heir.) Fortunately, in Ruby Fever they seem to be aware of how screwed up a system based on heritable magic would be, and there’s some direct critique in the novel. Ruby Fever also showcases their trademark ability to begin a novel with three totally screwed up but seemingly unrelated situations, and then have them escalate and entwine into a massive disaster. Even if I’m not into a book of theirs, they are very, very good at what they do. (Oh also, apparently I read Fated Blades, their most recent novella in the Kinsmen Universe, a series which they started and abandoned over a decade ago. I didn’t love it, but it was fine.)

Fugitive Telemetry by Martha Wells. The sixth Murderbot Diaries book, Fugitive Telemetry takes place before book 5, so the timeline was a little confusing at points. I thought we were going to get a road trip with ART after the last? Anyway, fun little locked room (locked space station?) mystery, full of Murderbot’s trademark kvetching. For a series based on a bot what murders, the Murderbot Diaries are surprisingly cozy reads. Murderbot just wants to get back to its stories when other peoples’ horseshit gets in the way. Big same, Murderbot.

Last Guard by Nalini Singh. I reread a few Psy-Changeling novels this year, to better and worse results. I invariably enjoy the books which focus on two Psy as the romantic leads, because all the growling and posturing of the changelings gets real old fast. The Psy are dealing with massive trauma, on a society-wide level, and Singh never defaults to the love of a good woman (or shape-shifter, whatever) to heal the damage. Her characters are going to have to work for it. Anyway, Last Gaurd has for its protagonists two Psy with disabilities — one physical and one mental. This is notable, because the Psy have practiced an incredibly nasty form of eugenics for last 100 years. We also get a closer look at the first gay couple I’ve ever seen in the Psy-Changeling novels. I think this is probably the best of the Psy-Changeling Trinity books to date.

Dukes are Forever and From London with Love by Bec McMaster. Dukes are Forever is the conclusion to McMaster’s London Steampunk series, and it absolutely sticks the landing. The series takes place in an alt-Victorian England where the upper classes have turned into literal blood-sucking parasites due to a communicable disease which is basically vampirism. It’s not a particularly careful alt-history — if you want that from your steampunk, read Meljean Brook’s Iron Seas series instead — but it is incredibly pulpy and energetic. From London with Love is an epilogue novella, which isn’t required reading or anything, but it was a nice denouement to a series I followed for whatever dozen books.

Various One-Offs

A Lush and Seething Hell by John Hornor Jacobs. Two novellas in a cosmic horror vein. While I liked The Sea Dreams It Is the Sky, a post-traumatic wig-out set in a South American country’s slide into dictatorship and its horrific aftermath, it didn’t quite get me like My Heart Struck Sorrow, about some librarians collecting the textured horror, sorrow, and folklore of the American south. There’s an alt-history where I became a folklorist, and I deeply appreciate the porousness of the collector and the collected. Also, while there’s some eldritch stuff going on in the center of both novels, the real horror is other godamn people.

Half a Soul and Ten Thousand Stitches by Olivia Atwater. Gaslamp fantasies set in the Regency period, and really very good. Atwater has a delightful way of shifting the perspective just enough so that somewhat tired tropes become interesting again. The main character in Half a Soul reads to me as non-neurotypical, and the protagonist in Ten Thousand Stitches is a servant, of all things. Both act as pretty furious indictments of the class system — far beyond the more anodyne “it sucks to be a penniless relation” kind one can find in this sort of thing.

Legends & Lattes by Travis Baldree. Baldree pinned the coziness slider all the way up on Legends & Lattes, a fantasy novel about an orc mercenary putting up her sword and opening a coffeeshop. If you’re looking for a comfort read with a focus on simple, sensual pleasures, this is the book for you. Also, there’s a huge, adorable dire cat.

Titus Groan by Melvyn Peake. Technically finished this in ’21, but I never did a round up last year, so. Tolkien’s Lord of the Rings is almost always invoked alongside the Gormenghast trilogy, and I can see why that is to a degree: they are both essentially English in a way I can identify but not define, and both describe a world on the knife’s edge. Both Gormenghast and Middle Earth are close to, if not wholly, a fantasy of manners, describing worlds circumscribed by the weight and the import of tradition and legend. Both end with this tightening sense of change introduced into a system which has been essentially (purportedly, nominally) changeless. Peake uses the language of apostasy to describe this coming cataclysm: the concepts of both heresy and blasphemy permeate those last chapters which detail the young Titus’s earling: the world of Gormenghast is as rule-bound as any horror novel, and often more obscene. It’s completely legible to me that someone born at the burnt end of the Edwardian era and who lived through the second world war would produce something as strange as Gormenghast — born as the old world falls away and the new one burns. All hail Titus, the 77th Earl of Gormenghast. God save us all.

Midnight Bargain by C. L. Polk. Probably the best read-alike to Midnight Bargain would be Shades of Milk and Honey by Mary Robinette Kowal: the setting is Regency-ish, but the situation is complicated by a tiny bit of magic. Beatrice Clayborn comes to Bargaining Season with her family mortgaged to the hilt to fund whatever alliance can be made through her marriage. She’s also practicing magic in secret, a magic which will be severed and suppressed by a marital collar. The metaphors at play could absolutely be too on the nose, but Polk has a Regency-level restraint and never overplays the obvious gendered (and class) dynamics. 

We by Yevgeny Zamyatin. I could probably put this in the “books I read for class” category, because I peer reviewed a paper about this, Brave New World and 1984. I’d already read the other two, so I thought, what the hell. And I’m glad I did, because this book ended up being an absolute banger. Written in the Soviet Union in 1920-ish, We is THE classic dystopia; both Huxley and Orwell cribbed from Zamyatin. D-503 is an engineer in a city made of glass and organized by scare quote “rational principles” un-scare-quote. The novel itself is an epistolary, of sorts: the One State is building a generation ship to colonize and proselytize aliens, when they find them; he is writing to the as yet undiscovered aliens. He kinda reminded me of the narrator in “The Horla,” a short story by Guy de Maupassant, the way he gets more and more unhinged as the narrative progressive, the difference being that We is a satirical comedy and “The Horla” is not.

So that’s it! I probably read some other stuff I can’t remember, but this is definitely the high notes. Another year, another teetering TBR.

Alpha Night by Nalini Singh

I went back and forth about even reviewing Alpha Night, the most recent Psy-Changeling Trinity novel, because it didn’t quite work for me, but for the usual reasons that Psy-Changeling books sometimes don’t work for me. At a certain point it’s on me that I keep reading books that have general themes that can bug me. But then I also want to noodle around and figure out why so few of the Psy-Changeling Trinity books work for me so far, when the last 4 or 5 of the Psy-Changeling installments are my most favoritest of any of them.

So, a quick rundown of the series: Psy-Changeling is a 14-book series set on an alt-Earth where there are 3 kinds of humans: regular humans, like you and me; the Psy, a psychic race who have subjected themselves to brutal anti-emotional conditioning called Silence for the last century; and the Changelings, animal shifters who cluster in packs of Changelings and who shift to similar animals. Changelings can be insular about other changelings — like wolves and cats won’t get on — but humans intermix fine, and do fairly broadly. Also, the Psy often treat humans like shit, as humans have no natural defense against psychic interference. Because the Psy actively repress emotion, child-bearing and rearing is a contractual affair, and the whole race has been cut off, both socially and genetically speaking, from the other two under Silence. The larger arc of the series shows the slow dismantling of Silence, as it turns out repressing emotion in a psychic race is debilitating to the point of species-level collapse.

As a romance series, this larger arc was seen through individual novels that focused on a specific pairing, and gave the background arc a really broad, global sense, like this really was fate-of-the-world stuff, but seen though the eyes of individuals. Mostly the individual outings focused on Psy/Changeling pairings (hence, like, the name of the series), but there are also plenty of Psy/Psy or Changeling/Changeling couples. As a huge nerd, I just went through and counted up: there are 5 Psy/Changeling pairings, 3 Changeling/Changeling pairings, 3 Psy/Psy pairings, and 3ish that include a human. (I say 3ish because one of the “humans” is a member of the Forgotten, a sort of rogue Psy population who submerged into humanity once Silence was initiated.)

On a personal level, I always much prefer a Psy-Changeling novel which focuses on the Psy. On a racial level, they are dealing with profound trauma and abuse, and I think romance novels, with their focus on emotional connection and physical pleasure, can be a perfect environment in which to explore recovery from trauma, especially body trauma. Singh is especially good at this kind of plot, as she never succumbs to the Magical Vagina, those ladyparts whose simple application can heal the most traumatic of injuries. Trauma is real, recovery is often slow, and sometimes people don’t heal completely. The Psy narratives often detail the beauty of the most simple pleasures, anything from burst of sweetness and warmth when you take a sip of hot cocoa, to the feel of silk on the skin. I’m a pretty big sucker for Beautiful Life philosophies.

I’m less interested in Changelings because I find the pack construction frustrating, and the dominant/submissive stuff actively annoying. There is nothing uniquely annoying about the way Changeling culture is constructed compared to other UF/PNR, so I’m not trying to single Singh out. In most shifter narratives, the animal shifters organize themselves around an alpha who is the mostest dominant. In Changeling packs, the dominants act as the government/cops of the pack, while the submissives and maternals, you know, act as healers or school teachers or whatnot. Of course, as you can see from the nomenclature, this is all highly gendered. Occasionally the dominants will talk about how terrifying it is to be called up in front of the maternals, but this strikes me as more of a joke situation: haha, look at the strong dude afraid of his mommy! I literally can’t think of a single maternal named character. (ETA: Wait, that’s not true: I can think of one, and it’s one of the very few female Sentinels. Having her be a maternal solves the problem of her love interest’s fragile ego when he thought she was more dominant than him. Which, that’s pretty fucked up.)

Anyway, The Psy-Changeling books reach a crescendo with the fall of Silence, which then necessitates a global change on all levels of society, and including all three races. During Silence, the three races seemed largely to govern themselves. The Psy were subject to the Psy Counsel, a collection of a dozen or so complete psychos. Psy who showed any kind of emotion were subject to reconditioning or rehabilitation: the first was painful and cruel, and the second resulted in a vegetative state. Changeling packs were organized around an Alpha, as I mentioned before, though there is some law regarding the interaction of the members of Changeling packs with each other. (There was apparently a series of disastrous Territory Wars in the previous century.) Humans seem to have the usual human systems, but then I can’t tell if the nation-state exists, or if there is a global body that advocates for their rights. That doesn’t really matter, I just bring it up because a lot of the legal structures in this world are very lightly sketched, which gives Singh a lot of latitude to bend the world to the characters.

Anyway, after the fall of Silence, and therefore the dissolution of the Psy Council, there are a few books showing the messy interim period until they get their new government systems off the ground. I positively live for this period, in fiction, as I think it’s hard to pull off, but incredibly rewarding. And Singh positively shines given a situation where individual relationships mirror real and important changes in the larger world. By the close of Allegiance of Honor (which honestly read like a clip show, because we check in with literally all the couples from the previous 14 books), global government has been realigned under the Trinity Accord. Trinity, as the name suggests, brings representatives of the three races together, in addition to various important factions within the larger groups: the E-designation Psy, the Forgotten, the Human Alliance, the Arrows, &c &c.

The Psy-Changeling Trinity books are absolutely a continuation of Psy-Changeling, so it’s more like season two than a whole new series. That said, I’ve been kinda bored by them. The first Trinity novel, Silver Silence, I was pretty excited about because it followed a major supporting character, Silver Mercant, who was aide to Kaleb Krychek. Alas, I find bear changelings annoying, which is who the Psy Silver falls in with. (Though, honestly, after spending time with the Moscow wolves in Alpha Night, who are all self-serious bores, I’m more than ready to hang out with the dopey drunk bears again.) Ocean Light also follows a long-running character, the guy who was the head of the Human Alliance, but it recycled the “medical tech might kill me” plot that was way better deployed in Vasic’s book, Shield of Winter, plus the hero was not the kind of asshole I appreciate. (Kaleb Krychek being the ❤️️asshole❤️️ standard.) I did enjoy Wolf Rain, which complicated the E-designation in a really cool way, though the heroine was a million times more interesting than the hero.

Alpha Night follows the alpha of the Russian wolf pack who lives in Moscow along with the Silver Silence bears and Kaleb Krychek. (This is a not dissimilar set up to San Francisco which has cat and wolf packs, and also major Psy players Nikita Duncan and the NightStar family.) Selenka Durev is not the only Changeling alpha who is also a woman — the ocean-wide pack of BlackSea’s First (basically an alpha) is also a girl — but she’s the first we’ve focused on. At a conference of E-designation Psy — who act as a bulwark for the PsyNet, a psychic plane which is necessary for all Psy to, like, continue being alive — Selenka has a fateful meeting with Ethan Night, a member of an insular Psy military unit called the Arrows. Mating at first sight is not supposed to exist, but that’s exactly what happens.

Which, this is right up my damn alley. I dig the narratives that complicate or otherwise rough up tropes of whatever genre, and the mating bond one finds in shifter stories especially makes me itchy. A really fucking fascinating series which does this particularly well is Elizabeth Hunter’s Irin Chronicles, specifically the third in that series, The Secret. That story features a woman who is permanently bonded to another supernatural creature as sort of experiment by that being, which results in both of them locked into both mutual need and mutual antipathy. It’s tragic as hell, and completely, horribly abusive. Alpha Night, unfortunately, doesn’t really do anything with this mating-bond-at-first-sight situation. It’s not supposed to be a thing in the Psy-Changeling universe, so it’s remarked on a lot by the characters, who then often reference genre fiction. Singh also includes excerpts from publications supposedly written in-world. (For example, there’s a soap called Hourglass Lives that I think is a riff on Day of Our Lives, which is so adorable.) I get a kick out of genre fiction commenting on the genre through showing their characters interact with in-world media. (For robust examples of this, check out the Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells, or Yoon Ha Lee’s Revenant Gate.) It could have been an easy thing to interrogate instalove in this context. Alas.

The interpersonal conflict instead is largely the one between Selenka and her father, who was passed over as alpha when her grandfather died. He’s whiny and entitled, and gives Selenka no small amount of grief. I really love when Singh writes about shitty Changelings who have shitty relationships, because sometimes they’re just a little too perfect. Mating bonds render things like spousal abuse impossible, and they’re so full up with protective instincts that they can be incredibly high-handed and high-and-mighty. (And, honestly, sometimes the way those protective instincts are portrayed looks pretty overbearing to me. The loudest example I can think of was Jenna’s brothers’ behavior in Caressed by Ice. She managed to get them to stand the fuck down, but she had to be really, really assertive in a situation where they were almost physically restricting her. They don’t own her, and nothing about that was healthy.) Selenka’s relationship with her father is heartbreaking, especially because its based on real, longstanding resentments and disconnects. And legit, her relationship with her mom is pretty fucked up too.

Her relationship with Ethan, by contract, is remarkably frictionless. He snaps into his role as the alpha’s consort pretty easily. He even interacts with pack mates with exactly what the situation requires, something which stretched credulity when coming from a scarred and traumatized member of an insular paramilitary unit. Like, how? Even his relationships with other Arrows heretofore have been bad. Most of the frisson in their relationship had to do with his bizarre and sometimes out of control psychic powers, which isn’t a conflict but a situation. I really could have used a little more conflict between these two, because suddenly being bonded to someone you don’t even know sounds kinda nightmarish, and that isn’t really acknowledged.

So I don’t know! I think my sense of malaise with the Trinity novels is that I don’t feel an especial sense of danger anymore. Unless they’re singular psychos like Ming Le Bon or the serial-killing Psy Council member, Singh’s evil organizations are often cartoonish. I don’t credit their motivations, so I don’t feel that much tension. The Trinity series has had really remote antagonists, so the overt plot doesn’t really resonate with the romantic plot for me. You’ll notice I didn’t even mention the overt plot of Alpha Night, because it really made no impression. In comparison, I can remember both the advancing mythology and the interpersonal relationships in, say, Heart of Obsidian, with perfect clarity, even years later. I think I read somewhere that the next Trinity book is going to deal with the PsyNet breaking apart, which is the kind of BFD that might really provide some grist for the main couple. Here’s hoping! I legitimately love this series, and I don’t like feeling on the outs.

Review: Spec Ops Z by Gavin G. Smith

I feel like every time I turn around, some nickel-plated idiot announces that the zombie genre is dead, har har. And while I don’t have a lot of time for this notion, I will grudgingly admit that we’re definitely out of the flurry of excellent zombie narratives that were published about a decade ago. Every time has its monster, and I think the zombie in the Obama years largely stood in for some pretty nasty undemocratic and racist stuff seething under the surface. I want to be clear that when I say this, I am not smearing all zombie narratives of this time period as right wing agitprop or whatever — that would be stupid and reductive.

But there are also certain inescapable through-lines to this era of zombie narrative. So many zombie narratives of the early 21st century position a white dude, often with a military or police background, and his capacity for targeted violence as the savior of domesticity and the world. World War Z (movie version), Walking Dead (both versions), Zombieland, etc. (Zombieland especially hasn’t held up so great: the character Cleveland, played by Mark Zuckerberg, ends up reading as an incel, and his murder of his hot neighbor after describing what a bitch she is for not noticing him is, as the saying goes, problematic.) It’s the old line: “You’ll be begging me to use my guns when the mob comes,” where the mob is generally coded as not-white, not-us, the ultimate dehumanized them.

Obviously, there are a lot of zombie narratives from this period which invert or subvert this trope. Take something like 28 Days Later, which turns the white military savior into anything but, the Mister Kurtz of his own sterile fiefdom. But 28 Days Later, no matter what it does with the trope, is still in dialogue with it. It’s just kind of baked into the premise: a small group end up having to organize their society balancing individual autonomy with group safety, in the most extreme environment possible. This era of the zombie narrative tended to pit the Spartan encampment against the Athenian mob, and violent expedience was the name of the game.

Since Trump’s election, Brexit, and most certainly since the Time of Covid, these tropes have become confused and messy, the coherence of the metaphor rotten. It’s just not mapping right anymore. Observe this, from a viral photo of Covid-deniers storming the Michigan capitol:

[Image description: A photo taken from inside a building looking out through windows. Several people press against the glass, most with their mouths open mid-shout. American flags, a red Trump hat, and the Guy Fawkes mask are visible. The image is captioned “World War Q”.]

Here we have a mob ostensibly fighting for personal freedom. The party of law and order tacitly condones the attack on the capitol and the murder of a policeman, if not explicitly. Authoritarianism rides to power on populism. This is ultimately what many zombie novels were presaging, but we’ve lost our taste for the fictional meat of it. I don’t know what the next monster will be, but zombies aren’t quite the zeitgeist anymore.

Which brings me rather long-windedly to Spec Ops Z by Gavin G. Smith. When I came across it in the Netgalley catalog, it struck me how long it’s been since I read a zombie novel. I think probably the last was Last Ones Left Alive, a musing, elegiac novel set in Ireland. (Oh, I also reread World War Z at the beginning of the pandemic, and that book was so accurate in its depiction of the societal and governmental responses to a global pandemic it ended up kind of hurting my feelings. ‘Sure didn’t get a laugh out of it like when I re-watched Contagion, boy howdy. ) I’ve been watching tons of zombie movies still — their low budgets all but ensure zombie movies will be cranked out forever — but the publication of zombie novels seems to be thinning.

It’s clear from the description that Spec Ops Z is more on the hardware nerd side, a kind of military sf that’s constructed like WW2 band of brothers movies starring John Wayne. In the interests of full disclosure, this isn’t particularly my bag, but I can be up for a bit of rowdy. True to form, Spec Ops Z is fast paced — except for a beginning which drags — and includes the kind of mayhem and gore I prefer in my zombie smash and grabs. The action isn’t always clearly blocked, but mostly it’s credible. Maybe most importantly, Smith doesn’t slip into pretentious philosophizing about the Nature of Man and Probably Evil Too, something I tend to find in these soldierly stories.

Spec Ops Z follows a group of Soviet Spetsnaz commandos from their posting in Afghanistan to a secret mission in NYC. It’s set in 1989 (if I remember correctly), when the Soviets were in the Afghani quagmire, not the US. (The Soviet-Afghan conflict is often called the Soviet Union’s Vietnam War, fwiw.) The members of the team all have pilot-style nicknames — Gulag, Mongol, Princess, etc — which I found somewhat precious: they were all walking around labeled with their single character trait. I couldn’t decide if this was lazy or brilliant, because it’s not like I’m reading this sort of thing for the articles, and I didn’t have to try to keep straight a dozen people with similar-sounding Russian names and patronymics. I’m leaning toward brilliant.

I was perked up at this beginning part because I actually was in the USSR in 1991, just a few months before the August coup attempt which lead to Yeltsin’s rise. Spec Ops Z appears to be a mild alt-history, in that a hard line KGB guy has deposed the reformist Gorbachev in the very recent past of the novel. As a consequence, relations are much shittier with the rest of the world. (Like, I kind of can’t imagine what might have happened if they had a hard-liner in when Reagan delivered his evil empire Star Wars nonsense. They were apparently pretty close to first striking us at that point as it was.)

The Spetsnaz team are pulled from combat in Afghanistan and sent on a secret-even-to-them mission to NY, where they set off a bioagent in Grand Central Station, one that turns everyone into zombies. Most of the team are killed, but miraculously reanimate with their reasoning intact, though the gnawing hunger to savage the living is always present. The pov character theorizes that this is because they’re all so hardened and have such great discipline and iron will from being Spetznaz soldiers. This I thought was the kind of self-aggrandizing BS a commando unit would tell themselves, so didn’t credit it overmuch. Unfortunately, later, when another character reanimates, it’s made clear this is the actual in-world reason, which, whoo boy.

The Spetsnaz are pretty pissed they ended up unwittingly bringing about the end of the world — the US retaliated with nukes, so there’s that to worry about too — and decide to go back to the USSR and revenge murder all the people involved, if they are not already shambling corpses. From then on it’s set pieces — through NY, onto a ship, etc — and largely what one expects from this sort of thing. What I really want to talk about happens in the last quarter of the novel, and therefore constitutes a spoiler according to most people. Fair warned.

SPOILERS BELOW

Like seriously I’m not kidding.

Not even a little.

When the Spetsnaz arrive in England, they come across a bunch of people dressed in Nazi uniforms. This is seriously fucking upsetting for most of the team — the leader grew up in Stalingrad during the Siege (which was fucking horrible), and others had their brushes with Nazis. It’s sometimes hard to remember now, but the USSR, the UK, and the US were all on the same side of WWII; what the hell are Nazis doing on British soil?

Turns out, these Nazis are a bunch of reenactors who started cosplaying a little too hard once the zombie apocalypse happened. They’ve set up their own little Reich in Zombieton-on-Wye, complete with a Joy Division (not just a band name) and cage matches between brown people and zombies. (I am completely tired by the zombie cage match trope, but it’s not lingered on overmuch, more’s the better.) (Also, I was fully expecting to have to grit my way through some sadistically detailed description of sexual assault, but Smith doesn’t go there, to his credit.)

I don’t think such a thing could happen in England in 1989, the scars of the War being what they were. Maybe in the States where we didn’t have to deal with the Blitz and … all the rest of it. But I legitimately don’t mean to nitpick plausibility here. For one, it’s a book about physics-defying cannibal corpses; I think I can allow a little latitude in the British national character. (Which, also, I’m not British, so.) This book was not written by someone living in 1989, and it is not being read by people in 1989 (barring time travel or whatnot.) Not even a month ago, Americans wearing the signs and emblems of both Nazis and Confederates stormed the capitol of the United States of America. Seeing Nazi cosplayers pop up in zombie fiction is pretty relevant to our times, considerably moreso when you consider that the Russians unleashed the zombie plague in both the US and UK in the book. What is zombiism but the ultimate DDOS attack?

I have occasionally been accused of overthinking pulp fiction, and it’s possible that’s what I’m doing here. However, I get the impression that Smith is really not messing around with his historical research. Much of it was spent being a total nerd about 1980s era Soviet & American weaponry — the firearms and armaments all lovingly described and detailed — but for sure he also has a detailed alt-history of the USSR. He goes so far as to name the hard-liner in charge of the country, and I suspect if my Soviet history were better, I could point to when exactly the timeline diverges. So I’ll assume Smith isn’t just writing pulp nonsense with no meaning, themes, or goals. It’s set when it is, with these specific people as protagonist, for a reason.

Given that this is a retitled reprint of a novel first published in 2017, there’s no way it’s directly addressing the Capitol Insurrection, but the rise of militant white supremacy has very much been a thing in this here age of Trumpism. But because of its placement at the very end of the novel, and the relative ease by which the ersatz Nazis are dispatched, I do kind of wonder what that sequence is trying to say. The Soviets riding in to save the British (and their America captives) from both the zombie plague they themselves unleashed AND white supremacy is also a little odd, and I’m not sure what to make of it.

I started this essay blathering about how zombies fit into a certain Obama-era ethos — before Brexit, before Trump — both anticipating and, in some cases, justifying both Trumpism and the Brexiteers. Just cut the bridges and retreat to your island in order to keep the shambling horde from overrunning those who really matter. I think Spec Ops Z ends up kinda perfectly encapsulating the ambivalent and shifting sense of meaning in zombie tropes in an America where violent white supremacy is ascendant. I’m not sure what exactly to take out of Spec Ops Z, but that could be said about every single aspect of my life at the moment: we’re all groping our ways forward.

So. An enjoyable novel with enough gory set pieces to keep me reading, and also deliberate enough to allow me to sharpen some of my favorite pet theories on it. Класс.

I got my copy from Netgalley. Spec Ops Z goes on sale February 2.

Origin Stories: The Day After

This is going to be one of those deep dives into my own bullshit. Fair warned.

A while ago I had a slightly wine-five conversation with a friend of mine (hi sj!) where we tried to parse the origins of our zombie obsessions. I know I have roughly eleventy million reasons why I keep seeking out zombie narratives – from a love of horror/comic gore that no doubt has roots in the body trauma I experienced birthing babies, to a static-shock kind of irritation I have with common, even prevalent, constructions of domesticity I find when the dead rise – but the reasons why I started picking up fictions of the undead are maybe a little murkier. I believe there are two formative experiences. I’ll start with the most recent.

There’s this half-joking definition of Gen-X that posits that it is the generation just too late for atomic bomb drills, but too early for Code Red. When we hit the school basement, our heads down and our fingers interlaced over our necks, it was because of the most prosaic tornado. (Or at least in the Midwest, where we had such a thing.) At a family function recently that put together my Boomer parents with my Gen-whatever kids, I was keenly aware of this divide. The Boomers and the kids rightly bonded over the trauma of the drills they are subjected to, whereas Richard and I just shrugged. This was not a part of our experience, this exact civic trauma baked into our primary educations. But we were still on the tailing edge of the Red Scare, even if the civic authorities had kenned to the ridiculousness of the bomb drill. My go-to nightmare before the zombie shambled into my psyche – and after, often in a confusing jumble – was one of nuclear devastation.

The Chernobyl disaster happened in 1986, just days after my 12th birthday. I’ve been watching the HBO series about the disaster, and kind of freaking myself out with how clear my memories of the event were, even though I was just a tween in the 80s. I remember Sweden sounding the alarms: where in the fuck is this radiation coming from? I remember all the Russian dissembling, and the slow leak of information. I remember once the disaster was contained, the propaganda they released about the brave and noble workers who sacrificed themselves to encase the reactor in concrete; as if. Seeing how close they were to meltdown — to the poisoning of Central Europe for the next several millennia – retroactively validates my schoolgirl fears. I had a fallout dream a week ago; I haven’t had one in years. Add in the fact that I spent a month in Minsk five years later – 400ish kms from Chernobyl, very roughly the distance from New York to Boston – and my schoolgirl fears look awfully credible. It’s completely crazy we didn’t quite clock the reality of that danger. But then, the whole goram Soviet Union was shuddering apart, so dying of wasting cancer seemed very fucking remote compared to possibly having to yeet off to Poland once all the unrest started in earnest. We were there in April. By August, the Soviet Union had shattered.

But I think the event that caused my zombie thing happened three years earlier.

This is the scene, as I remember it (which is a fairly huge caveat, because I’m regularly interrupted by family members telling me that’s Not How It Happened): I was at my grandparents’ house in Munhall, PA, a post-War suburb outside of Homestead, PA, birthplace of Carnegie Steel. Everyone was gathered round the television to watch “The Day After“,* which was a Television Event of the kind that my kids won’t ever experience: 100 million people watched that broadcast. The internet tells me there were 224 million people in the country at the time, which means that Jesus Christ that was a lot of people. (I think maybe Game of Thrones may be the last big tv event, but even that was a series – not a Big Deal TV Movie event. “Bird Box” this was not.) Or not everyone was gathered round; I’m fairly sure my five year old sister was already abed. We slept in the same room — which used to be our mother’s — in 30 year old twin beds. There were mourning doves who roosted in the eaves and woke us up in the gloaming with their sadly loud laments. Grandpa Ed was in His Chair, my parents and Grandma Fran were on the couch, and I was fists on chin on the plush carpeting. I was allowed to stay up because I was a worldly nine.

The first whatever hour of “The Day After” is just interpersonal bullshit as it plays out in Laurence, Kansas. Nothing about it is particularly memorable or interesting: it is just a day in the life. Some of the actors involved had established film careers, like JoBeth Williams, who had just starred in “Poltergeist” and “The Big Chill”, or Jason Robards, who had a pretty storied career at this point. John Lithgow had been nominated for an Oscar already, for “The World According to Garp” – which, gah, that movie is due for some reassessment – and would pick up another shortly for “Terms of Endearment”. (Steve Guttenberg wouldn’t make it big until a year or two later.) This wouldn’t be notable today – things are pretty porous between the big and the small screen – but back then actors tended to be relegated to one or another. I mean, maybe some second tier movie actor would cameo on Happy Days when they were deep in the junket, but that was about it.

Once the bombs fall, though, that’s when it happens. Or maybe that’s when it doesn’t happen, because the absolute worst thing about “The Day After” is how matter of fact it is about the fallout, both emotionally and physically. A couple of characters just simply vanish, never to be heard from again. Most try to carry on the only way they know how – like Jason Robards’ character, who continues doctoring despite the death of his family, his neighborhood, and his city. When the inevitability of his radiation poisoning becomes clear, he returns home, to find a bleak and blasted landscape with people picking the bones. He breaks down when he’s offered the barest kindness, weeping in the arms of a stranger. He presumably dies in the rubble. It’s a lot of people dying watching other people dying, at least until some of the dying start to kill. A woman delivers a godamn baby. They are all going to die.

I didn’t see this ending in 1983 because I freaked the fuck out so hard my parents carried me bodily to bed, where I presume I eventually slept. As a parent now, I can just see my parents’ slowly dawning awareness of my freakout: glued into the narrative, until my brain starts screaming with momservation, and I turn and see that look on my kid’s face. Sitting in the darkened bedroom and shushing quietly why I rub a back, trying to quiet the tears. I watched “The Day After” all the way to the end much later, and it was zero to the bone how closely the post-nuclear landscape aligned to my nuclear dreams, how the visual language of my nightmares is cribbed from just the barest glimpse of the end of this film. My mind goes to rubble, to the shadows on the wall, in the cold sweat of nightmare. The zombie shambles out of this landscape, its ataxia like radiation burns.

In retrospect, my viewing not much later of “Night of the Living Dead” at a slumber party would only act as cement on my personal horror landscape, setting the bleak nuclear winter as my discontent. My dreams tend to redress the houses I have lived in as the set for both the tedious and the terrifying, so my terrors tend to be the familiar turned strange: a sink full of blood, a doorway half-shattered but holding, a hatch in the floor above me raining down debris as someone – something – treads the boards.

*This is stupid and doesn’t matter, but I’m having a hard time deciding how exactly to deal with television/movie/episode names. AP and Chicago style are at odds, so I’m going with Chicago because they actually say what to do with series television names vs. episode names.

There Once Lived a Girl Who Seduced Her Sister’s Husband, and He Hanged Himself: Love Stories

I am coming down with something bad. I could feel the cement hardening in the cracks in my skull all day, and now my brain is both solid and lacy with an underwater stupidity. I had started reading some trash fiction this morning, as usually illness sends me crawling to comforting junk, but it didn’t suit this time. It turned out my misery wanted miserable company, which made There Once Lived a Girl Who Seduced Her Sister’s Husband, and He Hanged Himself: Love Stories by Lyudmila Petrushevskaya more or less the perfect companion. 

Sometimes short stories can be really constructed things, like a spring-loaded trap that snaps down hard on form or concept or what have you. These short stories are instead morbid and wry anecdotes, told with a sort of uniformity of structure, in a uniformity of locales. Which isn’t exactly true: when I could tell the time period, these stories ranged around from just post-War Soviet state to the now Russian Republic grumbling about New Russians. But poor, miserable, drunken, bureaucratic assholes are a time-transcendent fixture, as are the drear cabbage-redolent apartments and disconnective, though central, family structures. At a point, the whole collection started feeling like an extended rake joke, and I kept stepping and stepping on the tines that would aim the handle straight for my cement-filled head. Whether this will work for other readers is, as usual, up in the air, and it’s possible my single-sitting reading of this work helped my sense of the dark humor. 

One of the best set of classes I ever took was a Russian Literature and History two-fer in high school, and we decided to stage a reading of The Cherry Orchard. We didn’t know much about it, and the teacher (in a very interesting and, ultimately, rewarding choice) didn’t read up on The Cherry Orchard‘s very long history on the stage; she was not directing our impressions. It’s a pretty dire story, in terms of plotting, a family broken up and sold off, dashed hopes, dissolution. And we couldn’t stop laughing as we read, not at all. It got to be a pain in the ass because we couldn’t even get our scenes completed as the giggling took up from on to the other like an infection. Then we would all wonder, why the hell are we laughing at this? Though there are elements of farce, The Cherry Orchardisn’t unserious in its treatment of its characters, not running them as some kind of broad parody. 

Turns out, Chekhov intended it as a comedy, but its tragic aspects are inescapable. The laughter it provokes is uncomfortable, the burst of laughter after a startle. Many folk smarter and better’n me at theatre history have droned on about this at length, so let’s have an end to that and get back to Petrushevskaya, who manages to hit a Soviet version of the Chekhovian tragicomedy in a blur of miserable similarity. And who manages to do it turning Tolstoy’s famous aphorism on its head: “Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.” “Here, this is what happened,” so many of these stories start, and then not quite tragic but nonetheless inconsequential lives continue inconsequentially until they end, or the narrative does. 

The whole business reminded me of the Grandma Dory’s ironic anecdotes of her childhood, her Bestamore locked in by a stroke for the last 20 years of her life, left minded by teenage granddaughters who had better business to attend to. Bestamore had a tendency to push herself out of wherever she was propped, rolling down hills and gurgling in a way my Grandma would imitate. I guess she was trying to say something, Grandma would shrug with an old woman’s shoulders, laughing past her childish cruelties. Grandma’s lessons are always subtle. Petrushevskaya has an almost dismissively reductive narrative voice – “There once lived a girl who was beloved by her mother but no one else. The girl was used to it and didn’t get too upset” – but the opening dismissals are almost always belied by strange, glancing connections and the fact that she is focusing on these dismissed lives at all. 

I often try, when I’m writing up collected short stories, to sort them individually: this one, this theme; this other, its voice. I’m not going to do that here because I think this functions best as an album, in the old school records-slotted-in-a-cardboard-box sense, but also in the sense of family album, all those nameless and half-remembered ancestors, sitting in a row of schoolchildren or dapper in their military swag or holding armfuls of children destined to die before the age of five. Here are the stories of unremembered lives lived in squabbled over apartments and stupid jobs. Amen.

a line of people in a black and white photo in front of building, one of which is my great-grandfather (though I don't know which) on the eve of his running from Lithuania during the Revolution
One of these men is my great-grandfather, on the eve of the Revolution which will send him out of Lithuania. I don’t know which one.

I received my copy from Netgalley.com

Wolfhound Century by Peter Higgins

When I read Yellow Blue Tibia, I was struck by the lack: why isn’t there more more Soviet Noir? It seemed obvious when I saw it there: the world-weary gumshoe, the crushing, predatory bureaucracy, the hidden history that is the very history of authoritarian regime. The official story is such glossy fiction, wrapped like a carapace over the bleeding sinew of the body politic. Yellow Blue Tibiais less alternate history and more historiography, the speculative fiction of national narrative and the secret speech that underpins it. Though, of course, Americans were the most well voiced creators of the Noir genre, Noir seems attuned to the Soviet history in a weird way. The commissioner won’t just bust you down to the beat, but disappear your ass to the gulag. Soviets had some of the most fabulously Noir bureaucracies ever built, only sputteringly efficient, capricious, and absolutely deadly. 


 Wolfhound Centuryis a strange animal, existing in the tidal edges of genre, the marshlands that are moving silt. Backwater police Inspector Vissarion Lom is called in by high ranking police official in the capitol city Mirgorod to investigate a Moriarty-ish terrorist, and gets caught up in the wheels within wheels of the Noir plot. I wouldn’t call this densely plotted, as at least part of the time has to be spent introducing us to the world. In this, Wolfhound Centuryprobably has some similarities with Mieville’s The City & The City. And I say “probably” just because I’ve never read The City & The City, but gossip has it that the detective plot of C&C is maybe perfunctory, while the cities of Besźel and Ul Qoma are not. I felt there was a good balance of world building and happening here, anyway, and the action is relatively breathless, if you’re into that sort of thing. Short chapters, shifting points of view, a fair amount of bloodshed once the stakes start escalating like floodwaters. 

Much of the ornament and language is Soviet Russian, something I once knew enough about to be smart, but that has gone hazy for me. Still though, Mirgorod (which translates to “world city” or “peace city”) and its origin myths smack hard of Peter the Great, standing out over the swamp that would become St Petersberg with his near seven feet. Or the Akhmatova hat-tip, or the fact that the secret police are call the NKVD (this the precursor to the KGB), or any of a hundred things. But this is not our world, not an alternate history in the strictest sense. The Vlast with its great unconquerable forests stretching off to the west, the steampunk-ish mudjhiks, the fairy tale palubas like some thing Baba Yaga would create, the fallen angels hard and stony: all of these strange, fantastical things shift the Soviet history, twist it. All in all, I get the impression that Higgins’s grasp of history is very, very good, and his choice to set this in an alternate reality is pointed, not lazy. 

I probably don’t even need to say this isn’t going to work for everyone – no novel does, even your darlings – but it sure worked for me. I usually get really cranky when writers eschew the alternate history in favor of Bullshit Fantasy Planet, where the writer constructs a near-simulacrum of a time period, but then fudges the details for the needs of the protagonists. (Later day steampunk is guilty of this a good deal, and high fantasy, don’t even get me started.) But that is not what happens here. This isn’t so much alt-history as coded history: the extremity of the details, the weirdness, the bent genres, all calling into relief the ugly extremity of history, its non-inevitability despite the fact that it happened, and so on. There’s a time leakage at the center of the plots, a breakage of possible futures and presents, and given the harsh relief between lived lives and the propagandistic gloss under Stalin, this sort of fantastic time slippery is just a beautiful metaphor. 

There’s a character called Vishnik here, a member of old aristocracy who, for a time, managed to hide his manored upbringing. But discovery was inevitable, and he was deposed from the university where he taught. He became an archivist of Mirgorod, a sinecure which he more or less takes seriously. He has been recording the moments when the possible present splits from the actual one, and those moments are stoppingly beautiful, half out of time and within it like a gestating creature. There are dog’s brains within armored suits which smash the way they must. There are fallen angels – harshly alien – who are at war with the forest. God, this kind of encoding and inflection makes me all giddy, especially hitched to a Noir plot that has breathless short chapters that run and scream from one encounter to the next. 

Here’s the thing: I’m not pumped about this ending. I don’t hate it. I get why we end in the marshlands outside Mirgorod, in the interstitial place of sinking land and silted water. That part works for me. 

The world and everything in it, everything that is and was and will be, was the unfolding story of itself, and every separate thing in the world – every particle of rock and air and light, every life, every thought and every event – was also a story, its own story, the story of everything becoming more like itself and less like everything else. The might-be becoming the is. The winter moths, on their pheromone trails, intent on love and flight, were heroes.

But the confrontation between antagonists drags, feeling like this itchy diversion before the real confrontations, which, whoops, apparently won’t be happening in this book. I suppose I could work a justification here for why the book never comes to the final crisis – blah blah, something about the insignificance of individual will versus the state kind, etc – and certain personal trajectories are completed satisfactorily, but if there isn’t a second book, I will be a cranky cat indeed. So, Mr Peter Higgins, get on that shit.

Yellow Blue Tibia by Adam Roberts

I once got in a huge argument with some friends when they uttered the following statement in my presence: “The post-Soviet economic system is a much purer form of capitalism than our own.” In addition to being vague to the point of meaninglessness, this idea, which I’ve heard several times in different contexts, is such a ridiculously American piece of twaddle, uttered in comfy American living rooms while outside government continues to function and basic services are rendered. Adam Smith’s sherry-snorting little capitalist would piss himself yellow when confronted by a New Russian when he came to shake down the widget factory for protection money. Before you jump down my throat, yes, I am aware that the US is a total kleptocracy, and that for many Americans, basic services don’t even exist. But what bridles me about this statement is the almost wistful idealism – in the classic sense of the term – that goes along with this statement: look at those lucky Russians living out the American dream of a total lack of government! Think of everything we could get done if we dismantled public education, a state-maintained infrastructure, and even the pretense of a impartial court system!

In 1991, I went on exchange to the Soviet Union, to Minsk in Belarus specifically. (Although, it was called Byelorussia in those days. I can see why the name change – Byelorus means White Russia, but spoken aloud by English speakers, this sounds like Yellow Russia.) I was 16 years old, and typically naïve, although not in a particularly precious or nasty way. We were exhorted by the exchange leaders and chaperones to be mindful of not becoming the dreaded ugly American. We all very earnestly took this to heart, but in some very real way, there was nothing to be done about what a complete mindfuck was coming our way. Turns out, the Soviets viewed history entirely differently than Americans. I mean, duh, of course they do, but it’s one thing to say this, and another thing to walk around in place entirely steeped in an alternate history. It’s like someone took all the regular labels, and, I don’t know, rendered them into Cyrillic or something. 

I’m being flip, but here’s an example: I know it may be hard to remember, but the Soviet Union and the US were both Allies in the War. When I say the War, I mean WWII, which the Russians would call the Great Patriotic War. The War sucked for the States, absolutely: rationing, tons of people dead, Japanese internment  etc, but this is a completely different kind of sucking than the Russians experienced: cities laid siege, the countrysides burned to ash, the lack of basic munitions for the soldiery. (And this is assuming the soldiery were even, in the strictest sense, soldiers. There were tons and tons of statues in Minsk – rightly so – to the partisans who fought the Nazis with absolutely no military training or back-up of any kind.) So when Russians speak with pride about their part in War, it’s a fundamentally different kind of pride than an American would understand. It’s personal in a way an American transported on government ships, outfitted with government weapons and generaled by American military leaders cannot begin to understand. Again, caveats all around about your Grandpa and how he got screwed this one time, or LeMay and what an idiot he was or whatever. My point stands: your Grandfather didn’t have a gun to both his front and back when he went to war. I’m not saying his service is less valorous or whatever; I’m saying it’s entirely different. If it weren’t for this experience, I might have been able to go along with the statement above, because I would have understood the word “capitalism”, with it’s embedded widgets and labor and markets and all that crap in a very specific way, and then thought I could export those ideas with their nomenclature intact. Wrong. No way. 

I have roughly seven thousand different anecdotes about how my mind was blown by this country that was filled with humans, flesh-and-blood recognizable humans, and how their sense of history, community, and individuality was entirely different from mine. Yellow Blue Tibiatakes place in this Soviet Union, and I’m afraid a good deal of my pleasure with this novel is intensely personal. Which is not to say it isn’t good, because it really, really is. Frankly, I’m a little pissed off I had never heard of Adam Roberts before Mike’s review turned me on to this. Yellow Blue Tibiais a thoughtful exploration of the idea of alternate history, both in the literary and the cultural senses, in this po-mo meta way, but don’t let that dissuade you. It’s also maybe the first example of the Soviet Noir, in this incredibly funny way that zips the California flat-foot backwards, but don’t let that dissuade you either. 

I’ve started this review a couple of times, but each time I get into the swing of things, the freaking battery on my lappy fails, and I lose it all. I wised up at some point, and started saving regularly, but the whole thing has been so frustrating with lost passages and I feel so sick and irritated with trying to recreate them that I’ve decided to chuck it all and start over. It’s kind of perfect, in way – although this may be the sour grapes talking – because this book is partially about history and the ways it is perceived, the way those perceptions are enacted and enforced. For whatever reason, I’ve been reading a lot of fiction recently in the mode of alternate history, and then also stuff about the paranoid conspiracy. I’m beginning to think maybe history is a paranoid conspiracy. Seriously, don thine tin foil works of millinery and gather round for this one.

As I’m writing, I’m sitting on the back porch while firecrackers bang around me in the dark. It’s Forth of July weekend, and we Americans are reenacting our big F.U. to taxes and England and whatnot. Our country was founded on an oppositional basis: we are not a monarchy, we are not British, we are something other, and that other is not-you. The Brits kind of fell off as our bad-guy of choice, but we’ve always found another other, which probably reached it’s societal pinnacle of othering with the Cold War. And the reason our conflict with the Soviets was so freaking perfect was that at the very same time, they were writing themselves as not-us. (I guess when I say perfect, I mean horrible and infectiously engulfing, but you know what I mean.) 

Yellow Blue Tibiatakes place in the Soviet Union in 1986, mostly, when the Soviet narrative was beginning to crack and fail, on a collective level. (Har har?) The same could be said about that time in the States: the Berlin Wall had fallen, Germany was nervously approaching reunification, and we were all kind of losing interest in the whole thing. Meh, it’s done. Reagan’s “Star Wars” speech was in ’83, but this was pretty much a punchline on the era – for cripe’s sakes man, clearly you have been reading too much science fiction! (Although, that little chestnut was dusted off after 9/11, as you may recall, just another piece of evidence of how un-charmingly Cold War Era our “security systems” still are/were.) Anyway, the protagonist, along with a number of other science fiction writers, was called by Stalin after the Great War to script the war-after-the-next-war. After the Soviets put down the Yanks, they would need a new enemy to fight, and that enemy, my friends, would be aliens.

They beaver away at it, script the entire invasion, until they are told to stop and never to speak of it again. Unlike an American in the same instance, this actually means something, so they don’t. I’ve always laughed my ass off at American conspiracies, because the idea of governmental competence on that level is a real knee-slapper. If there’s one thing a group of Americans can’t do, it’s shut the fuck up on an institutional level. A Stalin Era Soviet, however, knew the true murderous power of an effective government, at least when it came to shutting you the fuck up. So he shuts up, drinks roughly 8 million cubic shit-tons of vodka, dries out, and manages to make it to ’86 more or less intact. Then the real fit hits the shan. He’s contacted by another of the writers from the group, who pitches the idea that all their fictions are beginning to come true. 

There’s a lot of snicker-snack and some zippy plot-driven origami at this point, and I won’t go too far into it for fear of spoilers. But woo-ey, it’s fun, and more mindful of character than your usual high-concept exercise. There are parts that got a little to expository for me, especially near the end, but wow is that first several hundred pages worth reading when compared to the only partially lumpy infodump near the end. And even though I’m complaining a little bit, I still thought the ideasworked and they worked well, reconciling all kind of craziness into a neat pile of half-smoked Russian cigarettes. Roberts is the most fun sci-fi writer you’ve never heard of. Sci-fi nerds, get out and read this as soon as you are able.